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Thursday, May 21, 2009

Part ThirtySeven;; "I don't wanna live this life, I dont wanna say goodbye."

Saturday 25th of August

I checked the text message. it was from Yousef.
"Please tell me you're on your way to the airport to see me before i leave?"

I got over myself and replied, "Yes i'm on my way, be there in 5 minutes."

I quickly walked myself out of the airport so i can play the role well, as if really i just came in.

He replied, "YES YESS, thaank you! i really need you right now!"

I got my phone out and texted him, "Im at starbucks, where are you?"

*BEEP* new text message, "I'm coming now." was the message from him.

I got myself seated in the upstairs starbucks and waited for him.
My heart started beating so fast.

I was looking for my car keys in my huge handbag, cos i wasnt sure i put inside when i suddenly heard his voice.

"Dayouma?" He said.

I jumped and quickly turned towards him.

"Ohh Hii yousef, you scared me!" I said.

"Sorry, besmellah 3laich." he said and got himself seated.

We stared at eachother in silence for a long time.

"How are you?" he asked, breaking the silence.

"Uhh, im fine, you?" I asked.

"Im fine too." he said. "I'm sorry about the other day, i was shocked and i didnt know what to say."

"It's okay, i guess." I said.

"No, it's not, i know i hurt you of how cold i was about the whole situation, but really i was just shocked, and.. i dont know." He said.

"It's okay, let's just get this over with, i dont want you to leave kuwait and we're having fallout, i can't do this to you." I said.

"You're amazing." He said.

I blushed and giggled. "Thank you, you're not bad yourself" I said.

He smiled, and i felt really good.

"i wish i can pause the time right now and just sit here and talk to eachother and be together." He said.

"Yeah, that would be pretty awesome, but you know, we'll have plenty of time to spend together, just go and make me proud." I said, trying to make him feel better about leaving.

"Thank dayouma, wallah i don't know what i'd do without you, i mean it." He said.

"I don't know what i'd do without you either." I said.

Saturday 25th of August

He took a quick look at his watch.

"Oh i better go to the terminal now.." He said as he was standing up.

"ohh, well i'll walk you there." I said and stood up.

"Okay." He said and waited for me to pass him.

we were talking step by step to the terminal.

"For how long will you stay there?" I asked.

"Four years." He said.

"What? no i mean, will you have breaks? like would you come back to kuwait in the summer holiday or something?" I asked.

"Ohh, well yeah i will try to, cos noway i'd stay there for full 4 years, i cant, i won't survive there." He said.

"Oh,,thats good, cos i dont think i could live without seeing your face for 4 years." I said.

"ba3ad 3umri, dont worry, i'll be back inshallah. what makes you think i can survive 4 years without seeing your beautiful face?" He said.

I giggled and blushed and turned my face away.

We reached the terminal.

He faced me.

"Well, i guess this is goodbye." He said.

"I guess so." I said, trying to be strong and not break down in tears.

"derbalich 3la nafsich okay? please, 3shanii, and dont forget me." He said.

"inshallah,you too, take care, and i could never forget you, we'll speak very soon inshallah." I said.

"definitely, inshallah, w ana awal ma arou7 menak, etha shraitli kha6, i'll send you a message with my number there so we can stay connected." He said.

"Inshallah, goodbye yousef." I said.

"Goodbye dayouma, i love you." He said.

" too" I said, my heart was aching so bad.

"Here." He said and handed me a small bag.

"What's that?" I said.

"It's sometihng to remember me, something that will make you feel that im with you the whole time inshallah." He said.

"Awwh, thanks!" I said. "Waiiit.." i continued, and opened my bag to look for my perfume.

I got out my burberry the beat perfume and gave it to him.

"this will remind you of me, i always wear it." I said.

"Thanks!" He said with the biggest smile on his face.

"You're welcome!." i smiled back.

"Allah la ya7remni minich goulay ameen!?" He said.

"Ameen!" I said and a tear fell down my cheeks.

"Dayoum!!! shgelna!! la tabcheen! la t3awreen galbii" He said.

"Okay, im sorryy! mu beedi wallah!" I said and wipped the tear away.

"3afyah, be strong, 3shan ana a9eer strong too!" He said.

"Okay." I said and smiled.

"Yalla sweetie, goodbye!" He said.

"goodbye, text me as soon as you can! 3shan a3aref enik we9alt bilsalama inshallah." I said.

"Inshallah, bye!" He said and walked away from me. On his way to the terminal that seperates two lovers.

I kept my eyes on him until he was out of my sight.

I felt weak after he's gone.

I slowly walked to my car, feeling hopeless and so weak.

I got into my car.

and then it hit me.


I starting crying in my car. in the parking of the airport.

I jumped to a girl knocking on my window.

I opened my window and wipped my tears.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

"I'm fine.." I said, feeling totally weird.

"Are you sure? you look very tired." She said.

"Yes im sure, im fine, thank you." I said.

"Okay, deerbalich on the road, bye." She said and walked away.

i was thinking ya7laiilha she asked me and stuff.
I actually felt a little better.

I took a deep breathe and started the car engine.
I drove home and on the way i was listening to the song "Almsaafer" By Rashed alMajed, over and over again till i got home. in one peice. and got myself out of the car, and into the house.

I got into my room and locked the door.

I wanted to be alone for a while.

Saturday 25th of August
My bedroom

I woke up to my phone ringing. it was D.

"helloo..?" I picked up the phone.

"Heyyy darling, how are you?" she asked.

"Im not okay." I said.

"Awwh, sweetie, what happened?" she asked.

"I went to the airport to see him." I said.

"YOU DID WHAT?! OMG WAIT WAIT, i'll dress up and come over, i have to face you when you tell me this, BYE!!" She said and closed the phone.

I went back to sleep.

20 minutes later,
A crazy hyper on sugar lady enters my room and starts yelling, a.k.a Dana.


"Okaaaaaaaaaaaay!" I yelled.

"Yalla yalla yalla yalla!!" she said.

"Ya al7anaaaaaaaaa!!!" I said

"Yalla goumay" she said and turned on the lights.

"okay." I said and used my hands to cover my eyes from the lights.

She pulled the blankets off of me.

"D!!!! WAAAAAAAY!!" I yelled.

"khala9 goumay, you mesta3sera, yalla goumaay 3an ildala3!" she said.

"inzain inzaiin." I said.

I woke up and told her what went between me and yousef before he left.

"9adgeeni, i think you two will still be strong even when you're apart." she said.

"I hope so, i really hope so." I said.

"Do you want ot go somewhere now?" she asked.

"No i dont feel like it, maybe tomorrow." I said.

"Okay, where do you want to go?" She asked.

"I dont care, where ever." I said.

I was walking D to her car when i remembered.

"THE BAG!!" I yelled.

"What bag?" D asked.

"Yousef gave me a bag before he left, waiit i'll get my car keys." I said and ran upstairs.

Saturday 26th of August
Outside my house

"What do you think it is?" D asked as i was opening my car.

"I don't know, but the bag smells nice!" I said.

I opened the car and got the bag, i opened it and i found an oversized T-shirt that i assumed was his, and an abercrombie & fitch "Fierce" Cologne. The smell is sooooooooooo amazing.

"Awwh, the tshirt is sooo cute!" D said.

It was a black oversized Tshirt that has joker's face in the middle and it says "Why so scared?"

"I totally love it!" i said.

I said goodbye to D and went back in the house.

I changed into black leggings and wore Yousef's oversized tshirt.
I sprayed the cologne all over my tshirt and my pillow and layed on the bed.

The smell was so amazing, i seriously felt Yousef was next to me.

I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Saturday 26th of August
My bedroom

I woke up feeling so sick.
I felt like i can hardly breathe.
It doesnt feel the same without Yousef around.

It has been only less than 24 hours since he's gone and it's too hard already.

I checked my phone for any messages from him.
No messages.

I still havent received any message from him.
He should've arrived in USA by now.

Im starting to worry..


- S™


CuteandCuddly said...

amazing thanks for posting.
I am so happy they made up.

cant wait for the next one :)

Teenager At Sea said...

I really enjoyed reading it! Keep It Up =]

Starlight<3 said...


'Why so serious?' AHHH,My tag-line. I loved that movie, what a shame though, such a talented star passed away at the height of his fame :(


ghalya said...

plz plz la t6awleen bil posting cuz wallah i dont want to lose interest in ur story im not saying i am im just saying i dont want to PLZ post every day :D if im asking for too much then post every 2 days who agrees with me???? itha fee more than 5 ppl thatagree then try ur best to post ever 2 days

ghalya said...

that agree* :P

Bella-S said...

Cuteandcuddly: Thanks, :D

Teenager at sea: Thanks, i will;)!

Starlight<3: HEhe, yeah such a shame!:(

Ghalya: Deal, get me 5 people who agrees with you and i'll try posting every 2 or 3 days max! ;P

ghalya said...

yalla 3ad people plz agree with me ! so we can find out what happens next pweeez * puppy eyes*

Kindle My Heart said...

CUTE! Update soon :)
P.S check out my blog

cherriiMuffin said...

nice am loving your story <3 !! =D

please visit my blog <3

Anonymous said...

I agree with ghalya :p

Bella-S said...

Kindle my heart: thank you! ;P okay i will;p!

CherriMuffin: thanks, will do!;P

Anonymous: stil you're only two! ;p

L said...

Love it. :*

Anonymous said...

why do u hate to post?:S

Bella-S said...

L: Im glad you do;*!

Anonymous: i dont hate it, not at all, if any, im actually loving it, but im too usy with college specially that we're at the end of the semester,and final assessments and exams.

Q8Food said...

I really enjoyed reading it please infrom me if you are publishing any book


Anonymous said...

When's the next post???

Miemie said...

i stayed up from 12am til now (3:47am) reading the entire story!!! AND u still didnt publish a book!??!?! Mashallah ur story is amazing and got mie into tears :(
One wish: please please please its been almost a month now since ur last post, 3asa el mani3 5eir & mumkn ma6awlin ?!
Publish the book & 5alay el PR 3alay ;)

Bella-S said...

Q8food: Awwh, ofcourse i will, and thanks;*!

Anonymous: I just posted it!;)

MieMie: hehe, awwh, thanks, im glad you enjoyed it! lol, i will if i ever do publish a book;*!

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