Wednesday, July 23, 2008
"Why women TALK and men WALK!"
This is really a great book to improve your relationship with your partner. This book shows you how to improve it without discussing anything to your man, since they tend to run away form these kind of subjects, like "let's talk about our relationship?" or "Where are we now in our relationship?"
I recommend this book for those who just can’t understand how their better halves think or behave and have done their best to follow traditional advice of ‘improving communication skills’ without success, this is different and refreshing perspective on improving relationships.
In their introduction, Patricia Love and Steven Stosny declare that “It’s not about communication.” but rather about "connection.” or to be more exact, why sometimes we 'disconnect' from our partners.
When you read the book you really feel like Love & Stosny are speaking to you in person. the way the book is written is in a chatty way, if i may say. It's really enjoyful to read, you won't get bored from all the relationship improvements.
And here is some parts of the book i thought were interesting;;
We all know men & women think and feel differently, Research and clinical experience show that the majority of men, including those who ignore or take their partners for granted, want a closer and deeper emotional connection just as much as women do. Also Research and clinical experience tells us that marriage and committed love relationships are more important to the health and well-being of men than women. Divorced men do not work as well or live as long or "survive" with anything like the quality of life enjoyed by married men.
Women want to talk about the relationship because they're upset and want to feel better. men don't want to talk because talking won't make them feel better. infact, it will make them feel worse! So whether she forces him to talk or not, they both end up feeling disappointed and disconnected. This loneliness of disconnection lies at the heart of every argument or cold silence, fueling your disappointment or resentment. it also leads to the distance that can ultimately tear your relationship apart!
Your relationship can fail with neither of you doing anything wrong. If you do not understand the extent to which fear and shame drive your disconnection from each other. Understanding each other's core vulnerabilities and learing hot to manage them will give you a new perspective on your relationship -- a dual perspective based on both points of view -- that leads to compassionate connection and love beyond words.
It's not about communication;;
If you were to say to the man in your life, "Honey, we need to talk about our relationship," what do you think would happen?
If he would answer this question with something like "I thought you'd never ask!" Or "I've been dying to share my feelings about our life together, and i especially want to hear how you feel about us and what you want for us" then neither of you needs to read this book. Most women would expect their men would get distracted, defensive, irritated, or fidgety, or roll their eyes or shut down completely; and most men would feel like they were being punished for a crime they didn't commit. Undoubtedly you've had the conversations we are talking about. She knows her lines, he knows his, and it always ends up worse than it started. No wonder the five words a man dreads most are "Honey, we need to talk."
I guess that's enough about the book, Buy it and improve your relationship that is if your relationship needs improvement, 'cos some of us are born with the talent of connecting with her other half..
I haven't finished the whole book yet, but so far...so good. If you're in kuwait You can find it in Virgin Megastore, Or if you're not that good in english, i heard in Aljareer Library, there is an arabic version of it, translated. Go get yourself the book and SAVE your relationship.. :P
xoxo
-S™
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
"Could love last?"
Walla i think i love shalaih more than my home. A7es my escape from the insane world we live in...! Knt Ga3da 3l Ba7ar Asma3 Bl i-pod Lama Sima3t 9out Omi Etnadeeni 7g elghada. El Kel Egouli '9a3fana Ma3ni i wasn't in any kind of diets.Gelt 7g omi enzain, w i paused the song "Konstantine" malat Something Corporate 3ind el part lama egoul "& if i hurt you then i'm sorry.."76ait el I-pod eb my bag w dshait el shalaih. Re7t 3ind 6awlat elakel w taghreeban el kil kan mawjoud, Fara7(13) w Ghanouma(4) Banat khalti Ebtisam, w 7amad(16) weld khali hisham,w khalti Maha bs weldha 3abdelwahab makan mawjoud, Estaghrabt?!.. w yadity mama fa6ma allah ekhaleeha lena, awal ma dshait salamtw re7t ga3adt yam omi, Ana w 3abdelwahab 8e9atna 3jeeba, Ohwa My best cousin w ana his best too, w he knows everything about me,ya3ni kelshay agoula to him, cos kela a7es yefhamnii w dayman yen9a7nii, w ohwa kela egouli suwalfa weya the girls in his school, w i dont like it!Bs shasawii ana nou3i ma agoul what i feel. It's silly, bs ever since him & i met lama kena babies i think i fell for him, elmohim la asra7 wayid. omi 9arlaha sa3a etgouli Shyoukha sheno tabeen a7e6lich..bs el'9aher ma sema3thaa, anyways, elkil kan ga3id e6ali3nii, ashkara bali mo ma3ahum. Elmuhim Gelt 7g omi abyy Machbous deyay weya marag! allaaah ya 7alaaaaaat el3aish!! wallah a7eba! bs noway kither 7ubi li wahabii. Wlaiin, ana shfeeni bs mabi afaker feeh!! bs elly egoul eb kaifii...After lunch ana gemt re7t dshait el 7amam (w entaw eb karama) w ghasalt my hands w tewa'9ait w re7t a9ali el 3a9ir, w ana labsa thoub al9alat dash 3abdelwahab chan a9arekh blghalaa6!! chan egoul "eshda3wa 3laiiich, shfeeech chenich shayfa yenii?" Chan alif wayhii l2ana shakli bl thoub FILM!!! chan egouli "Ya 7lailha elly gha6at wayehaa" w ga3adt agoul 7g nafsi ambay shtabii! wakher 3anii,bss mabii nkoun closeabiii ekoun my feelings normal to you! bs SHLOUN AGOULA? W ana mn elasas mo gaylatla 3n how i felt towards him, ufff! elmohim galy "zain bayantaay, 9alaii ana an6erech bl9ala 3indi salfa bagoulich eyaha.."Khala9t 9laiiit w 6ala3t mn el room wela wahab mo mawjoud. re7t el9ala wela khalti ebtisam ga3da tetkalam blmobile w bent'ha Ghanouma kanat ga3da et6ali3 "Tom & jerry" wallah hl babay ma yenmal mina, anyways, khthaiit my bag w gelt 7g mom ana barou7 elbaghala eshtahait Happy hippo(kinder) Rekabt my temporary car "Pajero 2008", w it's black. w tawni bamshii wela wahab yerkab yami.. 6ab3an khara3ni weyawayhaa! walla eyanin wayhaa, bs 9j khara3nii..!! Galii "Ha wain ray7a enshallah? ya 7ebich lelgaaz!" Chan agoula "Ray7a Ashtery 'happy hippo' w icecream 7g el shalaiih." To me and wahab happy hippo is more than a chocolate! it's LOVE!! hehe, Gali "w shda3wa ma ta3zemeeen?! zain bs misaktech gbl la ten7ashain" '9a7akt w kanwedi abchii, ya3ni madri shloun i could ever tell him enni a7eba, la w mu bs a7eba ella AMOUT FEEEHHH!! Geltlah "Shdarani ent ekhtefaiit, ana bs re7t a9ali w lama 6ala3t ma legaitek..?" chan egoul "ee saroo dagat 3alaay w re7t akalemha.." It's here when i wanted to punch his guts w make him realise how much it hurts lama yetkalam 3an wa7da ghairii! Geltlaa "ay sara?" ga3da asta3be6 3laiiih, cheni ma a3arefha, w ana adri meno ehya, allah ekhaleekum sara hathi his "girlfriend" for almost a year w ehya eb our school. w kel ma e9eer bainhum a problem, ana akelha! Eyee w yashkeeli el 7al w 6ab3an as usual i help him to get over it! uff, madrii mita it will end!!! chan egouli "testa3be6aiin? Sara my girlfriend.." w hnee kan wedi el ar'9 tenshag w tebla3nii.. bs walla mlaiiit mn hl 7alllaa!
On our way to el baghala, Ga3ad esoulefli 3anha, w elmushkela i tried to give him hints ena bs khala9 ghayer el mawthou3, bs he's too dumb to get it!!Bs he's MY DUMB....MO SARA'S DUMB!!....Walla she doesnt deserve him, bs when i tell him that, e3a9ib 3alay w zain bs ma yekfakhnii. We9alt elbaghala,w tawni banzil chan egouli "waiin ray7aa? laykoun bakhaleech tanzeleen el baghala, la 7abeebti mako, ana anzil ayeeb el stuff.." Ana ma sema3t ghair kilmat 7abeebtiii, SHENO!!!?? 7abeebtekk!?? ANAA!!??? meta bs ekoun 9jjj...Ga3adt an6ir bl car for like 10 minutes, w akheeran yaa wela shayel ma3ah 3 bags! ola shda3wa, shkhalaiit 7g el baghalaaa!??! Awal ma rekab elcar ga3adt a'97ak, geltlah "ola sheno hatha!? ebthemetek fi shay ma shraiitah!?" Chan egoul "ma 3laich, elly tabeena shraitlich eyah el baji 7agii lama arou7 Shalaiih refeeji" SHALAIH REFEEJEK!!? uff w laish ma teg3ad weyay eb shalaiihna!? mo 3ajbetek ana!!? allaah kareeem. Sekat w meshaiit, w 6oul el 6ereej sakta,chan egoul "Shfeech sakta?" A7EBEK!!!! la yuba laykoun 9ij i can say that to him!! geltla "Walla shay.."Chan egoul "wanasa 2 weeks for summer!" chan i smile, w i parked bl shalaih w nezalt w nezal waraay. Dshaiit wela ashouf Ghanouma tabchii, re7t laha w best'ha w sa2alt'ha "Shfeeech?!" chan etgoul "ma a7eb farou7a! ma tkhaleeni a6ali3 tom & jerry"chan agoul 7g farou7a 7e6eelaha tom & jerry w a36eech icecream, chan tarki'9 w takhith barid lulu min wahaabiiiii as in mine and only mine!! i wish.I asked farou7a wain el kbaar( as in omi,w khalatii w yadityy) chan etgoul "khali hisham ra7 shalaih his friend, w khalati ra7aw yamshoun 3l ba7ar w mamafa6ma nayma eb her room.." chan akhith el icecream mn wahab w a7e6a bl fridge, Chan egoulii "Ma tabeen Happy hippo?" el9ara7a kela minek, ma 9ert mishtahya akel anything! chan agoula "la sheba3t, ekhtha ma3ak shalaih rab3ek!" chan ye'97ak w gal bye w he was gone.. What was funny.. ?!
Rdaina elbait mn elshalaih when el weekend ended and it wasnt the best weekend...that's for sure. w ana ma sheft wahabi mn lama ra7 shalaih rab3a..7ata msg ma dazlii, WHY!? e7na baina msgs like 24/7 bs madri shfeeh, mn awal ma - i dont want to say it but..- 7ab hl bnt sara i dont get as much msgs.Sometimes i feel sara knows how i feel about wahab and that's why etkhalee busy 3anii, walla madrii cos bl school wayid etshoufni ma3ah,bs madri ethakan ebayen 3alay how i feel towards him, 3ayal laish he doesn't see it!? "Konstantine" is officially OUR SONG, and by OUR i mean me and wahab, we love the songs so much!! for some reason we share alot of the same interest,i dont know maybe it's a sign we belong together? w ena ma7ad ra7 e7eba kithreee!? allah ye3lam eshkither a7eba w 3umri ma fakart eb 9bay ghairaah.dzaitla msg "Shloun el happy hippo?" Chan erid 3alay after 30 minutes "esalim 3laich;p w khshaiit two 7agech b3d shtabeen;) ana on my way home.." Chan a'97aak, waaaaay ashwa ya3ni kan efakir feenii..
SUMMER IS HERE!!! w i cant waiit to go to LONDON!! like every year since i can remember, w kela enrou7 with Khalti maha's family which means wahabii ma3ay.We9ali msg mn wahabii egoul "Im going to miss our crazy hangouts at Silfridges.." Sheno!!? what does that mean...!! chan adizla "MISS? WHYY YOU'RE not coming!!?"chan erid 3alay "No,l2ana oboy 3inda sheghil, w mara7 ensafir this year, takhayelay!" 7saiit wedi abchii!!! i was looking forward to it! cos it would be different withoutmy atheya big brother 7mayen, who is now married (FAKKAAA!!) kan he barely ekhaleenii ana w wahabi brou7naa, kela raz wayha, he's 24, tezawaj bnt ma3ah bl jam3a esimha Hala W she's 22, 7adha khoush wa7da, allah ekhaleehum 7g ba3a'9! W ekhaleeni ana w wahabiii 7g ba3a'9 b3d! wallah a7ebaah hl 9baaaay, yrait bs yadrii!Elmuhim, 7awalt agoul 7g omi te8naa3 khalti maha teyee weyana, mo ella weya rayelha, bs omi galat kaifhum,mayaboun esafroun, ya3ni mako fayda, my summer isofficially over...i dont want to go now!!!! i want to stay here with wahabii. uff walla nothing goes the way i wish it would. 2 days w i'm off to london w im trying to spend time with wahabii more than ever!!! wayy im gonna miss that boy. Omi w khalti maha kila ye6li3oun together, fa ana mistighila el fur9a, 3shan i can hang out with wahabii other than eb bait yadity bl surra,cos maykoun 3ala ra7atnaa. elmohim gbl el safra mom galat khal ni6la3 withkhaltich maha youm kamil. 6ab3an ana kayaaaft, w gelt 7g wahaaab eyee, w he promised he will. i tried to look my best..rekabt elcar w ni6art mom, then yat erkibat w mishaiit. I was so excited cheni a kid going to the playground for the first time! cos i thought yemkin this is my chance to tell him everything before i go..?
We9alt The avenues, wela khalti maha ga3da eb chocolate bar w makan ma3aha a7ad, chan omi etgoul "bs entay yaya?" chan etgoul "la2 reem yaya ma3ay bs ra7atteshtereelaha top kan 3ajebha mn River Island, Reem(25) is wahab's big sister,i Told you me and wahab have alot in common, we are both the youngest, we're almost 19, we both have one sibiling. 6ab3an 9akat feeni el denya lama 3araft ena wahab kishat feeni w ma ya ma3a khalti, i wanted to scream! bs i stayed quiet the whole 6al3a. the time was going soooo slow, ma kan lil 6al3a 6a3am, mlaiit aby arid el baiit, aby arid w akalem wahab w agoula laish ma ya with khalti!!11PM we9alna el bait, 3ala 6oul re7t w ba6alt my Macbook w i signed in Msn,i was hoping he was on, cos my mobile was out of credit and i can't get me any until tomorrow,w shda3wa i can wait that long to know?! ufff! shebakt w 76ait appear to be offline, w 6ab3an makan shabek, ka el3ada, knt 7adi minqatha,ma sakart el laptop,76aita away. 76ait rasi w 7awalt anam, ga3adt afakir eb reasons why he didn't come, w i didnt come with any..! w elmushkela bacher @ 9AM is my flight! w the clock now was 12AM i have to get some sleep, bs waiin eyeeni el sleep w wahabii madri 3anaa!!!? ga3adt afakir lama i fell asleep..7ata madri chum kanat elsa3a,maybe around 3AM.
We always stay at Churchill hotel @ london w kint me w wahabi stay in the lobby for so long looking at random people. as boring as it may sound, it was so much fun for us...bs it's all different now....no wahabii, no long hours sitting in the lobby en6ali3 people pass by, w no enjoyment for me whatsoever!!5AM gemt 3shan a9ali elfayer, chan aba6il my Macbook, Wela ashouf that i have a msg from wahabi, and it said "CALL ME AWAL MA TGOUMEEN,I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!" yes it was in caps for some reason. elmohum i decided to ignore that 3shan shway e7es feeni!! i didnt sleep after that cos mala da3i anam w lazim 7AM e7na bl airport.all i was thinking was shloun im gonna have fun alone in LONDON!? i mean 9ij ena dad w mom weyay, bs i gotta have someone my own age...Dag 3alay wahabi @ 8:30AM lama we were waiting at the terminal. omi etgoul "Haw shfeeech wahabi edeg w ma tsheeleena? ghareeba? 7abeebti feech shay?" chan agoulaha "no,bs mali khelg.." 7agarta, chan he calls again. i picked it up,wela asma3 9outa "aloo Shyoukh!!?" "Hala wahab" chan egoul "Feech shay?" Chan agoula "no why?" chan egoul "madri a7esich ga3da ta7gereeni..?" Zaiin 7saiiit! chan agoula "La shda3wa..." chan egoul "elmohum laish ma dgaitay 3alay awal ma gemtay?" chan agoula "Gemt met2akhir w ebser3a ebser3a w nsait.." w ana wediii agoula kelshay, bs my tongue got tied..! chan egoul "wallah madri shloun im gonna survive summer without you.." what does that suppose to mean? thanks for making it harder!Chan a'97ak w agoul "me too!" Chan egoul "walla im going to miss you,Etrou7een w tredeen blsalama 3ad dont forget me.." bchait w sakart el phone. Chan edezlii msg "Yal dalou3a;p!" w kan wedi akser elphone aw a9arekh lama bala3eemi et3awernii!!! or something....uff.
We9alna London, w re7na el hotel. the usual room number "216" kan wahabi elroom elly eghbalna "215", ana w omi dshaina el room w oboy kan ta7at shefta esalim 3ala what looked like a kuwaiti guy. yemkin his friend or something..76ait my bag eb my room w gelt 7g mom im going down. nezalt tawni ba6la3 min el hotel wela asma3 dad enadeeni, lafait wela ashoufa wagif e2asherli w yama a man w 9bay 6agetyy,,Re7tla chan egoul 7g el man hathy my little girl shyoukha, shyoukha hatha 9a7bi min 3umir, esma 6areg w hatha welda barrak, i found out barrak was 20. w he was cute & tall, bs not cuter than wahab.Dad 3azam 3ami 6areg for lunch with me and mom w ohwa w welda Barrak. 7elo esim Barrak. i liked it..We got seated bl ma63am, w barrak was sitting across me, w yami mom, w dad yam mom, w his dad was facing my dad.El evening kanat 7elwa, o we all had fun, w Barrak Told me He's going to meet me at Selfridges 11AM tomorrow so we can hang out, cos mom knew how sad i am about the whole khalti Maha not coming. Fa ma galat shay lama he told me, actually ehya galat ee shyoukha rou7ay have fun..! fa gelt okay, shwaray, let's get to know Barrak a little more, he might be fun and turn this summer to something i neverexpected...?
So as planned, 11AM i met Barrak, kan labis Black Abercrombie & fitch T-shirt w a White three-quarter, he looked so cute behind his rayban sunglasses. i on the other hand knt labsa a mini jeans skirt w white tank top w yellow cardigan, so summer-like with bright red Crocs, Barrak was wearing Black Crocs, Isn't he adorable? Anyways we went shopping and i didnt thought i'd have this much fun. 4PM I was walking up to our hotel room after going out with Barrak, w we9ali msg mn Wahab w katib "Hi shyoukha, Shlounich? walla miss you! w el summer is not the same withoutyou, Sara is being wierd again, w madri shasawee, i wish you were here to help...enshallah mistansa alone minaak? ;p" i was so mad mn his esloub! re7t my room w 9efagt el door behind me! laish he's that cruel?7ata law he's just playing, ma yadri eni ensan w i have feelings..!? shda3wa mala da3i etnarfezni all the time! so rdait 3ala his msg "Hala, ana zaina el7emdellah, entaw shloukum? walla madri shagoul 3n sara, kaifek,7el mushkeltek ebrou7ek, l2ani mlait w madrii eshsalfat hl bnt, elmohim, im having so much fun, w mo brou7i la tkhaf, i met this guy Barrak, obouh is my dad's old friend, w ana a6la3 weya cos ma 3indi a7ad ghaira here." W ebser3a he replied "Na3am? Eshye6la3 barrak? wain ga3deen te6li3een weya shabab?!" al7een 9ert etghaar? taw elnas ya Wahab! chan ared 3laih "Shasawee, ag3ad brou7i bl hotel? or atmasha brou7ii, ma 3indi a7ad here,shda3wa a9lan mom w oboy yadroun.. w ma galaw shay..la t3a9b!" Chan ered 3alay.. "Shloun ma a3a9ib w entay 6al3a with 9baay brou7ich entay weyah?" MN MITA YOU CARE!!!? so ketabtla "Shouf wahab, lw kan fi bnt a6la3 ma3aha here chan ma 6ala3t weyah, bs ma 3indi a7ad, w la t3a9ib, cos mala da3iii,shbe9eer baina ya3ni?" w b3d hl msg ma rad 3alay. 6awaft w gelt 7g nasfi mabi akharib my summer 3l shay Ma yestahil, Dshait elroom? Wela mako a7ad mom 7a6a note gayka ena ray7a teshtery aghra'9 w terja3, fa 6ala3t mn el hotel room w ga3adt bl lobby w ga3adt at'thakar lama wahab ekoun ga3id yami w en6ali3 elawadim pass by. Faj2a sheft Noura bl lobby, re7t salamt 3laiha, noura is one of my closest friends eb my school,I was so happy eni sheft'ha,gelt ashwa legait a7ad a3arfa ga3adt weyaha wwe talked 7g hours, w we set a date tomorrow ena we meet in the lobby 3shan ni6la3 together.
it was 8Pm w knt already daykha, ba6alt My MacBook w shubakt on msn, wela ashouf wahab shabek bs 7a6 away w his nickname kan "Shyoukh -> yalla erja3 kefaya, eb9ara7a fegadnaaak;*" chan a'97ak w ma agoul ghair sub7an allah mughayer el a7wal madri bs 7saiit ena wahab beda e7ebnii, as much as that should be a good news, ma knt mistansa. tawni baf9il wela edish 3alay wahab w egoul "shyooooukh!" chan agoula "Hala.." Chan egoul "shda3wa ma etsalmeen,,kubar rasich!?" ambay shko!!!! hl9ba7 ma e7is at all!! chan agoula "Shko, bs your status was away ma 7bait a2atheek!" Chan etgoul "entay noway et2atheeni ya shyoukh,walla 7asaiit eb wejoudich lama re7tay away from me, bs yal sakheefa reday, IMY already!" IMY=i miss you by the way,Walla yatli el bachya chan agoula "haha, me too!" Chan egoul, "Shaikha..?" SHAIKHA!!? awal mara egouli shaikha en9idamt, w for some reason galbi gam e6eg ebser3a. 7sait begoul shay 8awi. chan agoulah, "3abdelwahab..?" chan egoul "ana hdaiit sara, bs la3at chabdi minha hl bnt wala mara 6ala3atni eb the way you always do.." NA3AM!? shno? OMG! chan agoula "Shko? mn galek?" abi aragi3 elmaw'9ou3, My heart started beating fast w 7sait mo gadra atnafas! chan egoul "El9ara7a sara galatli, w ma adri lama fakart feeha 7saiit ena 9j.." UFF!! now you get it!? lma im trying to forget the feelings i have for you!? waaaaaaaaay ya rabiii madri shasawii,7adi em3a9ba right now! chan agoula "I wouldn't believe everything i hear.." did i really say this?! Am i over him?! chan egoul "Enzain, ya3ni ma et7ebeeni?!" Mballah, bs i can't do this to myself! chan arid 3laih, "I love you as my cousin." Chan egoul "Ok, ana baf9il now, salmay 3la BARRAK!" oops i think 3a9aaab! 76ait rasi w nemt w gelt 7g nafso mn a9ba7 afla7!
It's been almost one month w my summer wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, w most of my time i spent with barrak! we got so close to eachother! i have this strong feeling towards him w kel ma asma3 esma my hear skips a beat! Gemt mn elnoum w decided to go to ben & jerry's, on my way there sheft noura w we talked for a bit, then kamalt 6ereeji to ben and jerry's, i just passed Selfridges when i heard barrak's voice calling my name, waay ya 7laaataa!lafait wayhi chan atani7 3laih! Barrak was standing there with his GORGEOUS smile, "Hii shyoukh!" he said, w ana 7adi emtan7a, chan astaw3ib ena shakli ghala6, chan agoula, "Hi Barrak!!" w ebtesamt. wayhi 9ar tomato red!7adii en7arajt cos ga3id ye'97ak 3alay. chan egoul "Ha wain ray7a?" Chan agoula, "Ben & jerry's!" chan egoul "9j 7ata ana" with the biggest smile on his face! he made me feel good..waaay w e7na namshi all i was thinking about is how tall he is!! Allah ye3lam ena my weakness is tall guys. we entered ben 7 jerry's o we both ordered their AMAZING WAFFLES! w e7na ga3deen ensoulif having a great time,we9ali msg mn wahab, and it said "I love you! come back already! im dying here!" chan an9edim! w barrak egouli "Shyoukh shfeeech!" chan agoula "haa? wala shay.." w 7awalt ma abchi mn el ghahaar!! all im thinking is why now? Why now when i think i have fallen for another guy... WHY!! w ma kan wedi Barrak yadri 3n my feelings towards Wahab, Im stuck between two guys and i dont want to hurt any of them..! i dont know what to do.so i excused myself w left ben & jerry's w 3ala 6oul re7t my room w b6aiit'ha bachiii! 7awalt i relax shway,chan adig 3ala mom w agoulaha "yuma,Abi arid elkuwait!" chan etgoul "Laish shfeech?!" Chan agoulaha "wallah shay, yuma please khan rid el kuwait!" chan etgoul "Enzain, 7abeebtii kelha esbou3 w radeen enshallah, ne6raay 3ad.." chan asakir elphone w nemt.
El last week in london was the longest ever! bs aby arid, mo em9adga elly graita, bl last week ma sheft barrak wayid, yemkin 3 times. I'm trying to avoid him, bs im bad at hiding that fact...When he calls i dont pick up, when he comes over i pretend im busy, bs kelhatha cos ma abi yet3alag feeni w at3alag feeh, cos i think i love wahab more!Last day in london, w i said goodbye to noura, bs im thinking of not saying goodbye to barrak. cos it's gonna be hard! So 6AM im at the airport waiting for our flight which is 9AM.Im trying not to think about anything right now but Wahabii elly e7ebnii!! 7:33AM sheft barrak w his dad,w barak kan yay towards me w he looked so sad. it broke my heart... Chan agoum w amshee towards him, w when we met, 3ala 6oul gal, "Afaa, betrou7een gbl la twad3eenii..?" w ana a7awil amsek dam3etii. chan agoula "I hate goodbyes, im not good at them," chan anazil rasi 3shan ma eshouf e3younii! chan egouli "Bs shloun ehoun 3laich etrou7een w ma tgoulen bye? i thought i was special.." Chan akhit a long breath w geltla "Im sorry if you thought we had something between us, bs there is nothing. you are a great guy bs..."Chan ega6e3ni, egoulii "Bs khala9, la tkamleeen, elly sema3ta kafii, tou9leen bl salama Shaikha.." w he walked away...! i wanted to scream COME BACK! i wanted to hug him!! Waay madrii shasawee, im stuck w i dont know what's the right thing to do.
3PM wi9alna el kuwait, waaay i missed kuwait! Khalti maha w Khali hisham kanaw yayeen yesta8belouna bl ma6ar, bs i thought wahab would be with them.. he wasnt.. ?!re7na 3la 6oul bait yadity blsurra, w ga3adna eb bait yadity lai belail,w the whole day i havent heard from wahab...where could he be? im pretty sure he knows ena elyoum maw3id 6ayaratna. bs ma 7bait afakir eb a bad thing gbl la at2akad.Sa2alt khalti maha "Wain wahab?" chan etgoul "Walla madri, ohwa el9b7 gal enna beyee el ma6ar w net8abal there, bs ma yah, w i called him ma rad fa atwa8a3 ra7at 3laih nouma.." re7t foug eb ghurfat yadity w enseda7t 3l bed w nemt shwaya.mom ga3edatni lama kna bnred elbait, it was 11PM. w ma we9ali ay msg or a call from him, yet! and it's worrying me al7eeen! we9alna elbait, dshait my room w ana bali kelish mo ma3a a7ad, bs ga3da w afakir..ya3ni ma38oula 7ata "El7emdellah 3l salama.." ma galii..?
Ba6alt my Macbook gelt yemkin shabek, wela ashouf Sara his girlfriend shabka, chan agoulaha "Hii, do you know where wahab is?" chan etgouli "No, laish is he lost? haha" WAAY I HATE HER! elmohim fi9alt w gelt khal anam,w e9eer khair bacher...! gmt to my mobile ringing, gelt "aloo?" Wela asma3 "aloo shaikha?" sheno!? wait khal astaw3ib el 9out..!? Sheft el number wela ma a3arifa...! gelt "Halla, meno ma3aay?" chan egoul "Ana Barrak!" en9edamt, sh3arefah eb my kuwait number? chan agoula "Oh, halla walla barrak, Shakhbarek?" chan egoul "Tmam, el7emdellah, bs 7bait agoulich el7emdellah 3al salama, w tara london ghair bedounich.." '9a7akt w geltla "I know...hehe, atghashmaaar!" chan egoul "ee walla mn 9iji, elmuhim ana 3ogib bacher raji3 enshallah, say hi to your parents." W sakar el mobile. I felt good that he actually cared enough to call and say el7emdellah 3l salama..! what a great guy he is!elmohim, 97aiit, ghasalt wayhii, w nezalt ta7at wela ashouf omi tabchii, chan agoulaha "Yuma shfeeech..?!" w ana galbi naqizni ena fii shay 9ayer! "Khaltich maha sawat 7adith ams belail w ehya rada, w now ehya bl3enaya el murakaza..!" OMG!!"Re7t w lmaiit omii w geltaha "yuma, khala9 enshallah tet7asan, lebsay 3abatich w nrou7laha now!" chan etgoul, "enzain 7abeebti.."
we9alna el mustashfa w ana mabi abchi 3shan omi tawha eskitat w mabi abacheeha mara thaniyaa, fa 7abast dam3ity, w meshaina lai her room, wela enshouf 3ami khalid w Reem ga3deen bara. 6amenouna ena 7alat'ha musta8era, w ga3da nad3ii enna allah egawemha blsalama, w as bad as it is for me to be doing that, bs i was thinking WHERE IN THE WORLD IS WAHAAB!!? ma38oula ma7ad yadrii 3ana? sa2alt reem "3ayal 3abdelwahab waina?" chan etgouli "Dakhil 3ind omi nayim" chan abchii..!Chan etlemni reem w she comforted me. 6ala3 wahab min elghurfa, w kelna lfaina 3alaih, w 3younah kanat 7umir, shafni chan etdami3 3younah. w ana galbii thabe7niii...!!gemt geltla be strong, allah kbeeer..! bchaiit w meshaiit..
2 week later khalti is ok, w its so wierd between me, barrak & wahab. I thought maybe for the best, ma a7eb a7ad w akhali 7ubi lehum fi galbi, ma kint abi ajra7 a7ad, w specially both those guys.i decided to tell them both at the same time, i called them w told them to meet me at the starbucks cafe. barrak we9al before wahab, o we stayed so quiet lama ya wahab. i took a long deep breath, w geltlehum "ana 8arart ena ma a7eb ay w7id baikum, 3shan mabi ajra7 ay wa7id feekum.." wahab en9efa8 wayha, chena a7ad 9aka 6raag, w barrak kan min9edim bs mo kither wahab..chan wahab egoul "Bs..." chan egoul Barrka "3ala ra7tich." Chan i look at them both w gemt "Ma3a alsalama guys!" w 6ala3t, chan yel7agni wahab, "Shyoukha, min 9ijich, Please dont do this!" w ana sakta w 3youni kelha dmou3! w galbi gam yetga6aa3!chan ekamil w egoul "9adgeeni shyouk a7ebich! wallah a7ebich!! la tsaween chithi, i dont think i can live without you!!" chan agoula "Shouf Wahab, ana en8ara9t wayid minik, w kl mara a6awefha, w i loved you so much, bs you never knew."Chan yen9edim, chan egoul "Shnoo..?" chan agoul "sema3tnii, w ma agdar aw9eflik el pain elly i went through w ent etekalam 3n sara w ghairha.." chan abchi,,
chan egoul "ana ghabiii,ana knt maynoun, madri sheno elly khalani an3ejeb eb sara, o wa7da malak mithlich dayman yami etsa3ednii,,9j eni i realised mit2akhir, bs hatha ma ya3ni eni ma a7ebich.." Chan abchi more... "Bs wahab, please bs!" bamshi chan yamsik edee w i felt soooooooo good. chan egoul, "Dont walk away from me, shyoukha please understand ana maynoun eb 7ubich, o Allah yesh'had ya shyoukh shkither 3anaiiit w entay eb london ma3a barrak!" Chan agoula "I'll talk to you later, i need to think, bs thanks for telling me all this..." Chan yebtisim, w i smiled back w rekabt my car. 7sait ena hm w enzaaaa7 3anii. e'97akat shaikha 7g 3abdelwahab, w mishat, w kan ohwa as3ad ensaaan b3d ma 7s ena lail7een ehya bain eedah w ma fegadhaa.Rad elbait wahab, Wela eshouf oma w oboh min9admeen w ma3ahum khalta Huda(om shaikha) w ehya ga3da tabchii. Ra7lehum ebser3a w gal "shfeeekum!!? WAIN SHAIKHAAA KHALTI HUDAA?!" ma radat 3alaih, "KHALTI HUDA ALLAH EKHALIICH REDAY 3ALAY, WAIN SHAIKHAAA!!!?" chan etgoul "ra7aaat!!! BNTTIII RA7AAAT!!!" w bechat more."RA7AT!!? WAIIIN!!?" Chan oma etrou7la w etgoula "7abeebi, shaikha 3a6etek 3umerhaa" chan et6ali3 elar'9 w dama3aaat. chan egoul "Laaaa2! please goloolee wainhaa?!! WAIINHAA 7ABEEBBTIII!!!?" chan e6ee7 bl ar'9 w yabchii w egoul " '9a3aat mn edeee, '9a3aat min edeeee!!!"Elyoum el defan, Barrak w wahab kanaw both mawjodeen, 9alaw 9alat 3la el mayit, w wahab can't stop crying, Barrak ra7 7g wahab, w 7awal ehadii, w egoula "ethker allah,allah yer7amha ebra7meta enshallah" Chan egoul "Allah yer7amhaaa."
"figadtek ya a3az elnas, figadt el 7ub w 6eeba w ana meli fi hl denya sewak en 6alat elghaiba?Ra7alt w mn bega weyay, ye7es eb '9aketi w eb bkaaay?! "
-Written by Shyoukha.
Don't get it wrong, it didnt happen to me, im still alive? ;p
xoxo
-S™
On our way to el baghala, Ga3ad esoulefli 3anha, w elmushkela i tried to give him hints ena bs khala9 ghayer el mawthou3, bs he's too dumb to get it!!Bs he's MY DUMB....MO SARA'S DUMB!!....Walla she doesnt deserve him, bs when i tell him that, e3a9ib 3alay w zain bs ma yekfakhnii. We9alt elbaghala,w tawni banzil chan egouli "waiin ray7aa? laykoun bakhaleech tanzeleen el baghala, la 7abeebti mako, ana anzil ayeeb el stuff.." Ana ma sema3t ghair kilmat 7abeebtiii, SHENO!!!?? 7abeebtekk!?? ANAA!!??? meta bs ekoun 9jjj...Ga3adt an6ir bl car for like 10 minutes, w akheeran yaa wela shayel ma3ah 3 bags! ola shda3wa, shkhalaiit 7g el baghalaaa!??! Awal ma rekab elcar ga3adt a'97ak, geltlah "ola sheno hatha!? ebthemetek fi shay ma shraiitah!?" Chan egoul "ma 3laich, elly tabeena shraitlich eyah el baji 7agii lama arou7 Shalaiih refeeji" SHALAIH REFEEJEK!!? uff w laish ma teg3ad weyay eb shalaiihna!? mo 3ajbetek ana!!? allaah kareeem. Sekat w meshaiit, w 6oul el 6ereej sakta,chan egoul "Shfeech sakta?" A7EBEK!!!! la yuba laykoun 9ij i can say that to him!! geltla "Walla shay.."Chan egoul "wanasa 2 weeks for summer!" chan i smile, w i parked bl shalaih w nezalt w nezal waraay. Dshaiit wela ashouf Ghanouma tabchii, re7t laha w best'ha w sa2alt'ha "Shfeeech?!" chan etgoul "ma a7eb farou7a! ma tkhaleeni a6ali3 tom & jerry"chan agoul 7g farou7a 7e6eelaha tom & jerry w a36eech icecream, chan tarki'9 w takhith barid lulu min wahaabiiiii as in mine and only mine!! i wish.I asked farou7a wain el kbaar( as in omi,w khalatii w yadityy) chan etgoul "khali hisham ra7 shalaih his friend, w khalati ra7aw yamshoun 3l ba7ar w mamafa6ma nayma eb her room.." chan akhith el icecream mn wahab w a7e6a bl fridge, Chan egoulii "Ma tabeen Happy hippo?" el9ara7a kela minek, ma 9ert mishtahya akel anything! chan agoula "la sheba3t, ekhtha ma3ak shalaih rab3ek!" chan ye'97ak w gal bye w he was gone.. What was funny.. ?!
Rdaina elbait mn elshalaih when el weekend ended and it wasnt the best weekend...that's for sure. w ana ma sheft wahabi mn lama ra7 shalaih rab3a..7ata msg ma dazlii, WHY!? e7na baina msgs like 24/7 bs madri shfeeh, mn awal ma - i dont want to say it but..- 7ab hl bnt sara i dont get as much msgs.Sometimes i feel sara knows how i feel about wahab and that's why etkhalee busy 3anii, walla madrii cos bl school wayid etshoufni ma3ah,bs madri ethakan ebayen 3alay how i feel towards him, 3ayal laish he doesn't see it!? "Konstantine" is officially OUR SONG, and by OUR i mean me and wahab, we love the songs so much!! for some reason we share alot of the same interest,i dont know maybe it's a sign we belong together? w ena ma7ad ra7 e7eba kithreee!? allah ye3lam eshkither a7eba w 3umri ma fakart eb 9bay ghairaah.dzaitla msg "Shloun el happy hippo?" Chan erid 3alay after 30 minutes "esalim 3laich;p w khshaiit two 7agech b3d shtabeen;) ana on my way home.." Chan a'97aak, waaaaay ashwa ya3ni kan efakir feenii..
SUMMER IS HERE!!! w i cant waiit to go to LONDON!! like every year since i can remember, w kela enrou7 with Khalti maha's family which means wahabii ma3ay.We9ali msg mn wahabii egoul "Im going to miss our crazy hangouts at Silfridges.." Sheno!!? what does that mean...!! chan adizla "MISS? WHYY YOU'RE not coming!!?"chan erid 3alay "No,l2ana oboy 3inda sheghil, w mara7 ensafir this year, takhayelay!" 7saiit wedi abchii!!! i was looking forward to it! cos it would be different withoutmy atheya big brother 7mayen, who is now married (FAKKAAA!!) kan he barely ekhaleenii ana w wahabi brou7naa, kela raz wayha, he's 24, tezawaj bnt ma3ah bl jam3a esimha Hala W she's 22, 7adha khoush wa7da, allah ekhaleehum 7g ba3a'9! W ekhaleeni ana w wahabiii 7g ba3a'9 b3d! wallah a7ebaah hl 9baaaay, yrait bs yadrii!Elmuhim, 7awalt agoul 7g omi te8naa3 khalti maha teyee weyana, mo ella weya rayelha, bs omi galat kaifhum,mayaboun esafroun, ya3ni mako fayda, my summer isofficially over...i dont want to go now!!!! i want to stay here with wahabii. uff walla nothing goes the way i wish it would. 2 days w i'm off to london w im trying to spend time with wahabii more than ever!!! wayy im gonna miss that boy. Omi w khalti maha kila ye6li3oun together, fa ana mistighila el fur9a, 3shan i can hang out with wahabii other than eb bait yadity bl surra,cos maykoun 3ala ra7atnaa. elmohim gbl el safra mom galat khal ni6la3 withkhaltich maha youm kamil. 6ab3an ana kayaaaft, w gelt 7g wahaaab eyee, w he promised he will. i tried to look my best..rekabt elcar w ni6art mom, then yat erkibat w mishaiit. I was so excited cheni a kid going to the playground for the first time! cos i thought yemkin this is my chance to tell him everything before i go..?
We9alt The avenues, wela khalti maha ga3da eb chocolate bar w makan ma3aha a7ad, chan omi etgoul "bs entay yaya?" chan etgoul "la2 reem yaya ma3ay bs ra7atteshtereelaha top kan 3ajebha mn River Island, Reem(25) is wahab's big sister,i Told you me and wahab have alot in common, we are both the youngest, we're almost 19, we both have one sibiling. 6ab3an 9akat feeni el denya lama 3araft ena wahab kishat feeni w ma ya ma3a khalti, i wanted to scream! bs i stayed quiet the whole 6al3a. the time was going soooo slow, ma kan lil 6al3a 6a3am, mlaiit aby arid el baiit, aby arid w akalem wahab w agoula laish ma ya with khalti!!11PM we9alna el bait, 3ala 6oul re7t w ba6alt my Macbook w i signed in Msn,i was hoping he was on, cos my mobile was out of credit and i can't get me any until tomorrow,w shda3wa i can wait that long to know?! ufff! shebakt w 76ait appear to be offline, w 6ab3an makan shabek, ka el3ada, knt 7adi minqatha,ma sakart el laptop,76aita away. 76ait rasi w 7awalt anam, ga3adt afakir eb reasons why he didn't come, w i didnt come with any..! w elmushkela bacher @ 9AM is my flight! w the clock now was 12AM i have to get some sleep, bs waiin eyeeni el sleep w wahabii madri 3anaa!!!? ga3adt afakir lama i fell asleep..7ata madri chum kanat elsa3a,maybe around 3AM.
We always stay at Churchill hotel @ london w kint me w wahabi stay in the lobby for so long looking at random people. as boring as it may sound, it was so much fun for us...bs it's all different now....no wahabii, no long hours sitting in the lobby en6ali3 people pass by, w no enjoyment for me whatsoever!!5AM gemt 3shan a9ali elfayer, chan aba6il my Macbook, Wela ashouf that i have a msg from wahabi, and it said "CALL ME AWAL MA TGOUMEEN,I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!" yes it was in caps for some reason. elmohum i decided to ignore that 3shan shway e7es feeni!! i didnt sleep after that cos mala da3i anam w lazim 7AM e7na bl airport.all i was thinking was shloun im gonna have fun alone in LONDON!? i mean 9ij ena dad w mom weyay, bs i gotta have someone my own age...Dag 3alay wahabi @ 8:30AM lama we were waiting at the terminal. omi etgoul "Haw shfeeech wahabi edeg w ma tsheeleena? ghareeba? 7abeebti feech shay?" chan agoulaha "no,bs mali khelg.." 7agarta, chan he calls again. i picked it up,wela asma3 9outa "aloo Shyoukh!!?" "Hala wahab" chan egoul "Feech shay?" Chan agoula "no why?" chan egoul "madri a7esich ga3da ta7gereeni..?" Zaiin 7saiiit! chan agoula "La shda3wa..." chan egoul "elmohum laish ma dgaitay 3alay awal ma gemtay?" chan agoula "Gemt met2akhir w ebser3a ebser3a w nsait.." w ana wediii agoula kelshay, bs my tongue got tied..! chan egoul "wallah madri shloun im gonna survive summer without you.." what does that suppose to mean? thanks for making it harder!Chan a'97ak w agoul "me too!" Chan egoul "walla im going to miss you,Etrou7een w tredeen blsalama 3ad dont forget me.." bchait w sakart el phone. Chan edezlii msg "Yal dalou3a;p!" w kan wedi akser elphone aw a9arekh lama bala3eemi et3awernii!!! or something....uff.
We9alna London, w re7na el hotel. the usual room number "216" kan wahabi elroom elly eghbalna "215", ana w omi dshaina el room w oboy kan ta7at shefta esalim 3ala what looked like a kuwaiti guy. yemkin his friend or something..76ait my bag eb my room w gelt 7g mom im going down. nezalt tawni ba6la3 min el hotel wela asma3 dad enadeeni, lafait wela ashoufa wagif e2asherli w yama a man w 9bay 6agetyy,,Re7tla chan egoul 7g el man hathy my little girl shyoukha, shyoukha hatha 9a7bi min 3umir, esma 6areg w hatha welda barrak, i found out barrak was 20. w he was cute & tall, bs not cuter than wahab.Dad 3azam 3ami 6areg for lunch with me and mom w ohwa w welda Barrak. 7elo esim Barrak. i liked it..We got seated bl ma63am, w barrak was sitting across me, w yami mom, w dad yam mom, w his dad was facing my dad.El evening kanat 7elwa, o we all had fun, w Barrak Told me He's going to meet me at Selfridges 11AM tomorrow so we can hang out, cos mom knew how sad i am about the whole khalti Maha not coming. Fa ma galat shay lama he told me, actually ehya galat ee shyoukha rou7ay have fun..! fa gelt okay, shwaray, let's get to know Barrak a little more, he might be fun and turn this summer to something i neverexpected...?
So as planned, 11AM i met Barrak, kan labis Black Abercrombie & fitch T-shirt w a White three-quarter, he looked so cute behind his rayban sunglasses. i on the other hand knt labsa a mini jeans skirt w white tank top w yellow cardigan, so summer-like with bright red Crocs, Barrak was wearing Black Crocs, Isn't he adorable? Anyways we went shopping and i didnt thought i'd have this much fun. 4PM I was walking up to our hotel room after going out with Barrak, w we9ali msg mn Wahab w katib "Hi shyoukha, Shlounich? walla miss you! w el summer is not the same withoutyou, Sara is being wierd again, w madri shasawee, i wish you were here to help...enshallah mistansa alone minaak? ;p" i was so mad mn his esloub! re7t my room w 9efagt el door behind me! laish he's that cruel?7ata law he's just playing, ma yadri eni ensan w i have feelings..!? shda3wa mala da3i etnarfezni all the time! so rdait 3ala his msg "Hala, ana zaina el7emdellah, entaw shloukum? walla madri shagoul 3n sara, kaifek,7el mushkeltek ebrou7ek, l2ani mlait w madrii eshsalfat hl bnt, elmohim, im having so much fun, w mo brou7i la tkhaf, i met this guy Barrak, obouh is my dad's old friend, w ana a6la3 weya cos ma 3indi a7ad ghaira here." W ebser3a he replied "Na3am? Eshye6la3 barrak? wain ga3deen te6li3een weya shabab?!" al7een 9ert etghaar? taw elnas ya Wahab! chan ared 3laih "Shasawee, ag3ad brou7i bl hotel? or atmasha brou7ii, ma 3indi a7ad here,shda3wa a9lan mom w oboy yadroun.. w ma galaw shay..la t3a9b!" Chan ered 3alay.. "Shloun ma a3a9ib w entay 6al3a with 9baay brou7ich entay weyah?" MN MITA YOU CARE!!!? so ketabtla "Shouf wahab, lw kan fi bnt a6la3 ma3aha here chan ma 6ala3t weyah, bs ma 3indi a7ad, w la t3a9ib, cos mala da3iii,shbe9eer baina ya3ni?" w b3d hl msg ma rad 3alay. 6awaft w gelt 7g nasfi mabi akharib my summer 3l shay Ma yestahil, Dshait elroom? Wela mako a7ad mom 7a6a note gayka ena ray7a teshtery aghra'9 w terja3, fa 6ala3t mn el hotel room w ga3adt bl lobby w ga3adt at'thakar lama wahab ekoun ga3id yami w en6ali3 elawadim pass by. Faj2a sheft Noura bl lobby, re7t salamt 3laiha, noura is one of my closest friends eb my school,I was so happy eni sheft'ha,gelt ashwa legait a7ad a3arfa ga3adt weyaha wwe talked 7g hours, w we set a date tomorrow ena we meet in the lobby 3shan ni6la3 together.
it was 8Pm w knt already daykha, ba6alt My MacBook w shubakt on msn, wela ashouf wahab shabek bs 7a6 away w his nickname kan "Shyoukh -> yalla erja3 kefaya, eb9ara7a fegadnaaak;*" chan a'97ak w ma agoul ghair sub7an allah mughayer el a7wal madri bs 7saiit ena wahab beda e7ebnii, as much as that should be a good news, ma knt mistansa. tawni baf9il wela edish 3alay wahab w egoul "shyooooukh!" chan agoula "Hala.." Chan egoul "shda3wa ma etsalmeen,,kubar rasich!?" ambay shko!!!! hl9ba7 ma e7is at all!! chan agoula "Shko, bs your status was away ma 7bait a2atheek!" Chan etgoul "entay noway et2atheeni ya shyoukh,walla 7asaiit eb wejoudich lama re7tay away from me, bs yal sakheefa reday, IMY already!" IMY=i miss you by the way,Walla yatli el bachya chan agoula "haha, me too!" Chan egoul, "Shaikha..?" SHAIKHA!!? awal mara egouli shaikha en9idamt, w for some reason galbi gam e6eg ebser3a. 7sait begoul shay 8awi. chan agoulah, "3abdelwahab..?" chan egoul "ana hdaiit sara, bs la3at chabdi minha hl bnt wala mara 6ala3atni eb the way you always do.." NA3AM!? shno? OMG! chan agoula "Shko? mn galek?" abi aragi3 elmaw'9ou3, My heart started beating fast w 7sait mo gadra atnafas! chan egoul "El9ara7a sara galatli, w ma adri lama fakart feeha 7saiit ena 9j.." UFF!! now you get it!? lma im trying to forget the feelings i have for you!? waaaaaaaaay ya rabiii madri shasawii,7adi em3a9ba right now! chan agoula "I wouldn't believe everything i hear.." did i really say this?! Am i over him?! chan egoul "Enzain, ya3ni ma et7ebeeni?!" Mballah, bs i can't do this to myself! chan arid 3laih, "I love you as my cousin." Chan egoul "Ok, ana baf9il now, salmay 3la BARRAK!" oops i think 3a9aaab! 76ait rasi w nemt w gelt 7g nafso mn a9ba7 afla7!
It's been almost one month w my summer wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, w most of my time i spent with barrak! we got so close to eachother! i have this strong feeling towards him w kel ma asma3 esma my hear skips a beat! Gemt mn elnoum w decided to go to ben & jerry's, on my way there sheft noura w we talked for a bit, then kamalt 6ereeji to ben and jerry's, i just passed Selfridges when i heard barrak's voice calling my name, waay ya 7laaataa!lafait wayhi chan atani7 3laih! Barrak was standing there with his GORGEOUS smile, "Hii shyoukh!" he said, w ana 7adi emtan7a, chan astaw3ib ena shakli ghala6, chan agoula, "Hi Barrak!!" w ebtesamt. wayhi 9ar tomato red!7adii en7arajt cos ga3id ye'97ak 3alay. chan egoul "Ha wain ray7a?" Chan agoula, "Ben & jerry's!" chan egoul "9j 7ata ana" with the biggest smile on his face! he made me feel good..waaay w e7na namshi all i was thinking about is how tall he is!! Allah ye3lam ena my weakness is tall guys. we entered ben 7 jerry's o we both ordered their AMAZING WAFFLES! w e7na ga3deen ensoulif having a great time,we9ali msg mn wahab, and it said "I love you! come back already! im dying here!" chan an9edim! w barrak egouli "Shyoukh shfeeech!" chan agoula "haa? wala shay.." w 7awalt ma abchi mn el ghahaar!! all im thinking is why now? Why now when i think i have fallen for another guy... WHY!! w ma kan wedi Barrak yadri 3n my feelings towards Wahab, Im stuck between two guys and i dont want to hurt any of them..! i dont know what to do.so i excused myself w left ben & jerry's w 3ala 6oul re7t my room w b6aiit'ha bachiii! 7awalt i relax shway,chan adig 3ala mom w agoulaha "yuma,Abi arid elkuwait!" chan etgoul "Laish shfeech?!" Chan agoulaha "wallah shay, yuma please khan rid el kuwait!" chan etgoul "Enzain, 7abeebtii kelha esbou3 w radeen enshallah, ne6raay 3ad.." chan asakir elphone w nemt.
El last week in london was the longest ever! bs aby arid, mo em9adga elly graita, bl last week ma sheft barrak wayid, yemkin 3 times. I'm trying to avoid him, bs im bad at hiding that fact...When he calls i dont pick up, when he comes over i pretend im busy, bs kelhatha cos ma abi yet3alag feeni w at3alag feeh, cos i think i love wahab more!Last day in london, w i said goodbye to noura, bs im thinking of not saying goodbye to barrak. cos it's gonna be hard! So 6AM im at the airport waiting for our flight which is 9AM.Im trying not to think about anything right now but Wahabii elly e7ebnii!! 7:33AM sheft barrak w his dad,w barak kan yay towards me w he looked so sad. it broke my heart... Chan agoum w amshee towards him, w when we met, 3ala 6oul gal, "Afaa, betrou7een gbl la twad3eenii..?" w ana a7awil amsek dam3etii. chan agoula "I hate goodbyes, im not good at them," chan anazil rasi 3shan ma eshouf e3younii! chan egouli "Bs shloun ehoun 3laich etrou7een w ma tgoulen bye? i thought i was special.." Chan akhit a long breath w geltla "Im sorry if you thought we had something between us, bs there is nothing. you are a great guy bs..."Chan ega6e3ni, egoulii "Bs khala9, la tkamleeen, elly sema3ta kafii, tou9leen bl salama Shaikha.." w he walked away...! i wanted to scream COME BACK! i wanted to hug him!! Waay madrii shasawee, im stuck w i dont know what's the right thing to do.
3PM wi9alna el kuwait, waaay i missed kuwait! Khalti maha w Khali hisham kanaw yayeen yesta8belouna bl ma6ar, bs i thought wahab would be with them.. he wasnt.. ?!re7na 3la 6oul bait yadity blsurra, w ga3adna eb bait yadity lai belail,w the whole day i havent heard from wahab...where could he be? im pretty sure he knows ena elyoum maw3id 6ayaratna. bs ma 7bait afakir eb a bad thing gbl la at2akad.Sa2alt khalti maha "Wain wahab?" chan etgoul "Walla madri, ohwa el9b7 gal enna beyee el ma6ar w net8abal there, bs ma yah, w i called him ma rad fa atwa8a3 ra7at 3laih nouma.." re7t foug eb ghurfat yadity w enseda7t 3l bed w nemt shwaya.mom ga3edatni lama kna bnred elbait, it was 11PM. w ma we9ali ay msg or a call from him, yet! and it's worrying me al7eeen! we9alna elbait, dshait my room w ana bali kelish mo ma3a a7ad, bs ga3da w afakir..ya3ni ma38oula 7ata "El7emdellah 3l salama.." ma galii..?
Ba6alt my Macbook gelt yemkin shabek, wela ashouf Sara his girlfriend shabka, chan agoulaha "Hii, do you know where wahab is?" chan etgouli "No, laish is he lost? haha" WAAY I HATE HER! elmohim fi9alt w gelt khal anam,w e9eer khair bacher...! gmt to my mobile ringing, gelt "aloo?" Wela asma3 "aloo shaikha?" sheno!? wait khal astaw3ib el 9out..!? Sheft el number wela ma a3arifa...! gelt "Halla, meno ma3aay?" chan egoul "Ana Barrak!" en9edamt, sh3arefah eb my kuwait number? chan agoula "Oh, halla walla barrak, Shakhbarek?" chan egoul "Tmam, el7emdellah, bs 7bait agoulich el7emdellah 3al salama, w tara london ghair bedounich.." '9a7akt w geltla "I know...hehe, atghashmaaar!" chan egoul "ee walla mn 9iji, elmuhim ana 3ogib bacher raji3 enshallah, say hi to your parents." W sakar el mobile. I felt good that he actually cared enough to call and say el7emdellah 3l salama..! what a great guy he is!elmohim, 97aiit, ghasalt wayhii, w nezalt ta7at wela ashouf omi tabchii, chan agoulaha "Yuma shfeeech..?!" w ana galbi naqizni ena fii shay 9ayer! "Khaltich maha sawat 7adith ams belail w ehya rada, w now ehya bl3enaya el murakaza..!" OMG!!"Re7t w lmaiit omii w geltaha "yuma, khala9 enshallah tet7asan, lebsay 3abatich w nrou7laha now!" chan etgoul, "enzain 7abeebti.."
we9alna el mustashfa w ana mabi abchi 3shan omi tawha eskitat w mabi abacheeha mara thaniyaa, fa 7abast dam3ity, w meshaina lai her room, wela enshouf 3ami khalid w Reem ga3deen bara. 6amenouna ena 7alat'ha musta8era, w ga3da nad3ii enna allah egawemha blsalama, w as bad as it is for me to be doing that, bs i was thinking WHERE IN THE WORLD IS WAHAAB!!? ma38oula ma7ad yadrii 3ana? sa2alt reem "3ayal 3abdelwahab waina?" chan etgouli "Dakhil 3ind omi nayim" chan abchii..!Chan etlemni reem w she comforted me. 6ala3 wahab min elghurfa, w kelna lfaina 3alaih, w 3younah kanat 7umir, shafni chan etdami3 3younah. w ana galbii thabe7niii...!!gemt geltla be strong, allah kbeeer..! bchaiit w meshaiit..
2 week later khalti is ok, w its so wierd between me, barrak & wahab. I thought maybe for the best, ma a7eb a7ad w akhali 7ubi lehum fi galbi, ma kint abi ajra7 a7ad, w specially both those guys.i decided to tell them both at the same time, i called them w told them to meet me at the starbucks cafe. barrak we9al before wahab, o we stayed so quiet lama ya wahab. i took a long deep breath, w geltlehum "ana 8arart ena ma a7eb ay w7id baikum, 3shan mabi ajra7 ay wa7id feekum.." wahab en9efa8 wayha, chena a7ad 9aka 6raag, w barrak kan min9edim bs mo kither wahab..chan wahab egoul "Bs..." chan egoul Barrka "3ala ra7tich." Chan i look at them both w gemt "Ma3a alsalama guys!" w 6ala3t, chan yel7agni wahab, "Shyoukha, min 9ijich, Please dont do this!" w ana sakta w 3youni kelha dmou3! w galbi gam yetga6aa3!chan ekamil w egoul "9adgeeni shyouk a7ebich! wallah a7ebich!! la tsaween chithi, i dont think i can live without you!!" chan agoula "Shouf Wahab, ana en8ara9t wayid minik, w kl mara a6awefha, w i loved you so much, bs you never knew."Chan yen9edim, chan egoul "Shnoo..?" chan agoul "sema3tnii, w ma agdar aw9eflik el pain elly i went through w ent etekalam 3n sara w ghairha.." chan abchi,,
chan egoul "ana ghabiii,ana knt maynoun, madri sheno elly khalani an3ejeb eb sara, o wa7da malak mithlich dayman yami etsa3ednii,,9j eni i realised mit2akhir, bs hatha ma ya3ni eni ma a7ebich.." Chan abchi more... "Bs wahab, please bs!" bamshi chan yamsik edee w i felt soooooooo good. chan egoul, "Dont walk away from me, shyoukha please understand ana maynoun eb 7ubich, o Allah yesh'had ya shyoukh shkither 3anaiiit w entay eb london ma3a barrak!" Chan agoula "I'll talk to you later, i need to think, bs thanks for telling me all this..." Chan yebtisim, w i smiled back w rekabt my car. 7sait ena hm w enzaaaa7 3anii. e'97akat shaikha 7g 3abdelwahab, w mishat, w kan ohwa as3ad ensaaan b3d ma 7s ena lail7een ehya bain eedah w ma fegadhaa.Rad elbait wahab, Wela eshouf oma w oboh min9admeen w ma3ahum khalta Huda(om shaikha) w ehya ga3da tabchii. Ra7lehum ebser3a w gal "shfeeekum!!? WAIN SHAIKHAAA KHALTI HUDAA?!" ma radat 3alaih, "KHALTI HUDA ALLAH EKHALIICH REDAY 3ALAY, WAIN SHAIKHAAA!!!?" chan etgoul "ra7aaat!!! BNTTIII RA7AAAT!!!" w bechat more."RA7AT!!? WAIIIN!!?" Chan oma etrou7la w etgoula "7abeebi, shaikha 3a6etek 3umerhaa" chan et6ali3 elar'9 w dama3aaat. chan egoul "Laaaa2! please goloolee wainhaa?!! WAIINHAA 7ABEEBBTIII!!!?" chan e6ee7 bl ar'9 w yabchii w egoul " '9a3aat mn edeee, '9a3aat min edeeee!!!"Elyoum el defan, Barrak w wahab kanaw both mawjodeen, 9alaw 9alat 3la el mayit, w wahab can't stop crying, Barrak ra7 7g wahab, w 7awal ehadii, w egoula "ethker allah,allah yer7amha ebra7meta enshallah" Chan egoul "Allah yer7amhaaa."
"figadtek ya a3az elnas, figadt el 7ub w 6eeba w ana meli fi hl denya sewak en 6alat elghaiba?Ra7alt w mn bega weyay, ye7es eb '9aketi w eb bkaaay?! "
-Written by Shyoukha.
Don't get it wrong, it didnt happen to me, im still alive? ;p
xoxo
-S™
"ElDinya Gisma W N9eeeb"
What to do? What to do?I'm so bored w ga3da brou7i blbait Brou7i, w mithel ay bnt eb hl ayam, gelt khal adish ay chat w asta3bi6 dam ma 3indi shay asaweeh, ba6alt my laptop w dshait el chat..76ait my nickname "SulaSUPERGIRL" w ga3da ashrab redbull w agra el main chat w suwalifhum. chan edish 3alay wa7id his nickname kan "Bdair88" Gali "Hi =)" chan agoula "Hii..!" chan egouli "Shlounich,,?" Chan agoula "Zaina, you? ;p" Chan egoul "Wallah el7emdellah ebkhaiir," w after 2 hours of chatting, he asked for my email, w 36aitah, cos min kalama 7sait ena khoush wa7id, w 9ert 3shan bs akalma ashbk more than the usual.. Okhoy Fhaid(21) allah ekhaleeh lena, He's met'hawir wayid, mithel a lot of boys hl ayam. ana w okhoy are so close together,w omi ma t7eb lama fhaid egoul barou7 shalaih refeeji, cos 6oul el muda teg3ad et7ateeh; mn hl jet skiis w el bagiyaat..allah ekafeena elshar! ana now awal sena li eb 3loum edariya w i was a good student, bs ever since i knew Bader gemt ansheghel 3n derasti shwaya w dad kalamni w gali etha darajati enzilaw akthar ra7 yakhith el laptop mini, ya3ni no more talking to badoori, w no way i can live with that! fa gemt ashed 7aiilii 3shanah!Badouri is 21 w 7ada eshaweg! warani his picture bl msn, wayha kan kelish mo ghareeeb 3alay, bs mo ga3da athker wain shayfa wayha..9arli 3 months akalma on msn, w since i really like him w began to trust him, 36aita my number bs geltla ena bs msgs, no phonecalls! w re'9a cos ma eredlii 6alab, waaay a7ebaah! he thinks ena ana ashabeh wa7id mn rab3a, 6ab3an 7adi 3a9abt,cos sheno ya3ni i look like a guy?!.. It's really cute how he's jealous w kela yes2alni wain barou7 w m3a meno ba6la3, 3la goulta 7ata mn okhoy eghaaar.Rn telephoni w shelta, it was Dalal, Dalal is my bestfriend, galat "Suloo,wedi arou7 maki, you dig?" chan a'97ak w geltlaha, "Okay, 10 minutes w amurich.." Dzait msg 7g badoori geltla "Barou7 maki avenues with my friend" Chan erid 3alay egoul "3ayal ana bayee 3shan ashoufich!" estanast bs hm knt khayfa shway, i mean awal mara ra7 ashoufa in REAL LIFE!!! Rekabt el car w marait dalool w meshait, we9alna elavenues, w dshaina maki wela you9ali msg mena "Sh'hal zaiin? ;)" Chan wayhi yengelib a7mar! chan adizla "wainek?" Chan edizly msg back "Lefay yemeen w ra7 etshoufeenii. ;p" Lafait ebser3a wela ashouf labis orange polo shirt w capri baij,He looked HOTTT!! yatli el'9a7ka chan ebser3a alif wayhii,chan edizlii msg "Walla enich 9aka 3la kl elbanat elly mawjoudeen,besmellah 3laiiich!" Chan aste7y w dzaiitla "Ty;*" Ana w dalool 6alabna 3isa maki, edemame,w chicken plum sauce. It was a pleasant eveing...Rdait elbait wela okhoy ga3id bl 9ala e6ali3 "Prison Break", ga3adt yama w 6ala3t weyah, chan edeg telephona chan esheela w egoul "Hala badoor 7abeebi!" w gam, chan i smile just because sema3t esim bader.Gemt 10 el9b7 wela wa9eli msg mn B "Shloun Elgumar elyoum?" chan abous el mobile screen w dzaitla "zaina, walhana 3laiik." chan edizli "b3d 3umrii Mu kithriii;*"Nizalt wela ashouf Fahoud embadil w tawa ebye6la3, chan agoula "Wain raye7?" Chan egoul "Barou7 shalaih Bdair, el shabab eb yetyame3oun elyoum w yemkin enamoun b3d.." Chan agoula "Wanasa, take care!" w 6ala3. Kanat elsa3a 12:25PM mobily kan foug, re7t el9ala ga3adt agra eljareeda wela agra khabar 3n shabab emsaween 7adith, 2 bl 2inaya el murakza, o wa7id tuwafa,chan arki'9 foug w dzait msg 7g fahoud "Please, be careful, I love you!" w nezalt ta7at ashrab chaii m3a omi, khala9t chan a93ad foug wela 3indi 2 misscall mn ra8am ma a3arfa, gelt dam 2 misscall ya3ni mo ghal6an elly dag, dgaiit wela esheela e9bay "Aloo?" Chan agoula "alo, hala, law sama7t ent dag 3alay 2 times?" chan egoul "La, la7tha..." chan asma3a egoul fhaiid ent dag 3ala wa7da? chan egoul "ee,ekhtii." chan yakhith elphone w egol "hala sula.." Chan agoula "Hala fahad,,shfeek?" chan egoul "Bs knt bagoulich ena my phone en6efa w nasi el charger, f etha bghaitaw shay call this number ok?" chan agoula "Okay, take care, w have fun.? w sakart elphone. Sajalt the number as "unknown friend" w 76ait rasi w nemt. Gemt el'9oher, wela 3indi msg mn "unknown friend" that said "Suloo goolay 7g omi ena elshabab benamoun elweekend kela, fa la t7ateeni etha ma rdait elyoum, ok? see you bacher!" Gelt 7g omi chan etgoul "enzain, khalich mish3al 7ajiz shalaih eb kimpinski, tbeen etrou7een?" chan agoul "Akeed!" On Our way to kimpinski dzait msg 7g bdair geltlah eni ray7a kimpinski, Chan erd 3alay w egoul "ana minak now! enshallah netlagaa;p!" Wi9alt w ana bs ga3da adawer badour, chan edizlii msg "Wainich now? ana al7een ba6la3 mn second cup." Grait el msg w ana badish second cup chan eba6il elbab, chan atani7 eb wayha!! waaay min greeb he's even more hot! "chan egouli enshallah ma etan7een chithi.." chan ye'97ak, '9a7akt chan egoul "Derbalich 3ala nafsich, ehni wayid 9bayan,ok? ana lazim arou7 now elshabab na6reeni bl sayara! chan agoula "enshallah, bye." chan yebtesim w yamshii! waay im so in love with him, im so luckyy! 6oul el wagt ohwa 3ala bali, w i think et9ek feeni eldenya etha ma kalamta for a whole day..Rdaina mn kimpinski w rad fahood mn el shalaih with a great news! his friend badoor ebyakh6ib bnt 3amita! waaay el fal lii w my badourii! Dshait msn, chan ashouf bdair shabek geltla "Hii badoor! rdait mn el shalaiih?" ma rad 3alay. Haw shfeeeh!? mo 3adta ma erid 3alay. ana swait shay? walla shkait eb 3umrii. i waited lama 7sait eb doukha chan a7e6 rasi w anaam.The next day gemt wela wa9ili msg mn "unknown friend" msg and it said "sorry ma rdait 3laich ams,bs knt mashghoul, IMY<3" En9edamt 9admat 7ayatii!!BADER is the unknown friend? Bader refeeej okhoy? Bader elly ebyakh6ib bnt 3amita? La musta7eeeeel!! Mu gadra astaw3ib shay...!!Dgait 3la Bader ma rad, chan asma3 mom etgoul "7abeebi, elbkhour zahib!" chan a6la3 ebser3a w ashouf okhoy labis dishdasha w kashikh w omi ga3da etbakhra, chan agoula "Wain rayi7?" chan egoul "Barou7 ma3a badour nakh6ibla bnt 3amita, l2ana ma 3inda okho or obo, fa galy arou7 ma3ah.." chan adish my room w 3afast everything!!! w ga3adt abchi chan you9ali msg mn bader "Hi my Sula, shga3da etsaween?" chan agoula "nothing,you?" chan egoul "Ga3id afaker feech!" CHATHAB!!! w ma rdait 3laih, chan edizlii "Sula 7ubi feech shay?" WAY STOP ACTING! STOP PRETENDING YOU CARE!! chan adizla "Mafeeni shay, bs daykha, ana banam now ciao" w sakart my mobile! gmt elyoum elly warah w ana mali khelg shay!, ba6alt my phone wela 3indi 2 miss you min bader, 7agarta w nezalt atrayag,lama khala9t w 9a3adt foug wela wa9ili msg mina "Sula, please reday, im gonna call now!" w 1 miss call mina too. G6ait my phone 3al bed, w i tried to think, chan okhoy fahad e6eg elbab w dash, chan egoul "te6li3een elyoum?" chan agoula "ee okay, ta3al ma geltlii sh9aar re7t kha6abt 7g refeeejik?" chab egoul "La, elmaynoun teradad w gal ena ghal6an w ma yabeeha." Chan an9edim..! Re7t ma3ah okhoy el cinema,w as fate would have it! who do i see walking toward us?! BADER!! chan atani7. Fhaid shafa chan egoul "Bdaiir!" chan erou7 esalim 3laih,w ana wagfa wara w kan wedi akalim bdair w afham shelsalfa with bnt 3amita. Rdaina elbait, ghasalt 76ait rasi w nemt.2 weeks since el6al3a, w since the last time i saw bdair, i deleted his number from my mobile w i wish i could erase him from my life!knt ga3da bl 9ala lama okhoy dash w wayha min9edim w za3laan, chan agoum w agoula "Fahood shfeek!!?" chan egoul "Om 9a7bi bdair tewafat allah yer7amha, w tawni yay min elmagbara shakla e3awer elgalb!" chan an9edim. tethakart ena i still have "Unknown friend" number, w since it's bdair, gelt lazim adizla msg! Dzaitla "Bader, 3a'9am allah ajrek, w allah ethabetkum enshallah, im sorry.." ga3adt eb my room afakir. chan you9ali msg mina "ajerna w ajrech, mashkoura ma tga9reen.." 3 months passed so slow, w each day my heart breaks a little more. wedi akalim bdair, wedi asma3 9outa, wediii...9ar ma erid 3la ra8am el "unknown friend" shakla ba3 el kha6, w el thani ma 3indi eyah, w i cant seem to catch him online on msn. w for 3 months ma sema3t 3ana shay, 7ata okhoy ma ashoufa yetkalam 3n bdair wayid. Re7t 7g fhaid w geltlah "Fahoud, shloun refeejek bader?" chan e6ali3ni w mistaghrib w egoul "na3am? w shko tes2ileen?" chan agoula "La wallah shay, bs minziman ma tekalamt 3ana, wala gelt ebte6la3 weyaha, akher mara lama oma tewafat allah yer7amha" Chan egoul "allah yer7amha, ee shesawee elmiskeen, he lost oma w obouh, ya3ni tabeena ye6la3,tawa ma 9ar 7g wefat oma muda, 7awalna en6al3a w enkhaly eghayer jaw, bs madri shfeeh, el'9aher fi salfa thanya em'9aygeta, l2ana oma kanat maree'9a 7ail, fa atwa8a3 kan 7a6 eb bala ena mumkin tmout eb ay la7tha, walla madri, allah ekoun eb 3ouna,walla ma yestahil." Chan agoul "enshallah" tawni bamshii, wela asma3 okhoy egoul "Ha, 3umra 6weel,kahu dag" chan esheel el telephone, "Hala bador 7abibi, shlounek?" "La walla, khala9 ya3ni akeed hl mara?" akeed hl mara? haw shelsalfa, wegaft aby a3arif 3n shno. "ee khala9 enshallah bacher enshoufik.." chan esaker elphone, "shelsalfa?" Chan egoul "Egoul berou7 yakh6ib bnt 3amita elly thek elmara kan ebyakh6ibha.." NA3AAAAM!! chan a93ad foug gherfuti w asakir elbab w ga3adt 3l bed abchii lama nemt.Gmt el 9b7 wela ashouf msg mn ragam ghreeb "Ana bader, please call this number lama etgoumeen, '9arouri." i took a long breath w i called him w ma rad, chan age6 elphone w anzil ta7at. Sheft mom w dad ga3deen yetrayegoun, ga3adt terayagt weyahum,chan as2alhum "3ayal fahoud waina?" chan egoul oboy, "6ala3 embacher egoul 3inda shighel.." klait w khala9t, chan a93ad foug wela telephoni ga3id erin shelta "aloo?" chan asma3 9outa egoula "Sula..?" chan agoula "Bader..?" chan egoul "Shlounich?" chan agoula "Zaina, you?" Chan egoul "El7emdellah 3la kel 7al, Sula momkin ashoufich eb mukan? 3indi shay lazim agoulich eyah.." chan agoula "asfa, etha betgoul shay, goula bl telephone, tetwaga3 b3d elly betsaweeh agdar ashoufik?!" chan egoul "B3d elly basaweeh?" sheno tetsa3bi6? etsawee rou7ik ma tadrii!!? Chan agoula "ee, atwa8a3 ent adra bily ga3da agoula.." chan egoul "Etha 8a9dich 3n el khu6ba, then hathi elly ana aby ashoufich 3shan akalmich 3anha.." chan agoula "Mala da3ii, gouli hnii, mara7 ekoun fi farg etha bl telephone geltli elly tabeeh!" chan yaskit...w egoul "mashee, 3alla ra7tich, bs shoufay sula abeech et3arfeen ena elly basawee mu 3ashan ana abeeh! elly basaweeh 3shan omi kanat tabee takh6ebli eyaha, w ehya elly tabeeni akhith bnt 3amiti, bs ana refa'9t hl shay 3shanich, bs b3d ma tewafat el walda.." chan yaskit w kamal kalama "allah yer7amha,galbi 3awarni, w lama knt ma3aha gbl la tmout, kanat omniyat'ha eni akh6ubha.." chan agoula "Bader, mala da3i etfaserli laish betsawee hl shay, ana ma 3ad ehemnii.." chan egouli "La ana abeech et3arfeen, l2ana 9adgeeni ma ehoun 3alay atrekech chithi bedoun la abayenlich mawgefii, wallah ya sula law beedi chan kha6abtich mn bacher, bs tewafat elwalda embacher, gbl la afati7ha bl maw'9ou3!" chan yabchi.. chan agoul "Bader,la tabchiii, walla enni ra'9ya takh6ub bnt 3ametik, walla eni ra'9ya, la tfaker feeni, allah ewafgek ma3aha, ana lazim arou7 now, bs derbalik 3ala nafsek." chan asaker elphone w abchii. chan edig w 7agartah, w edig mara thaniya, chan a7gera, chan edizli msg, "Mithleek Geleeel ya Sulaa.. ;*<3"
7okim Il Ahaaaaal FARAG GULOUB! <\3
-Written by: Shyouka.
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xoxo
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7okim Il Ahaaaaal FARAG GULOUB! <\3
-Written by: Shyouka.
Tell me what you think please.. ;)
xoxo
-S™
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Hey guys, Welcome to my Webblog.
I love writing a lot, which is why i decided to make my own blog.
My blog will consist of variety stuff, i write love stories in "Msn language" and i will be posting them here soon. I also write songs and peoms, Let me hear your feedbacks.. ;)
Enjoy my webblog, and come back again for updates!
Have a good day.
xoxo
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I love writing a lot, which is why i decided to make my own blog.
My blog will consist of variety stuff, i write love stories in "Msn language" and i will be posting them here soon. I also write songs and peoms, Let me hear your feedbacks.. ;)
Enjoy my webblog, and come back again for updates!
Have a good day.
xoxo
-S™
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