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Sunday, March 22, 2009

Part ThirtyFive;; "Don't pretend you're sorry; i know you're not!"

Sunday 24th of august



I woke up, looked at the time, its too early, i thought.
I checked my phone, i had 3 messages, one from D, one from Haya, & one from Yousef.

D's message; "So, what's our plan? ;p"

Haya's message; "Can i see you today? alone?"

Yousef's message; "9baa7 ilkhaiir.. ;*"

I got out of bed, went to the bathroom, washed up and went down to have a breakfast with my parents.

Sunday 24th of august

I replied to the messages,

D's message; "I dont know yet, have an idea?"

haya's message; "Yes, when?"

Yousef;; "9baa7 ilnour.. ;*!"

I opened my laptop and signed on msn.
few people we're on, i changed my status to away, and opened the internet explorer to

Checked random videos for about 2 hours, when all of the sudden my phone rings.

Caller ID; Haya

I picked up.

"Heyy." I said.

"Hii, shlounich?" She asked.

"il7emdillah tmam, entay shlounich?" I said.

"Bkhair il7emdillah, ha wain tbeen we meet?" She said.

"I dont know, it' up to you.." I said.

"How about Starbucks?" She suggested.

"Yeah sure i don't mind, which starbucks?" I asked.

"3dailiya it's the closest to us." She said.

"Okay sure, what time?" I asked.

"Around 6?" She said.

"Okay, i'll see you then," I said.

"Okay, see you, bye" She said.

"Bye" I said and closed the line.

Sunday 24th of august

I was talking to D on the phone.

"I'll meet haya at starbucks 3dailiya, 6 o'clock" I said.

"Good, good, look iText Color'll come to starbucks 3dailiya, like i dont know you guys are there okay?" she explained the plan to me.

"Sounds like a good idea, khala9, i'll see you then, bs madri laish a7es we're gonna sit upstairs." I said.

"no, give her any excuses 3shan you stay down, look if i didn't find you down, i'll go up as if i need to use the W.C, okay?" D said.

"Okaay, Great!" I said.

"I can't wait to see Haya's face expression when we tell her about the email.." D said.

"7daa, ambaiih, do you think she realised ena she sent it to me? or no?" i asked.

"Wallah i dont know, bs i think she didnt realise, or else she wouldv'e sent another email etraagi3 ilsalfa." D thought.

"True, okay, i'll see at 6:30, ana now ba6ali3 an episode of Gossip girl, lail7een ma sheft the latest episode, yalla ciao.." I said and closed the phone.

i sat on my stomach and pressed on the play button to start Gossip girl season one episode 9.

Sunday 24th of august



I was getting ready when my phone rang, Yousef was calling.
I picked up.

"Aloo..?" I said.

"Halla dayouma, how r u?" He asked.

"Halla feek, fine il7emdillah, you?" I said.

"Im fine etha you're fine, ha bashraay anything new?" He asked.

"Nothing new, im meeting haya in a while." I said.

"Ohh, well good luck, call me as soon as you're done, okay? i'll be waiting." He said.

"Enshallah, goodbye!" i said.

Got my stuff in my bag, got my car keys and left my bedroom.

Sunday 24th of august
In the car

I'm almost reaching Starbucks when i got a text message from Haya,
"Ana tawni 6al3a mn ilbait, see you there.."

I decided not to reply, and instead i sent a text message to D, to make sure we're on the plan.

I parked and got in starbucks and sat downstairs in the couches in the corner next to the window.

About 5 minutes later, Haya arrived.
We exchanged kisses and sat.

We stayed quiet for a while.

"uhh, so what's the thing you wanted to talk about?" I asked, breaking the silence.

"Ohh, well i was wondering if you and yousef are still together..?" she asked, straight forward.

"what? and why do you want to know?" I asked.

"I was just wondering, you're my friend, and he's my cousin, i want to know if its working for you two." she said.

"Aha, well i think this is personal and i don't want to talk about it." I said.

"Seriously? shda3wa gouleelii.." she said.

"Sorry, i can't." I said.

"Laiiish!?" she asked.

"Bs, it's personal, and i'd like to keep it that way." I explained.

"I need to know, please tell me!" she begged.

"Why do you need to know?" I asked.

"Because if it's not working with you guys, that means he's free and i can finally have him." she said.

I was paralyzed there for a second, HOW FUCKING CRAZY WAS THAT! i thought.

"Excuse me?" I said.

"i think you heard me, don't you get it deema? I'm madly inlove with him." She said.

"And that's why you've set up a guy that calls me and bother me,huh!?" I said.

"Noo,noo i did not do such thing!" She lied.

"LIAR!, what About the email i got that was sent by you to me by mistake!?" I snapped.

"huh..?.." she said with the question mark on her face.

"you know what im talking about.." I said.

"No i dont, ay email?" She said.

"The email that was meant to be sent to Khaled." I said.

"Who's khaled?" She asked. so innocently.

"STOP LYING! i know your plan, and stop pretending to be the innocent girl, You don't fit the part!" I said.

"I don't know what you're talking about.." she said.

"Im serious haya, i caught you! stop it with the bullshit!" I said.

"Uh...umm, look.." She stuttered.

"Im waiting for a reasonable explanaition, and not because you're madly inlove with him,its not enough for me." i said.

"I..." she said. her eyes wear filled with tears, but they didnt fall.

"You what? TELL ME! you're being too selfish!" I said.

"I dont know what i was doing!!!" she snapped.

"Yes you do, because you're still doing it!" I said.

"wallah madri shagoulich, dayouma please understand i didnt want it to get this far, wallah!" She said.

"But it did!! it did!!" I said.

"You're worried about khaled?" She said.

"No, i dont give a damn about him!" I said.

I texted D, "Don't come, i'll handle it."

"Then why are you so mad about it?" she asked.

"Are you serious? I love yousef, and you're ruining my first and best relationship i ever had, let alone you're one of my friends!" I said.

"Is it ruined? your relationship?" She asked.

"No it didn't, but if you keep doing what you're doing, it's gonna happen sooner or later, so stop what you're doing, stop it!" I said.

"So it means my plan is not working, so you dont have to get so worked up about it if nothing happened." she said.

"You're soo fucking calm, I cant even believe you dont feel bad about doing this stupid plan of yours!" I said.

"I am feeling bad about it, bs i love yousef, w if i wanted something so bad, i dont stop until i get that thing" She said.

"Is that a threat?" I asked.

"call it whatever you want." she said.

"Mashii, im going home now, Yousef is waiting for me to tell him what you did, we'll see who will end up with him." I said.

"You told him?!?!? you told him about my plan?" she yelled.

"No i didn't, but i will, and i promised him that i will, so dont even start to change my mind about it, it's settled, i'll blow your plan, and im pretty sure if Yousef found out that you're planning to ruin his happiness he wont even consider you a cousin anymore.." i said.

"Dont tell him, please deema, im your friend, dont let me loose a member of my family." she said.

"My friend?? since when!? you brought this to yourself, now handle the consequences!" I said.

"But.." she said.

"No buts, if you actually cared about Yousef, even one bit, you wouldn't have done what you're doing, if you love someone, you want to see him happy, and what you're doing, it won't make him happy!" I said.

"Deema, i love yousef, and nothing can change that, i dont know what got into me, bs wallah i even talked to my mother about it, im THAT serious!" She said.

"About what exactly?" I asked.

"How much i love yousef, and that i wish to have him as a husband." She said.

I felt someone was squeezing my heart like an orange.

"You did what? and what did she say?" I asked.

"she said she might talk to my aunt about it, see if it could happen." She said.


"I already talked to mom about it, its done." She said.

"Its done...meaning?" I asked.

"That maybe when he graduates from USA, things could get serious between us." she said.

"You're soo selfish, it's sick!! you're sick!" I said.

"I tried to warn you before, tra by the way, khaled really likes you.." she said.

"SCREW BOTH OF YOU!" I said and got up with a tear running down my cheeks.

I got into my car and drove to D's house, rascally, i almost got into an accident, twice.

Sunday 24th of august
D's bedroom

I got in D's room crying my eyes out.

"DAYOUM!!!!! SHFEEEEEEEEECH!!" She yelled.

"I can't breathe!! I...i'm scared!" I said and cried more.

"Scared of what?? TELL ME!?" She said.

I poured my heart to her, i told her everything, exactly how the dialogue was between me and Haya.

- S™

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I know, wallah i know!

I know you all want to kill me

BUT i have a good reason to why i didn't post a new part yet...

I'm really Sorry to keep you all waiting, and i will keep you waiting for the next couple of days, i'm sorry, but due to the fact that i have so much work for college now that we're back for semester 2 and im barely catching up because i have afternoon classes, from 1:30 to 6Pm, i don't have that much time to get on the net and update, and also, my internet connection at home is being soo gay, wallah lawaa3 chabdii, but i promise no more than a couple of days and i'll be posting a new part, inshallah by this coming weekend i'll have a new part for all of you to read, DEAL? ;)

Love you guys, w thanks for being patient with me!
I really appreciate it.
Again, i'm really sorry.

Have a good day.

- S™

Monday, March 2, 2009

Part ThirtyFour;; "I'm caught in the middle.."

My apologies, my internet connection was givin me a hard time.
And i'm sorry but this post will not be as long, cos of the internet problem.
because i want to post something, cos i know i kept you all waiting for a long sorry.

Saturday 23rd of august

My bedroom


D walked into my room yelling.

"WHAT HAPPENED?? SHFEEECH!?" she yelled.

"HAYA HAYA HAYAA!!" I yelled back.

"Shfeeeha? What did she do now?!" She said.

I pushed my laptop towards her.
"READ!" I said.

She stayed quiet for 5 minutes reading the email.

"AYSHAY!!" She yelled.

I didn't talk.

"7daa ayshay!! confront her!" She said.

"I have to meet her in about 2 hours!" I said.

"I'll come with you." She said.

"Really..?" I asked.

"Yeah, 7da mn 9ijich o we'll talk to her about it, w enshouf shenu akhrat'ha weyaahaa!!" she said.

"Okay." I said.

"Don't tell her im coming, let's surprise her!" she thought.

"Okay, i honestly can't believe it!" I said. "Shtabeee g6ee3ah!!" I snapped.

"yeah, she's such a Biatch!" D said.

Saturday 23rd of august
My bedroom

I was getting ready while D was checking her facebook.
I wore a yellow lacoste T-shirt and black skinny jeans and put my hair up in a loose bun.

New text message from Haya.

"Im getting ready, ha are u done? ;p"

That hypocrite! like she did nothing at all, playing her role perfectly.

"Yes i'm done, 10 minutes w a6la3 mn my house." I replied

I applied eyeliner and a touch of blush and lipgloss and got out my black LV crossbag.

"I hate how this is happening lama Yousef is going away, it's soo stressful!" I said.

"Yeah, bs ma 3laiich men Haya, wallah we're gonna teach her a lesson that she won't forget!" She said.

"Yeah, wallah ba6a chabdii!" I said.

Saturday 23rd of august

I was on my way to Nino and D was riding shotgun when i recieved a text message from Yousef.

"Hii sweetie, shlounich? ha waiinich? ;p"

"Hii baby, zaina, u? ana now on my way with D going to Nino, and haya is there." I replied.

10 seconds later he replied.
"W laish ma gelteelii?!"

"I'm sorry, i forgot, i had a lot in my mind!"
I replied.

"Shfeech? is everything ok? :/" He replied.

"Ma feeni shay, just a small problem that im going to fix." I replied.
I don't want him to know about Haya.

"Okay, but when you're done fixing the problem, i want to know what it was." He replied.

I didnt reply after that.

"D, i don't want to tell him about haya!" i said.

"Well he wants to know, so just tell him and get it over with!?" She suggested.

"Bs if i told him, he'll know about Khaled too! w ana mabii et9eer salfa just 2 days before he travels!" I explained.

"La shku shloun he will know 3an khaled? b3dain to be honest you didn't do anything, it was all planned by Haya!" She said.

"It could be my fault too, i answered his calls, i replied to messages, a part of it is my fault!" I admited.

"Yeah, bs im sure he'll understand." She said.

"I don't know, but i do know that it's wrong to tell him.." I said.

"And it's wrong to hide it from him as well.." She said.

"Ugh, so i have to choose between two wrong things to do? this is soo hard!" I said.

"Yeah, but think 3dl before you do anything." She adviced.

"Inshallah." i said and let out a deep breath.

Saturday 23rd of august

We entered nino. there was no sign of Haya
We got seated and we ordered water 3la ma etsharef haya.

I texted her after 10 mins since we've been there.


No reply.

I called her.
it rang 5 times before she picked up.

"Aloo hayoun, waiinich?" I said as soon as she picked up.

"Why is D with you?" she asked.

"Oh, she decided to come at the very last minute." I said.

"Bs i wanted to tell you something, ma knt abee a7ad, or i would've told you to tell d to come." she said.

"Ohh, im sorry, i didn't know, inzain shda3wa, just come!" I said.

"No im not coming, khaleeha next time, enjoy your time with d, bye!" she said and closed the line.

I looked at D.
"She was here!!" I said.

"WhaaT?" she said, totally confused.

"Haya was here, she took a look mn bara and saw you with me and she didnt come inside!" I said.

"Shkuu?" She said.

"I dont know, etgoul kanat tbeeni ebsalfa ena brou7ii.." I said.

"Haha, she's such a chicken!" She said. "She's obviously afraid of me, she knows i know her too well!" D continued.

"I don't know, she seems serious." I said.

"Don't you dare believe a word that comes out of her mouth! wallah mn 9ijiii! after all she did, and you're believing her?" She said.

"I didnt say i believe her. i dont know what to believe anymore!" I said.

"I cant believe she ditched us, haha wallah tra hal bnt mu 9aa7yah!" She said.

"I know!" I said.

We ate a delicious dinner and left nino.

Saturday 23rd of august



*Ring ring* Yousef was calling.

i picked up, "Helloo.. " I said.

"Halla dayouma, shlounich?" he asked.

"il7emdillah bkhair, you shlounik?" I asked.

"bkhair il7emdellah, ha tell me the problem?" He asked.

"No, i won't, cos i didnt fix it yet.." I said.

"Laish?" He asked.

"Becuase haya didn't show up!!" I said.

"Haya? liash the problem involves haya?" He asked.

"Yes, it involves her!" I said.

"sh9aayer? dayouma gouleelii!" He said.

"Sweetie, i will tell you, wallah, bs khalnii i fix it first?" I said.

"W shena6ernii? ya3ni al7een the problem involves you b3d??" He asked.

"Yes, it involves me too!" I said.

"Khala9 3yal, tell me! i have to know!" He demanded.

"I know wallah, w i will tell you as soon as im done with it! wallaah, please don't make me stress over it more than i already am!" I said.

"Ya bnt il 7alaal traa gemt a7atiii,, shelsaaalfaah?!" He asked.

"Yousef i swear i'll tell you,,,bs not now." I said in a low voice.

"Okay, 3la ra7tich, bs believe me, i would help you if you did tell me!" He said.

"I know you would, wallah, im really soorrryy.." I said.

"fine, bs promise you'll tell me before i travel?" He said.

I stayed quiet for a while, thinking..

"Dayouma,,,promise?" he repeated.

"I promise.." I whispered.

"What? i didnt hear you..?" He said.

"I promise i'll tell you!" I said.

"Okay, yalla good night sweetie, i hope you fix it!" He said.

"Thanks, good night!" I said and closed the line.

I rested my head on the pillow and tried to figure this out.

How can i fix it within 2 days?
How can i tell him?
WHAT will i tell him?

- S™