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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Part TwentyEight;; "I'm the best at ruining MY life."

Friday 20th of august
My bedroom

I read the new text message "Nayma..?" i read that it was from Yousef

"Home.. :) yalla call! ;)"
I replied.

"he" called. I looked at the number, it's an unkown number; i ignored.

He called again.
I ignored...again.
5 minutes later.

A new text message recieved, "Shfeeech ma tredeen?" he said.

I read the message twice.
And i was thinking.. "huh..?"

I quickly went and read the sent messages and i've noticed that the first message was not from Yousef, but instead it was from "khaled" i assumed.

"shtabii!!?" I replied.

"ABEEECH!!" He replied.

I felt grossed out and ignored his message.

I turned on my laptop and signed on msn.
I was waiting for it to sign in when i recieved yet another message.
"I said abeeech!!! ma tefhemeeeeeeen!?" Khaled said.

This was annoying me.
I want to tell yousef about him, but i can't....i just can't.
Not now...atleast.

I signed on.
a box appeared on the side, you have 45 new e-mails.
ugh, like i'm going to check them. pfft.

Yousef: Halla walla! Tawnii yay badig 3laiich! ;p

Me: Hehe, Halla feeek! ;D

Yousef: Ha 7ubbii shlounich?

Me: Zaina, you?

Yousef: Ana zain damich zaina ya galbii, ha wain re7taay after you left starbucks?

Me: D's house.

Yousef: Ya7lailha D, shlounha? ;p

Me: Zaina.

*BEEP* New text message.

I opened it, it was from Khaled.

"Laish ma tredeen? w gbl shway etgouleenli Call now!?"

"Sorry, i thought you were someone else." I replied.

Yousef: Deema, feech shay?

Me: No, laiish?

Yousef: Madrii, wayid hadya. :P

Me: Sorry i was checking my emails.

I lied.

Yousef: It's okay, ekhthay ra7tich.

Me: La khaalaa9t! :P

Yousef: Okay.

Me: Ent wain re7t?

*Beep* New message.
"So you were expecting someone..?"

"None of your business, bye!"
I replied.

Yousef: Re7t shraitli stuff i need gbl la asafer w then re7t eldowaniya.

Me: Cool.

Yousef: sweetie..

Me: halla..

Yousef: a7ebich.

Me: hehe, me too.

Yousef: You too what? :P

Me: You know what! ;$

Yousef: 3ayaaaraa;*

Me: hehehe (a)

Yousef: Wallah besmellah 3laich, elyoum wallah you were soo beautiful.

Me: Thank you. :$

Yousef: El3afoo, hatha el9ij!;P

Me: Wallah 7ta ent you were soo handsome.

Yousef: Ay handsome ya m3awda, haha. :P

Me: you're handsome; to me! ;$

Yousef: B3d galbii thanks;* I'm glad your mine, wallah a7mid rabii w ashkera.

Me: Yousef.. :$ bsss!!

Yousef: Ha!? Shgelt ana! :P

Me: a7rajtniii;$!

Yousef: Fedaiit elly testi7ii;*!

Me: <3 color="#ff6600">Yousef has sent you a wink "Kiss"

Me: hehehe;$.

*Beeep* New message.
"Never, w now that Yousef will be gone. you're all mine!"

I read the message a hundred times.
i couldn't believe my eyes.
& what the hell does he want from me!!!
I HAVE TO TELL YOUSEF! but i cant..

Yousef: Shaklich busy..

Me: no no, sorry, saraa7t! ;$

i pulled out another lie.

Yousef: Eb shnuu goulay shfeech? shga3da etfakreen fee?

Me: Nothing, bs sara7t! :P

Yousef: lol, okay! ;p

Me: ;;*

Friday 20th of august
My bedroom

I quickly called the unknown number.

"MNUUU ENTAA!!?" I yelled as soon as he picked up.

"Besmellah elra7man elra7eem, elnas esalmoun awal shay." He said. so fucking calmly.

"SALAM!! now tell who are you!?" I insisted.

"Im khaled, masra3 nesaiitay." He said.

"I know your name,Bs how do you know me!!! and how do you know YOUSEF!?" I yelled.

He laughed.

"It's not funny. i'm serious!" i yelled.

"I'm someone who's madly inlove with you." He said.

I stayed quiet.

"Aloo?" He said.

I didn't say a word, i was trying to catch my breath.

"Aloo?" he repeated, "Deema? shfeeech sweetie wain re7taay?" He continued.

Is he serious! :S

"I'm not your sweetie!" I finally managed to speak.

"yes you are!" He said.

"NO. i just want to know, who are you ?...REALLY!!" I said.

"give me a chance, get to know me, i might be better than Yousef." He said.

"NO. i love yousef, w mabi a7ad ghaira!" I said.

I have another person calling me.
I took a look at mobile screen.
it was Yousef calling!


"May9eer chithi, you have to give me a chance! be fair!" He said.
An attempt to make me feel guilty.
it didn't work.

I quickly took a look at the msn conversation.
ignoring what Khaled is saying.

Yousef: deema..?

Yousef: ???

Yousef: Wainich?

Yousef: 7ubii waiin re7tay? :/

Yousef: Waiting...?!! seriously...?!!!!!!!

Yousef: BYE. :)

Yousef: & don't bother to call, i won't pick up.

Yousef has signed out.

I can hardly breathe..
I'm choking....on AIR!

"Deemaa!!" Khaled said.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I cried and closed the line.


- S™

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Part TwentySeven;; "I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you.."

Friday 20th of august

I looked straight at his eyes.

"yes..?" I said.

"Has anyone ever told you that you have the most beautiful smile..?" I said.

"naa3aam..?" I blushed and covered my face.

"Shfeech??!" He laughed.

"Walla shay" I giggled, still covering my face.

"Yalla 3ad wakhray eedech bashouf wayhich w bashbaa3 minna gbl la asafer." He said.

"Enzain.." I said and uncovered my face..

"Shzeenich yal khaysaa." He said. "Besmellah 3laiich." He continued as he took a sip from his coffee.

"Thanks.." I blushed.

"I'm gonna miss you like hell.." He said.

"I'm gonna miss you too.." I said, and gave him a half smile.

"the7kay 3dl, i want to remember how beautiful your smile is." He said & smiled.

"Okay.." i blushed and smiled.

"Aaaakkh, ma abii arou7!" He said.

"It's okay, we'll get through it." I said.

"enshallah!" He said.

I took a look at my watch. "Oh, i have to go.." I said as i stood up.

"La yuba waiin ray7aa..!" he said and got up.

"bs yousef, i have to go.." I said.

"No, shda3wa, 7aram 3laich wallah b3d chum youm basafer, khaleeni arou7 w ana mestanis." He said.

"hmm....enzain." I hesistated.

"Mashkoura.." He said with the biggest smile across his face.

"El3afoo.." I said and smiled back.

"I can't believe i'm actually sitting with you here,talking.." He said.

"Me too.." I said and blushed.

"Ya bnt el7alal khalaa9, bass la testi7een, ana w entay wa7id, khalich normal." He said.

"I'm normal." I said.

"No, ebayen 7adich metwatra, your hands are shaking." he said and looked at them placed on the table. "& also, your cheeks are so red, they're soo cute." He continued.

I giggled.

"Can i hold your hands?" He said.

"Since you asked so nicely.." I said and smiled. "Yes you can.." I approved.

He placed his hands on mine; My heart started beating so fast, felt like it will break through my chest.

"Sweetie, your hands are freezing.." He said.

"There always like that.." I said and smiled.

He looked at me for a few seconds, admiring.

"I love you, Dayoumtii.." He said breaking the silence and smiled.

At this right moment i understood what the killers were talking about when they sang "Smile like you mean it.."
I was falling in love all over again.

I sat there. motionless.

"Dayoumtii.." He said.

"halla.." I said.

"Ma yeswaach 3indii ensaaan, walllaaah." He said.

I blushed. "Yousef, don't make me cryy." I said and looked at the table.

"I'm sorry, i just want you to know how much you really mean to me.." He said.

"Thank you." I said, "I love you too." I said and turned to a huge tomato.

"Ya ba3ad chabdii wallaahh.." He said.

"yousef, yalla bs let's go." I said.

"Okay, 3la ra7tich, w thanks a lot! you have no idea how much this means to me." He said.

"Your welcome." I smiled as he was walking me to my car.

He opened the car door for me, i got in and he shut the door behind me.

I opened my windowm "Thanks!" I said and wore my sunglasses.

"Yalla 3ad la7thaa." He said and took off my sunglasses.

"Haa shnuu!?" I said and giggled.

"Let me take a look at your eyes shwayaa." He said.

"Enzain.." I smiled.

"Will you be there at the airport the day i leave?" He said.

"Uh..i don't know. i'll see if i can." I said.

"Okay, but you do know it'll be hard to say goodbye right?" He said.

"I know, that's what makes me dont want to come.." I said.

He held my hand and kissed it.

I was crashing inside.
I wanted to scream my heart out.
I wanted to yell 'DONT GO' but i didn't want to be selfish.

I quickly wore my sunglasses. "sorry, yalla i have to go." I said as soon as i felt tears are about to come down.

"Wain waiiin shfeeech?!" He said.

"Khala9 yousef, please let me go!" I said with a shaky voice.

"Dayoum shfeeech!?" I said.

"I'm going to miss you!" I cried behind my rayban sunglasses.

"Afa, galbii la tabcheeen!" He said.

"Im sorry." I said and wiped my tears behind the sunglasses.

He places his arm on my shoulder, "Khala9 sweetie, wallah al7een amshii, la tabcheen! wallah ga6a3tay galbii..." He said.

"It's okay, i will cry sooner or later, mo beedii." I said.

"a7ebich a7ebich a7ebich!" He said.

"I love you too!" I said.

"Yalla 7ubii byee! take care, w deerbalich bl6ereeej,w akalmich elyoum belail okay?" He said.

"Enshallah. 7ta enta take care." I said.

"Enzain yalla '9e7kay." He said.

"Yousef, it's not funny..!" I said and cried more.

"7yaatii khalaa9, you're the one who's suppose to be strong to make me feel better leaving you behind." He said.

"Okay okay khalaa9, im sorry!" I said and took a tissue to wipe my tears.

"3afya 3la 7abeebtii, yalla please smile....for me?" He said and pouted.

How could i ever say no to that face? i thought.

I smiled. "There.." i said.

"Ya 7latich, rabii ya7fe'9ich w ekhaleech lee enshallah!" He said and smiled.

"Enshallah, w ekhaleek lee." I said.

"Yalla m3a elsalama yal ghalyaa." He said.

"M3a elsalama honey.." I said and closed the window.

changed the gear to "R" waved to Yousef and drove off.

I saw him standing there from the rearview mirror, he stood there until i was out of his sight.

Friday 20th of august
My car

With the song "Boston" playing in the background i called D and weaped.

"7beeebtiii waiinich now!?" She said.

"I'm on my way home.." I said.

"No no, correction; you're on your way to my house, now!" She said.

"Laa D, i need to go home." I said.

"Chub, and come, i'll be waiting." She said and closed the phone.

I drove around his area for 10 minutes.
Just passing by his house seeing his car parked in there.

I stopped the car next to his house, i wrote "I love you;;*" on a stick-it note pad, and stuck it on the door handle of the car.

I got in my car and drove to D's house.

I got in her room & spilled my heart out.

"Oh my god!" D said.

"i knoww." I said and cried.

"b3d galbii come here!" she said and hugged me.

I hugged her back, "D you're my only chance of surviving without him.." I said.

"Chub, i dont want to cry!" She said.

"Okay." i stayed silent.

Friday 20th of august
My bedroom

I was laying on my bed with my Ipod tuned on Shuffle.

"The luckiest" By Ben fold five was playing and it was the lyrics;

"What if I'd been born fifty years before you,
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?"

New text message recieved.

- S™

Friday, December 19, 2008

Part TwentySix;; "When i'm With you; I can barely catch my breath.."

Friday 13th of august
Al-Ameeri Hospital

"Shfeeeeh!?" D asked.

"I have to talk to him!!" I said.

"But you dont remember his number..?" She said.

"No i do, give me your phone.." I said.

I took her phone and dailed his number.

"Aloo Yousef!." I said as soon as i heard him pick up the phone.

"Ee,halla....Deema!?" he asked, just making sure.

"eee." I said.

"Ra8am mnuu hatha!?" He asked.

"Dana." I said.

"Enzain, 7ubii wainich? 9arlii elyoum kella adig 3laich ma tredeen! khara3teeni ya m3awda!" He said as his voice got higher.

"I'm sorry, i didnt wake up until around almaghrib w dana came to wake me up wela i have a very high fever so she brought me to the hospital, my phone is swtiched offf, sorryyy." I said.

"ouuf ouuf,Ma tshoufeen shar 7yatii, salamtich, yraiiit feeni wala feeech.." He said.

"La latgoul chithi, besmellah 3laiiik." I said.

"Enzain al7een shlounich?" He asked.

"I'm okay, but im still in the hospital, yemkin b3d shway a6la3 i dont know." I said.

"Ya ba3ad chabdii walllah tadreen tawnii artaa7 mn el9ub7 w ana ga3da a7atee, a39abii ra7at!" He said.

"Im sorry sweetie." I said.

"It's okay, aham shay enich you're okay." He said.

"Ent shlounik?" I asked.

"Zain dam sema3t 9outich.." He said.

"Thanks, enzain i have to go now, i'll talk to you lama i go back home okay? la t7atii.." I said.

"Okay, take care ha 7ubii?" He said.

"Enshallah, you too." I said.

"I will, yalla erta7aay, bye, i love you." He said.

"Okay, bye.." I giggled.

"Ha now you're feeling better?" D asked.

"Yes, maskeen he was worried." I said.

"Ofcourse, enzain how are you feeling now?" She asked.

"I feel fine." I said.

"Elsalam w 3laiikumm." Mom said as she came next to my bed & kissed me on my forehead.

"Wa3alaykum elsalaam." I said.

"Ha 7beebtii shlounichh?" She asked.

"El7emdellah bkhaiir." I said and smiled.

"El7emdellah." she said and looked at D, "Shlounich ya bnaytii? mashkoura wayid.." Mom said.

"Bkhair khaltii, el3afo shda3wa,ma swaiit ella elwajib" She said and smiled.

"7beebtii wallah, enzain mu chena ta2akhar elwagt, mta betrou7een elbaiit?" Mom asked.

"La khaltii dgait 3la omi w geltlaha eni banam 3nd dayoum." D said.

"Ee okay, 7ayach allah." She said and smiled.

Saturday 14th of August
My bedroom

I texted Yousef telling him i've arrived home.
when i turned my phone on, i saw that i had 20 MissU and 5 text messages, 10 missed calls from Yousef, 2 from mom, 4 mn D and the rest from the unknown Khaled.
the messages were from yousef, and 2 from d, one of D's messages were blank, haha made me laugh.

"D, you idiot!" I said.

"Whyy?" she asked.

"you sent a blank message to me." I laughed.

"Haha, ee blghalaa6!" she said.

"idiot, enzain tadreen Yousef will give me a necklace!!?" I said.

"9ijj, awwh, what necklace?" She asked.

"I dont know, he bought a new necklace for me gbl la esafer eb ya36eeni eyaha." I blushed.

"Awwh, that is soo sweet of him!" She said.

"I know, and im giving him my GAP oversized Pullover!" I said.

"The red one?" She asked.

"Eee." I said.

"Nicee." she said.

we talked until we fell asleep.

Friday 20th of august
My car

I was in my car going to starbucks which is located near laila galleria.
I reached there and he was already there waiting, i parked my car and entered Starbucks, he was sitting at a table near the window, i walked towards him with my heart beating so fast. he looked so handsome in his white shirt and three-quarter baij pants. i was wearing a navy knee high dress.

He was holding a Swarvoski bag, which i assumed the necklace was inside it.

He stood up when i approached the table, he had the biggest smile on his cheeks and the cutest dimples you could see, my heart melted literally.

I was shaking, it was obvious.

"Besmellah 3laich, You look nice." He said.

"Thanks!" I said & stood there as the blood rush to my face and i turn to a red tomato.

"Shfeeech khayfa ge3day.." he said.

"Ma feeni shay.." I said and gave him the bag i was holding & got seated.

"Mashkoura, w hach your necklace, 3ad mithil ma w9aiitich never take it off.." He said and smiled.

"Enshallah, thanks." I said and smiled back.

I was so nervous. my heart was racing. & my hands started sweating.

"Ha shtabeen a6leblich?" He said as he stood up.

"Nothing, mashkour.." I said.

"Yalla 3ad 3an elmala8a, tell me wallah.." He said.

"Wallah mu meshtahya.." I said & smiled, "But thank you." I continued.

"3la ra7tich.." He said and went up to the cashier.

i quickly got my phone out of my bag and texted D,
"S.O.S!! I'm having a nervous attaaack."

I heard him ordering, "One white moca, Grande, please" he then looked at me and flashed another gorgeous smile. My heart smiled.
I smiled back.

New text message recieved, it was from D. "WHYY!?"

"Im at starbucks with yousef, exchanging gifts!" I replied.

He went to the round counter where he can get his order.

New message; "Ohh, you slut! call me as soon as you finish and tell me everything, P.S Be cool!"

I giggled and slipped my phone back in my bag.

He came after taking a tissue from the counter.

"Shlounich?" He said as he sat himself down.

"Zaina,you?" I said. i tried as much as i can to not make eye contact.

"Tmam!" he said. "wlain, ya bnt elnas 6al3eena!" He joked.

I looked at him and I felt my cheeks were burning from embarrassment.

"Gelna el7aya 7elu bs mu chithi.." He joked.

I giggled, "Enzaiin." I said.

"ee khaleech chithi.." He said and smiled.

I smiled back.

He looked straight at me and said, "Dayoumtii, bagoulich shay.."

- S™

Monday, December 15, 2008

Part TwentyFive;; "As she cries out here voice dies out.."

Sorry, i know i took a long break, but i really needed that break.

Sunday 8th of august
My bedroom

"I love you.." message recieved from Yousef.

I smiled and went to bed.

Thursday 12th of august
My room

"D, Time is running and Yousef will be gone before i know it!" I said to D on the phone.

"I'll be right here sweetie, it's okay, you'll get through it, i promise!" D said.

"I was talking to him yesterday on the phone and i wished the phonecall would never end." I said.

"9adgeeni when he's away, ra7 tet3awedain w e9eer elwa'93 3adii.." D explained.

"I hope you're right!" I said.

Thursday 12th of august

My room

I was talking to Yousef on msn.

Yousef: Agoul 7ubii ba36eech a necklace gbl la asafer okay?

Me: What necklace?

Yousef: I've bought a necklace for you. but promise me to never take it off unless you're taking a shower.

Me: Awwh, you shouldn't have! okay i promise.

Yousef: I know, but i want to.

Me: You know i was thinking of giving you my huge pullover so you can wear it there, and if you're feeling cold, this will warm you up! ;P

Yousef: Ohhh, thank you 7yatii. :D

Me: No problem.

Yousef: When will we exchange our stuff?

Me: I don't know. what time is good for you?

Yousef: Anytime you want.

Me: Okay then, on the 20th.

Yousef: hehe, okay, bs shme3na?

Me: I don't know, it was random.

Yousef: Haha, okay ;;*

Thursday 12th of august
My room

I was just going to lay my head on the bed when my phone rang.
It was on my desk, charging.

I picked up without looking at the Caller's ID.

"Aloo..?" I said.

"Aloo Hala wallah, shlounich?" A manly voice said.

"I'm sorry, menu ma3ay?" I said.

"Afa masra3 nesaiiteenii,," He said.

"This is not funny, mnu ma3ay?" I said.

"I'm khaled." He said.

Khaled? Do i know any Khaled? Hmm, no.

"Ay Khaled?" I said.

"Shda3wa, Khaled 7abeebich.." He said.

"I don't know what you're talking about, nas fathya wallah, m3a elsalama!" I said and closed the phone.

He called again, and again....& again.
I turned off my phone and went to bed.

friday 13th of august
My room

My mom entered my room.
"Dayouma yalla goumay!!" she said and poke me.

"Enzaiin," I said, still asleep.

"Yalla 7beebtii 6a3ay el sa3a chaam!" She said.

"Okay yuma okaaay!!" I yelled.

"Shfeeech ta3bana?" she asked.

"La ma feeni shay." I said.

"3yal shfeech lama al7een nayma?" She asked.

"Madrii." I said. "Khala9 al7een agoum." I continued.

"Okay 7beebtii.." She said and left the room.

I went back to sleep.

Friday 13th of august
My room

D entered my room and she's mad,
"Yal kalba, ya 7mara, ya bgara!!" she yelled.

I didnt reply.

"DEEMOO!!!" she yelled and pulled the cover off.

"Haa..?" I said.

"GOUMAY YA BGARA!!" she yelled. "Tadreen i went nuts trying to call your cellphone, w kela switched off, w your house phone ma7ad erid!!" She continued.

"Haaa..?" I said.

"Way3a!! goumaay!" she yelled.

"D....i'm -- i can't pick myself..i feel..." I said.

"Shfeeech!!!?" she said, and placed her hand on my forehead. "OH MY GOD, you're boiling!! Get up ebser3a awadeech el 6beeeb!" She said.

"I cant!" I cried.

"Okay,i'm gonna help you up, bs help me, ma agdar i pick you up brou7ii." she said.

"D,i cant!!" I cried more.

"Khala9 wait, i'll call Phlomeena to help me.." She said.

she went out of my room and started calling phlomeena.

"Come hurry up, deema's room..!" She said and came back in the room.

"khala9 sweetie dont cry.." she said.

"D, im soo tired, i feel so sick." I weeped.

"I know sweetie, khala9 al7een i'll take you to the hospital." she said & took out a t-shirt and pants to change me.

Phlomeena came and they changed me into a tshirt and a jeans pants and they took me to d's car.

"I'm going to call your mom now, agoulaha enna bawadeech el hospital." She said.

"Ok.." i said and wore the seatbelts.

"Aloo, hala khalti, shlounich shakhbarich?" D said talking to mom on the phone.

"el7emdellah bkhair, agoul khalti ana now bakhith Dayouma elhospital, 7ararat'ha wayid mertaf3a..." She said.

"La la tkhafeen khalti, enshallah maku shay, ana adeg 3laich etha gal el6beeb shay." she said.

"Enshallah, m3a elsalama.." she said.

"D, what about yousef..?" I said.

"What about him?" She said.

"I dont know, he's probably trying to call me now, go back i want my phone!" I said.

"6a3 hathy, noway, you're sick, your phone can wait!" she said.

"Bs 7raam he'll be worried." I said.

"Take my phone, call him." She said.

"I dont remember his phone number.." I said.

"haha, seriously?" She said.

"I know it, bs right now i cant memorize it!" I said.

"Oh, it's okay, i'm sure he'll understand, why is your phone switched off anyways?" she asked.

"Because some random number keeps calling.." I said.

"The same unknown caller?" she said.

"I don't think so, his name is khaled." I said.

"Ohh, 3yal zain sawaiitay." she said.

"Ayyy rasii e3awernii D!!!" I cried.

"Khala9 we're almost there." She said.

"I feel soo hoot!!" I said. "And so weak!" I continued.

"It's okay, al7een e7e6ounlich edrib and you'll be fine enshallah.."

Friday 13th of august
Al-Ameeri Hospital

I was fast asleep on the bed with the Drip on me and D was sitting next to my bed talking to her mom on the phone.

"Yuma, i cant leave her here!" She said.

"Khala9 etha bet6awel banam 3indaha 3adi yuma, al7een omha ebteyee b3d." She continued arguing.

"Okay, thanks mama, love you, bye" She said.

20 minutes later. i woke up.

"D, shemga3dich?" I said.

"You! shda3wa bakhaleech." she said.

"awwh, enzain wain mama?" I said.

"She's on her way." She said.

"Etha tbeen trou7een, tra you can go." i said.

"La mabii, i want to stay.." She said.

"Okay, i love you." I said.

"Love you too." D said.

"AMBAAAAY!" I yelled.

"SHFEECH?!" D said.

"YOUSEF!" I got up quickly.

- S™

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Part TwentyFour;; "He's the drug & She's Addicted."

Sunday 7th of august
My car

"ooohh, There is an unknown number dazlich a message.." Haya said.

I stuttered, "Shnuu?" I said.

"An unknown number sent you a kiss!" She said.

"WHAT? shku" I said.

"Shdaranii,who is that?" She asked.

"i dont know.." I lied. It's probably Yousef.

"Oh.." she said.

wow, she actually bought it. Phew.

"Yeah.." I said and asked for my phone.

I took it and kept it on my lap while driving.

"So where do you want to go?" I said as we reached Gulf street.

"I don't know. anywhere." she said.

"Don't say that. yalla choose!" I said.

"Hmm, i dont know, im not that hungry really.." she suggested.

"Okay, then anything to drink?" I said.

"Yeah, go to star juice, im craving some bruce willis." she said.

"Haha, that sounded so wrong, okay." I said.

"Haha, really it's delicious!" She said.

"I know, but i like cindy crowford more!" I said & turned on my ipod on shuffle.

"I hate that i love you" By Ne-yo and Rihanna started playing.

"Allaah this song reminds me of Yousef!" Haya said.

I almost got in an accident hearing that.

"Whaat?!" I asked to make sure.

"Yousef, my cousin, shfeeech?" she said.

"Oh, w why does it remind you of him?" I said.

"L2ana i hate how much i love him, really.." she said.

"Oh, you love him still?.." I said.

"Yes.." She said and turned her face away.
i thought she was going to cry any minute now.

I felt bad. for some reason.
we both stayed quiet till we reached Star juice.
the waiter approached our car as we parked.

"One cindy crowford and one Bruce willis, please." I said.

"Do you still talk to yousef?" She asked.

"Yeah.." I said.

"did you know he's going to the US to study?" She said.

"Yeah i heard." I said.

"I'm sure going to miss him.." she said.

This made me feel uncomfortable.

"Won't you miss him?" She asked.

"I dont know.." I said.
Because i really didn't know what to say.

The order arrived we paid, and drove off.

"Aren't you close with him?" She asked.

"Yeah i am.." I said.

"How close?" she asked.

"Could we not talk about him?" I said.

"Why not?" She asked.

"Because i don't like to.." I said.

"But i know that he loves you, it's okay.." She said.

"Okay, but still i dont want to." I said.

"Okay, as you like.." she said.

"Now where do you want to go?" I asked.

"Let's just drive around the city w b3dain enred" She said.

"Good idea." I said.

Sunday 7th of august
My bedroom

I called D.

"OMG! Haya is unbelieveable!" I said as soon as she picked up.

"Haha, i take it that you didnt have fun today.." she said.

"YOU THINKKK!!?" I yelled.

"What happened?" She said.

"Every now and then she keeps talking about Yousef." I muttered.

"Haha, laish shetgoul?" she asked.

"shdarani etha 6la3at song etogul that reminds me of yousef, w b3dain she asks me about him, etha we're close w madri shnu, w b3dain while we were driving around she kept saying how she fell inlove with yousef and how that she never felt this way about someone.." I said.

"Haha, Poor thing!" D said.

"Bs 9ij qathatnii!" I said.

"Don't let her get to you, cos that's what she wants.." She said.

"HOW can i?! she's irritating!" I said.

"Haha, chillaax sweetie." D said.

"Enzain. im bored." I said.

"Im not yalla bye im watching Grey's anatomy,love you!" She said and closed the line.

I took a shower and went to bed.

Sunday 8th of august
My bedroom

My phone rang. It was Yousef.

"Aloo.." I said.

"Alo halla 7ubi, 9baa7 elkhaiir.." He said.

"Halla feek, 9baa7 elnour." I said.

"Shlounich?" He asked.

"Fine, you?" I said.

"bkhair damich bkhaiir." he said, "ee ta3alay ams ga3id akalim Haya on msn, w galatli kalam ghareeeb..." He continued.

"Ghareeb? what did she say?" I said.

"Etgoul ena tekalamtaw 3anni, bs you said you dont like me that much shay chithii.." He said.

"SHE SAID WHAAT!? ebkaifha hathyy!" I yelled.

"I didnt believe her dont worry, but i dont understand why would she say that?" He asked.

"Because she loves you!" I said.

"Sh'hal 7aath, i dont like her!" He said.

"I want to know what is she trying to do exactly.." I said.

"Yeah, mala da3i hal 7arakat!" he said.

"7da, ya3ni betkharib baina.. " I said.

"ee, bs you know no one can come between us!" He said.

"Really? You believe in that?" I said.

"Definitely! i love you means forever!" He said.

I giggled.

"A7ebich 7yatii" He said.

"hehe, thank you.." I said.

"a7eb 3ayartich.." He said.

"I love you too.." I said.

"akheeeeeeeran you said it!" He said.

"hehe, are you getting ready to travel?" I said.

"Im trying. bs i will never be ready to leave you.." He said.

"Dont think about that much." I said.

"It's hard no to.." He said.

"Awwh, but it's okay, we'll be talking to each other while you're there." I said.

"I know, but it's different.." He said.

"Ofcourse it is, but it's alright, we'll get used to it.." I said.

"I hope so." He said.

We stayed for the longest 5 minutes i've went through without speaking.
Just hearing eachother breathing..

"a7ebich.." He said. there was this tone in his voice that broke my heart to bits.

"I'm going to miss you sooo much!" I said.

"9adgeeni mu kithriii..!" He said.

We talked for several more hours.

Sunday 8th of august
D's house

"D, i don't know what to do if Yousef is gone.." I said.

"It's going to be hard but it's okay, he's worth waiting for..isn't he?" She asked.

"Definitely! I really love him D!" I said and blushed.

"Awwh, i'm soo happy for you.." She said.

"Sometimes i picture us walking and holding hands with our first little child.." I said and i got so emotional, i had tears in my eyes.

"Awwh, Dayoum ya bgara that's soo cute!" She said

"He makes me want to be better.." I said.

"Does he know that..?" She said.

"No." I said.

"Why not?" She asked.

"I don't know" I said.

"You should tell him, he should know how you exactly feel.." she said.

"I don't want to tell him all of that before he leaves, because then he will feel more and more sad to leave me, i want him to go there with no worries.." I explained.

"You're fucking sweet, and i love you!" She said and gave me a hug that i almost barely could breathe.

"I love you too..!" I said and hugged her back.

"Let's go and watch F.r.i.e.n.d.s!" D said.

"Yeah,okay, we haven't done that in a loong time." I said.

We made popcorn and each got a diet coke and we watched friends season 7 and laughed our asses off.

Sunday 8th of august
My bedroom

Just made a wish. (I cant say so i wont jinx it. sorry guys!:P)

"Beeep" New message recieved..

- S™