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Sunday, August 2, 2009

Part FortySeven;;"I'm so scared that the way that I feel is written all over my face."

I just realised it has been one whole year for my blog!
That's soo cool!!

Happy anniversary to my blog! :D
& i love you all for being the best followers!!;***

Oh, one more thing, no cliffhanger on this post.


Previously on "Across the Universe":
- My parents's farewell dinner was awesome.
- Mishary has another side of him that i never knew.
- Yousef is waiting for me; to sort things out.
- I'm going out with the attractive Jara7, Mishary and D, that's gotta be fun!
- I received a new text message while i was brushing my teeth.

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1st of September
Bedroom
10AM

I got out of the bathroom and went to check the new text message i received.
It was from Ghazi; "Hii, shlounich? shakhbarich? Baiih minzeman 3anich, waiin ekhtefaaiitaii? ;P"

"Halla walla, il7emdillah bkhair, ent shlounik? wallah lhaiit shway with my parents leaving and the whole moving to my uncle's house." I replied.

I was wearing a pink and white striped Pajama pants and a white T-shirt, i took my pink Juicy couture Tracksuit Jacket and wore it because i was going downstairs to eat breakfast and my White T-shirt can be see-through at times.
I slipped my phone in the jacket pocket and left the room.

I was walking down the hall when i heared Mishary talking on the phone in his room, he was yelling, so his voice was kind of clear to hear.
I was pretty sure he was talking to a girl because i heard him say "w b3dain ma3ach".

I couldn't stand hearing anymore so i pressed the elevator button and went downstairs.
Who was he talking to?
Was it his Cousin?
Or was it his girlfriend?
I wondered while i got into the elevator and went to the ground floor.

I got into the dining room and Waleed was there with Janouya.
"9ba7 ilkhaiir" I said as i got myself seated next to Janouya.

"9ba7 ilnour" Waleedan replied.

"3yal wain khalii?" I asked.

"He had to go to work early." Waleed said.

"Oh, allah ya36eeh il3afyah, Janouya shlounich 7yatii?" I said as i kissed her cheeks.

"Zaina!" She said.

I was putting Labnah and za3tar in my plate when Mishary walked in the dining room and sat next to Waleedan, his face was a bit red, Probably from the phonecall.

I looked at him then i turned to Waleed,
"Can you please hand me the olive oil?" I said.

"Sure." He said.

I poured some Olive oil on the labnah and Za3tar.

"Mishary, please pass me the bread." I said.

I don't think he was listening.

"Mishary?" I said.

"Khali ewalii, Haach." Waleedan said.

"Thank you" I said.

Shfeeh!?
I was getting really curious about the Phonecall.

Mishary was eating silently.

I finished my Labnah and drank orange juice and got up.
There was only Mishary in the table.
Just before i was leave the dining room, i rememmbered il6al3a.

"Ohh, mishary nsaiit la agoul 7g friend 3an il6al3a.." I said.

"Dont tell her, ana mali nafs a6la3, barou7 ildowaniya." He said.

"Ha? why?" I asked.

"Bs mali khelg, w i called Jara7 and cancelled." He said.

"Oookay!" I said and left the room before he could say anything else.

I went upstairs to my room.
I got in the bathroom to wash my hands.

I left the bathroom and checked my phone, i had 2 new text messages.

D; "Ha waiin eb ne6la3?;p miss you!"
Ghazi; "Cool, Sh3endich elyoum?;p"

I replied to both messages.
D; "Anywhere you want baby;)"
Ghazi; "I'm going out with Dana!"

I opened my laptop and let music play through Itunes.

I was looking for my Orange knee high dress with 3 quarter sleeve but i couldn't find it.
I must've left it at home, i wanted to wear it for the 6al3a, and because everyone told me i looked totally gorgeous in that dress, i wanted Mishary to see me wearing it!

A little change of plan; My plan now is to get Mishary jealous!

*BEEP* New Text message.

It was from Ghazi;

"Oh that's awesome, Can i come?(A)"

while i was reading his message i got another message, it was from D;
"I'm hungry, Johnny Avenues?"

I replied to D; "Hey, can i bring some company with me?"

I called uncle to ask him about the Spare key of my house.

Ringing...Ringing...Call.

"Alo." Khali said.

"Aloo hala khali" I said.

"Halla feech bnaytii." He said.

"Agoul khali where is the Spare key of my house?" I asked.

"3ind Mishary." He said.

MISHARY? SHKU? ;/

"Ohh laish?" I said.

"I was gonna leave it in my room, bs ana nou3i agfil my room etha 6ala3t w gelt akhaf te7tajain ilkey w ana mu mawjoud." He said.

"Oh okay, thank you w khali tra ba6la3 m3a my friend w my cousin, ok?" I said.

"Okay, have fun, w take care w la tet2akhrain wayed, ok?" He said.

"Enshallah khali, thank you!" I said.

and closed the phone.

While i was talking on the phone with uncle i recieved a text message from D.
I checked the message;

"It depends, who is it?;P"

"Ghazi;)"
I replied.

5 minutes later.
*BEEP* new text message; D.
"HELL YEAH, he can come;$! bs change of plans, mu johhny! :P"

"How come?"
I replied.

*RING RING*
It was D.

"Heyyy!" i said.

"Heyy there lover, lazem akhshaakh!" she said.

"Haha, awwh, you're pretty no matter what you're wearing." I said.

"That's sweet, but i need an opinion, albes my red Cady Chinoise Roberto Cavalli Dress or albes skinny jeans and a white T-shirt with my Thomas Wylde blazer?" She said.

"Hmm, I think the second outfit is better, I love blazers on you!" I said.

"Hmm, ok,. what are you wearing?" She said.

"My orange dress!" I said.

"HEY! no!!" She said.

"Huh? whyy?" I said.

"Because then you'll look prettier!" She said.

"Awwh shut up, i'm wearing it because im trying to get Mishary jealous shwaya!" I said.

"How come?" She asked.

"Because i heard him talking to a girl on the phone!" I said.

"Awwh sweetie, okay, yalla i'll pick you up at 7, ok?" she said.

"Okay, Where are we going?" I said.

"I dont know, Maki?" She said.

"YES!! i love you, yalla bye, i need to go home and get my dress and some other stuff." I said.

"Okay, ciao love, take care!" She said.

"You too, Ciao!" I said. and the phone call ended.

I replied to Ghazi's message;
"Yes, you're more than welcome to come;)"

I changed into a short jeans and a liverpool Jersey with Gerrard on the back.
I put my hair up in a ponytail and got my sunglasses and my phone and left my room.

I saw Waleedan and Mishary in the livingroom upstairs.

"ilsalaam." I said.

"Wa3alaykum ilsalam." Both said.

Apparently Mishary is a Manchester United fan, so he gave me a dirty look because of my Liverpool Tshirt.

"Mishary, wain Spare key mal my house?" I said.

"Laish?" He asked.

"I need to get some stuff." I said.

"Shnu hal stuff??" He said.

"Ha? ta7qeeq ohu? i need some stuff w khala9." I said.

"Shgelt ana, i was just asking." He said. "Ne6ray i'll get it from my room." He said.

"Wain betrou7een?" Waleedan asked me 3la ma Mishary gets the spare key.

"Ba6la3 with my friend and my cousin." I said.

"Ohh, nice, ay cousin?" He asked.

"Ghazi Wld khalti '9eyah." I said.

"Ohh, w ma3aach refeejtich?" He said.

"Ee 3adi they know each other." I said.

"Oh cool, have fun!" Waleed said.

"Thanks" I smiled.

"Here." Mishary said and handed me my key.

"Thanks." I said and pressed the elevator button.

"Did i hear right? ebte6le3een weya Ghazi?" Mishary asked.

"Yeah." I said.

"Shkuu?" He said.

"Shnu shkuu?" I said.

"Shku wain ga3deen te6le3een m3ah?" He said.

"Ayshay 9aa7? w it was 3adii when me, you and Jara7 were going to out 9aa7?" I said.

"that's different!" He said.

"HOW IS THAT DIFFERNT?" I snapped.

"Because ana akoun weyach, mu brou7ich" He said.

"So? I'm not alone, ana weya my friend w ohwa w yemkin ekhta fajoura teyee b3d" I said. "Beside, i dont need your permission to go out, i asked khali w he approved!" I continued.

"Ok, rou7ay, allah weyach, w enjoy!" He said eb nafsiyah khaysa.

"Thank you!" I said.

"Deerbalich mn il6ereej now, don't forget you have a broken arm." Waleedan said.

"Okay, i will, i didn't forget." I said.

I got into the elevator and went to the ground floor.
I went to the Garage and got into my car and headed home.

I was listening to my I-pod on shuffle, "3azat 3lay nafsi" by Rashed Al-Majed was playing.

"3azat 3alay nafsiii mn gaswat zemannii w ana el lethi mn gaswa el ayam layen" I sang along.

*RING RING* It was Ghazi.

"Heyyy!" I picked the phone.

"Heyy, Fajoura is coming, and she's asking wain benrou7?" He said.

"9ij? wanasa! benrou7 Maki Marina" I said.

"Ohh nice, minzimaan 3anna 3ad, meta ilmaw3id enshallah?" He asked.

"Danou betmurni at 7 inshallah." I said.

"Cool 3yal ana w fajoura will meet you there!" He said.

"Enshallah, Ghazi i have to close the phone because i'm driving w ma bega wa7ed ma 3raiiit 3laiih!" I laughed.

"Wee ya m3awda khala9 bye, w deerbaalich!" He said.

"Enshallah, bye!" I said.

"Bye!" He said and closed the phone.

The continued listening to the song by Rashed;
"e7tart fi denya re'9atli hawanii w ana law '9agat 3alay ma abayen
Ma ar'9a 3ala ghairi e3anii w elyoum 7alli 3addah el ghaiir hayyen"


Akhaiiih Rashed, i wondered.

1st of September
My home sweet home
4:30PM

I got into my house and took a look around, i miss it here!:(
I headed upstairs to my room.

I got into my room and got out a Bag to fill it with some clothes.
I put mostly Casuals in the bag and i got 3 dresses but i didnt put them in the bag because they might get ruined so i put them in the hanger and left the house.

I hanged the dresses in the backsteats of the car and put my bag in and got in my car and drove to my second home.

I arrived home and called Marlyn to help me with the bag cos my arm started hurting me.
I got in and i went upstairs and Mishary was still up in the living room and he was holding his phone, i think he was texting someone, or maybe....her.

I went to my room and started unpacking the bag and put the clothes in the closet.

I unpaused the music on my laptop and i remembered!!! YOUSEF!

I got yousef's american number and pressed call.
I locked
my bedroom and raised the Volume of the music a bit.

It rang 4 times before he picked it up.

"Aloo?" I heard his voice.
I felt weak!
My legs could barely hold me, i sat on the bed.

"Aloo." I whispered.

"Dayoumaa!!" He said.

"Halla yousef, Shlounik?" I said.

"Tmam, entai shlounich?" He said.

"I'm okay, il7emdellah." I said,

"il7emdellah, how is everything with you after the accident?" He said.

"Alright i guess im living with my uncle now and my parents elyoum ra7aw america." I said.

"Ohh, allah e3eenich sweetie," He said.

"w e3een iljamee3" I said.

and then it was an awkward silence.

"7yatii..?" He said.
My heart ached.

"Yes..?" I said.
tears filled my eyes, but i didn't want to cry.

"Where are we now?" He said.

"I dont know." I said.

"We need to sort it out, i really miss you soo much, and i dont know what to do, all i know i still want to be with you!" He said.

"I.." I got tongue tied.

"You what? dayouma kamlaay.." He said.

"I dont know what to say." I said.

"Say anything!" He said.

"I miss you too and i love you!" I said. "But.." I continued.

"No buts" He said. "I hate buts!" He said.

"No, you have to know this, i need to be honest with you, i dont feel the same way about you the way i did before you left Kuwait!" I said.

He didn't reply, there was another awkward silence.
I hate awkward silence.

"Yousef..?" I said.

"3youna!" He said.

"uhh...How is University?" I wanted anything to talk about,

"Ohh, it's good, thanks for asking." He said.

"I'm glad, emwafaq inshallah." I said,

"Thanks, bs please be with me!" He said.

"Be with you?" I asked.

"Yes, 7ta law we're not lovers, i just need Dayouma in my life, wallah, even if only friends!" He said.

"Okay Yousef, i'll be here, with you, as friends." I said.

"Thank you." He said, very softly.

"You're welcome." I said.

"Take care 7yatii." He said.

"You too." I said.

"I'll talk to you later." He said.

"Goodbye." I said and closed the phone.

I cried listening to Michelle Branch's song "Goodbye to you"


"Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours
and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star"



I wiped my tears away and got in the shower before changing for Maki.
I got out and wore my Orange dress that i bought from an Exibition that was held in some women's house.
and i wore a gold necklace that had the letter "D" on it.
It was a gift from my friend from lebanon.
I absolutely love it. It's a round gold with the letter "D" Carved in it,

I applied Mascara and ruby lipstick and a little blush and i was ready to go.
I let my hair down with my natural wavy hair.

I wore my Orange Jimmy Choo Brasil espadrille wedges and left my room.

I waited for D in the upstairs livingroom watching Al-Watan tv.
I heard Mishary's voice in his room, talking on the phone, i couldn't hear what he was talking about or if it was a guy or a girl.

I was watching Tv when i heard his door open.

"Ohh, entai Hnii!" He said.
He looked stressed.

"Yeah." I said.

"Laish lai7een ma ret7aay?" He asked.

"I'm waiting for Danou" I said.

"You look good." He said.

"Thank you." I said.

"Kashkha 7g mnu haa?" He said.

"No one." I said.

"3laiina?" He said. "Mnu sa3eed il7ath!?" He continued.

"NO ONE!" I said.

"Okay okay." He said.


*RING RING*
My phone, it was D.

"Yalla hoe, i'm outside!" She said as soon as i picked up.

"Oh halla ghazii." I said. and looked at Mishary.

"Ay ghazi yal hablaa!?" She said.

"El7emdellah bkhair, ent shlounik?" I said.

"Haa!? 9a7yaah Dayoum?" She asked.

"Eee kani na6ra danou tmurnii ent 6ala3T?" I said.

"DUDE!!!? SH9AYER? et7acheen mnu entaai?" D said.

"Okay good, i'll see you there." I said.

"yalla ana bara yal maynouna!" She said.

I closed the phone.
Mishary was standing there wearing a Beige pants and a white polo qmee9 and a Lacoste cap worn backwards.
He looked hot with his shaggy hair under the cap.
He didn't say anthing, just looked at me then he went back to his room.
He looked pissed.

Jealous much?
i guess so.

I got in the elevator and went to the ground floor.
I got out to D and we drove off to Maki Marina.
I explained to D why i talked to her as Ghazi.

"OMG, that is sooo sneaaky!" She said.

"I know!! he was soo jealous!" I said.

"Haha, you're soo evil!" She said.

"He had it coming! shku he made me think he liked me w b3dain asma3a yetkalam to a girl on the phone!" I complained.

"Hmm, madrii, maybe it's a misunderstanding, yemkin it was nafs your situation with Yousef? on the edge of breakup? or maybe it's only his cousin?" She said.

"I dont know, but he didn't seem normal today, all day, he was nervous and stressed the whole time!" I said.

"Okaay, just be careful, dont get your heart broken." She said.

"Inshallah." I said.

The song "Can't hold us down" By Christina Aguilera.
This song is amazing.
It defines women power!

"Never can, never will, can't hold us down." Me and D sang along.



xoxo
- S™

20 comments:

identity said...

Happy anniversary!;D
mashallah one year!
i love your story so much!
oo the thing i love the most is ina you have long posts!
mishary zoo8a!
yousef keser 5a6ry bess what she said was the truth!

loved the post!
next post please:*;p

Pearl said...

Awalan happy Anniversary,
Thaniyan! I was having such a crummy Day, and your post Made me smile :D :$
Thankyou :$

Anonymous said...

allahuma zeed w barik! khathray min hal postat alla e3afeech;** 3adi i ask u to do me a favour? 3ade u make the next sence romantic w etkhaleen deema etrou7 7ag mishary w she asks him whts going on w he opens up his heart for her?
-L!

WaayWaay said...

I LOVE!
I LOOOOOOVE!

Aaah!;$
Even Though Mshary Is Acting Like An Ass, A7IBA!;O

Ghazi Is A Typical Cousin & Yousef, Mmm .. Reminds Me Of Someone I Dont Really Like;/

BS KEEEEEEEP ON WRITING!;D
Happy Anniversary!;*~

Cupid ;* said...

happy anniversary;**
I'm loving meshary and the fact that he's getting jealous:p oo HER living in her uncles house:D

Anonymous said...

Happy anniversary!;D
i love your story;*..
mita your going to post?
caant waait;*... THANKS..;*

Anonymous said...

HAPPY ANNIVERSAY:> Mishary yishwaig:** What I love mostly about your posts is that they are LONG wallah 7adhum 3ajeebeen;p Bella-S your such an amazing writer wallah, you're talented mashallah. I told all my friends that are interested in reading blogs about your blog min kithir ma uhwa 3ajeeb;)

Live And Love '89 said...

AMAZING POST NEXT ONE PLEASE !!!

www.liveandlove89.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

'Waay .. Ay-Ay' <- the name u go by says it all!;p This post was.. WOW!!;p It feels awkward and wretched now that Yousef & Deema are JUST friends:S
Mishary is hot! & yeah, I too love the fact that he's getting jelous!;p

Congrats on your blog's first anniversary!;D & we all love u too for being the best blogger!!;***

Anonymous said...

I LOVE YOUR STORY.. NEXT POST PLEASE:*.. ou happy anniversary;*..

ScaryToes said...

im loving mishary!
u need to post more often because this is getting too addicting and i cant wait till the next post!

Teenager At Sea said...

Lol It's Funny When She Talked To Dana Ka2anha Ga3da Tkalim Ghazi;P


I'm Really Wanting To Know Shsalfat Mishary W Whoever The Other Girl Is.... Eee Happy One Year Anniversary =]

Love At First Sight said...

This story is VERY interesting so far ;).... Loving the sparks between M&D :D... Yousef is a very nice person but I think he needs to let go and move on ....

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSERY!!!! :D ;)

CAN NOT WAIT for the next post!

xxxxx

Alvaro said...

Ahahaha i love how she was sneaky and acted as if she was talking to Ghazi!

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