Part TwentySeven;; "I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you.."

Friday 20th of august
Starbucks
12:30PM



I looked straight at his eyes.

"yes..?" I said.

"Has anyone ever told you that you have the most beautiful smile..?" I said.

"naa3aam..?" I blushed and covered my face.

"Shfeech??!" He laughed.

"Walla shay" I giggled, still covering my face.

"Yalla 3ad wakhray eedech bashouf wayhich w bashbaa3 minna gbl la asafer." He said.

"Enzain.." I said and uncovered my face..

"Shzeenich yal khaysaa." He said. "Besmellah 3laiich." He continued as he took a sip from his coffee.


"Thanks.." I blushed.


"I'm gonna miss you like hell.." He said.

"I'm gonna miss you too.." I said, and gave him a half smile.

"the7kay 3dl, i want to remember how beautiful your smile is." He said & smiled.

"Okay.." i blushed and smiled.

"Aaaakkh, ma abii arou7!" He said.

"It's okay, we'll get through it." I said.

"enshallah!" He said.

I took a look at my watch. "Oh, i have to go.." I said as i stood up.

"La yuba waiin ray7aa..!" he said and got up.

"bs yousef, i have to go.." I said.

"No, shda3wa, 7aram 3laich wallah b3d chum youm basafer, khaleeni arou7 w ana mestanis." He said.

"hmm....enzain." I hesistated.

"Mashkoura.." He said with the biggest smile across his face.

"El3afoo.." I said and smiled back.

"I can't believe i'm actually sitting with you here,talking.." He said.

"Me too.." I said and blushed.

"Ya bnt el7alal khalaa9, bass la testi7een, ana w entay wa7id, khalich normal." He said.

"I'm normal." I said.

"No, ebayen 7adich metwatra, your hands are shaking." he said and looked at them placed on the table. "& also, your cheeks are so red, they're soo cute." He continued.

I giggled.

"Can i hold your hands?" He said.

"Since you asked so nicely.." I said and smiled. "Yes you can.." I approved.

He placed his hands on mine; My heart started beating so fast, felt like it will break through my chest.

"Sweetie, your hands are freezing.." He said.

"There always like that.." I said and smiled.

He looked at me for a few seconds, admiring.

"I love you, Dayoumtii.." He said breaking the silence and smiled.

At this right moment i understood what the killers were talking about when they sang "Smile like you mean it.."
I was falling in love all over again.

I sat there. motionless.

"Dayoumtii.." He said.

"halla.." I said.

"Ma yeswaach 3indii ensaaan, walllaaah." He said.

I blushed. "Yousef, don't make me cryy." I said and looked at the table.

"I'm sorry, i just want you to know how much you really mean to me.." He said.

"Thank you." I said, "I love you too." I said and turned to a huge tomato.

"Ya ba3ad chabdii wallaahh.." He said.

"yousef, yalla bs let's go." I said.

"Okay, 3la ra7tich, w thanks a lot! you have no idea how much this means to me." He said.

"Your welcome." I smiled as he was walking me to my car.

He opened the car door for me, i got in and he shut the door behind me.

I opened my windowm "Thanks!" I said and wore my sunglasses.

"Yalla 3ad la7thaa." He said and took off my sunglasses.

"Haa shnuu!?" I said and giggled.

"Let me take a look at your eyes shwayaa." He said.

"Enzain.." I smiled.

"Will you be there at the airport the day i leave?" He said.

"Uh..i don't know. i'll see if i can." I said.

"Okay, but you do know it'll be hard to say goodbye right?" He said.

"I know, that's what makes me dont want to come.." I said.

He held my hand and kissed it.

I was crashing inside.
I wanted to scream my heart out.
I wanted to yell 'DONT GO' but i didn't want to be selfish.

I quickly wore my sunglasses. "sorry, yalla i have to go." I said as soon as i felt tears are about to come down.

"Wain waiiin shfeeech?!" He said.

"Khala9 yousef, please let me go!" I said with a shaky voice.

"Dayoum shfeeech!?" I said.

"I'm going to miss you!" I cried behind my rayban sunglasses.

"Afa, galbii la tabcheeen!" He said.

"Im sorry." I said and wiped my tears behind the sunglasses.

He places his arm on my shoulder, "Khala9 sweetie, wallah al7een amshii, la tabcheen! wallah ga6a3tay galbii..." He said.

"It's okay, i will cry sooner or later, mo beedii." I said.

"a7ebich a7ebich a7ebich!" He said.

"I love you too!" I said.

"Yalla 7ubii byee! take care, w deerbalich bl6ereeej,w akalmich elyoum belail okay?" He said.

"Enshallah. 7ta enta take care." I said.

"Enzain yalla '9e7kay." He said.

"Yousef, it's not funny..!" I said and cried more.

"7yaatii khalaa9, you're the one who's suppose to be strong to make me feel better leaving you behind." He said.

"Okay okay khalaa9, im sorry!" I said and took a tissue to wipe my tears.

"3afya 3la 7abeebtii, yalla please smile....for me?" He said and pouted.

How could i ever say no to that face? i thought.

I smiled. "There.." i said.

"Ya 7latich, rabii ya7fe'9ich w ekhaleech lee enshallah!" He said and smiled.

"Enshallah, w ekhaleek lee." I said.

"Yalla m3a elsalama yal ghalyaa." He said.

"M3a elsalama honey.." I said and closed the window.

changed the gear to "R" waved to Yousef and drove off.

I saw him standing there from the rearview mirror, he stood there until i was out of his sight.

Friday 20th of august
My car
2:15PM

With the song "Boston" playing in the background i called D and weaped.

"7beeebtiii waiinich now!?" She said.

"I'm on my way home.." I said.

"No no, correction; you're on your way to my house, now!" She said.

"Laa D, i need to go home." I said.

"Chub, and come, i'll be waiting." She said and closed the phone.

I drove around his area for 10 minutes.
Just passing by his house seeing his car parked in there.

I stopped the car next to his house, i wrote "I love you;;*" on a stick-it note pad, and stuck it on the door handle of the car.

I got in my car and drove to D's house.

I got in her room & spilled my heart out.

"Oh my god!" D said.

"i knoww." I said and cried.

"b3d galbii come here!" she said and hugged me.

I hugged her back, "D you're my only chance of surviving without him.." I said.

"Chub, i dont want to cry!" She said.

"Okay." i stayed silent.

Friday 20th of august
My bedroom
9PM

I was laying on my bed with my Ipod tuned on Shuffle.

"The luckiest" By Ben fold five was playing and it was the lyrics;

"What if I'd been born fifty years before you,
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?"

"BEEP"
New text message recieved.

xoxo
- S™