Part FortyOne;; "Today is not like any other day."

Respond to all comments for the previous post:

First of all, i don't know how you guys got the idea that i'm gonna stop writing..? :P
I didn't mean that i will stop writing if you guys dont comment.
I just wanted some feedback on each new part of the story so i know that you guys are still interested in my story.

But no worries, my story is not going to end, infact the end is not even close, We're almost half way through, you're in for a looooooong eventful ride! ;)

Here is the new part, sorry for the delay.
I love you guys, and thanks for the great comments you left for the earlier post, You guys inspire me to write more;**!

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Monday 28th of August
Bedroom
1AM

"Yes, Ga3daa, why?:P" I replied to Ghazi's Message.

I was really tired but couldn't sleep.
Don't you just hate it? that feeling when you're sooo tired, and your body is aching from tiredness, but you still cant sleep? ugh.

*BEEP* new text message, from Ghazi.

"Enzaiin, can i call?"

uhh, This is getting rediculous.
I hate that i can't say no to poeple.

"Yes you can.." I replied.

Few minutes later.
I jumped to my phone ringing. "Yes2elouni laiih a7ebaak 7ub ma 7abbaah bashaaar.."
Ghazi was calling.
I picked my phone.

"Aloo.." I said.

"Aloo, Halla wallaah.." He said.

"Halla feek." I said.

"Shga3ed etsaween yalla e3tarfay ebser3a?" he said.

"Nothing, Just laying on the bed, mu gadra anam." I said.

"Waay, nafs 7altii, akhaf mn ilpopcorn elly klaiina?" He joked.

"Hehe, yemkin." I said.

An awakrd silence...

"Deemoo!" he said.

"Hallaa..!" I said.

"Nemtay?" he asked.

"No, shda3waa." I said.

"Madri faj2a sekatay." He said.

"noo, fii a7ad yegdar enam w you breathe like that, tetnafaas eb 9out 3allii allah ehadaak!" I said.

"Oshh yalla 3ad, l2ana lazeg ilphone 9oub 7alji thats whyy." He said.

"Ee ragi3" I said.

"chub deemo!" He said.

"Echobek..!" I said.

"Yal Malsouna, la tradedeeen!" He said.

"Haw shtaabii kaiifii!!" I said.

"enzain enzain." He said, and laughed.

"Shfeek?" I said.

"La walla shay" He said, and laughed again.

"Haa, GHAZII SHFEEK!?" I said.

"Laa bs tethaakraat shaklich gbl bilshalaiih, lma etsaween 3angou9tain" He laughed.

"Ya 7maar, chub, knt ashaaweg!!" I said.

"Mn gaa9 3laiiich!!?" He said and laughed even more.

"GHAZI, oshhh!!" I said.

"Aakhh, ya7lailich ya dayoum!" He said.

"Eskit ma a7acheek!" I said.

"Za3altay ya3ni?" He said.

"EE!" I said.

"Dalou3a!" He said.

"Chub!" I said.

"3aib, ya bnaya, sh'hal alfaath!?" He said.

"GHAZIIIIIIII!!" I yelled.

"HAHAHA, a7eb anarfezich, wallah etwaanseen!" He said.

"Mlee8!" I said.

"6ali3 3laich!" He said.

"Ghazi, osh!" I said.

"Shfeech, wayed 3ajbich esmii? kelshway ghazii!" He said.

"3yal shtabeeni agoul!?" I said.

"Dal3eenii shway, 3a6eeni nickname!" He said.

"Hmm, shtabeeni anadeek?" I asked.

"Ghazouy, Geezo, shay chithi..!" He said.

"Wai3, Ghazouy chena esem bnt." I said.

"Hey,3ad 3an ilghalaa6!" He said.

"Enzaiin, Ghooozii?!" I said.

"GHOOZII WAYHICH!" He said.

I laughed.

"Teth7ekeen haa? Mashii, a3almich!" He said.

"Ee shasaweelik, esem 9a3ab!" I said.

"Mashii, nadeeni Ghazi wayed abraak ya m3awda!" He said.

"Enzain." I said.

We talked for about an hour before we fell asleep on the phone, 6ab3aan most of the time we were fighting and argueing and remembering the embarrassing past, bs it was a fun conversation, shockingly.


Monday 28th of August
Bedroom
12:30PM

"Yallah dayoumaa goumaay!" Mom said as she entered my room.

"Enzaiiiiiiiiiiiin" I yawned.

"Yalla 7beebtii goumay, basich noum!" She said.

"Enshallah mama, wallah bagoum!" I said.

"Okay 7yatii, ana w obooch benrou7 netghada bara, Tbeen teyeen?" She asked.

"Wain betrou7oun?" I asked.

"Lenotre" She said.

"Yalla okaayy bayee!" I said.

"Okay goumay badlay yalla, ana w oboch nan6erich ta7aat." She said and went downstairs.

I was looking for my phone.
HUH?
waiiina!?

I looked around the room, and i found it under the bed.
shwadaah down there!?
hahaha, that, i'll never know.

Waiit, i dont remember eni sakart ilphone.
I slept on the phone, opps.

Monday 28th of August
Bedroom
1:20PM

I was getting ready.
I got out a simple gray knee high dress and wore a red flat and red clutch and left my hair naturally curly and went downstairs.

"Akheeran, enzalaat il3arous" Dad said as soon as he saw me walking down the stairs.

"Yubaaa!" I said and blushed.

"Ee w ana il9aaj, 6awaaltay." He said.

"No ma 6awalt, a9lan omi lma enzalaat kanat tawha emga3datni mn ilnoum." I said.

"enzain banoutii yalla emshay, ana wa7ed you3an!" He said.

"Enshallaah." I said and left the house.


Monday 28th of August
Lenotre
3PM

The lunch was amazing, Il6al3a kanat wayed 7elwa, min zemaan ma 6ala3na hal 6al3a.

"ee ta3alay dayouma, Khaltich '9eya dagat 3lay elyoum il'9a7a etgouli 3azmatna next weekend eb shalaiihum, tbeen trou7een?" She said.

"9ij? ambaiih shakhbarii, ee 7da abiii arou7." I said.

"Ee w Galat yeebaw mayouhatkum w malabeskum cos benam ilweekend kela m3ahum." She said.

"Allah wanasa!" I said.

"Ee ya7lailha mn zeman 3anha, Weldha Ghazii Shkubra al7een?" She asked.

"He's 24 chena." I said.

"ee ya7lailah, w ekhta Fajoura shkuberha?" She asked.

"Umm, Chena 20" I said.

"Ee minzeman 3anhum, khubri feehum akher mara bilshalaiih eb 3eed ilwa6anii." She said.

"Yeah, Bs ana tawni 6al3a weya ghazii" I said.

"ee 9aa7, w fajoura makanat weyakum?" She asked.

"La il9ara7a ma yat, m3ana kna metafqeen ena teyee, bs egoul Ghazi Ma3zouma 3la 7afla." I said.

"Wakhezyaa, kentaw brou7kum 6al3een." Mom joked.

I let out a nervous laugh.

Dad was soo hungry maskeen, he was only listening to swalefna w eating.

"Bil3afya baba" I said.

"allah e3afeech babatii." He said.

I smiled.
I have the greatest partents a girl could ask for.


*BEEP* New text message.

It was from ghazi.

"Sorry, nemt 3al telephone ams, haha, 9baaa7 ilkhaiiir;p"

I laughed.

"Tha7keena m3aach?" Mom said.

Ops.

"Msg nektaa." I said.

"Ee gouleeha, khal neth7aak.." Mom said and smiled.

"hehe okay," 6ala3t another msg qdeem, a joke,"Egoulich fi M6aw3a ga3deen yel3eboun kora, 3aad wa7id minhum shat ilkora w 6agat il3artha bs e7sebouha goal laish?" I said.

"Laiiish?" Dad said.

"L2ana galaw ennama ila3maal bilneyaat" I said and laughed.

Mom laughed. "Allah egharbil bleesich."

"Ma et'9a7ik!" Dad said.

"Emballah et'thaa7ik" I said.

"Laa ma et'tha7ek, mlee8a" Dad said.

"Khala9 okay, ana 3indii et'tha7ik." I said

"La ma et'tha7ik, welly yeth7aak 3laiha malee8 nafs'ha!" He said.

"HA? Yuba khalaa9" I said.

He laughed.

"Youz 3anha 3abdallaa" Mom said and laughed.

"Wallah, ma sewat 3alay gelt ilnekta.." I said.

"Khalaa9 mama, netghashmaar, la et3a9been." Dad said.

"Enzain." I said.

I took a sip from my diet coke.

I thought that i can just pretend that i did not sleep.
that way, Ghazi looks bad, and i dont.
hehehe, evil.

"Its okay, 9baa7 ilnour;p" I replied to his message.

Monday 28th of August
Car
4:30PM

Dad was driving and they were listening to old classic kuwaiti songs.

I was bored out of my mind.
I closed my eyes for a second and...


BAAAAAAAAAAAM!








I woke up to find myself laying on the bed in the hospital..


xoxo
- S™

A little encouragement guys!

Hey guys,
Well you see you asked me to post more, and i did, but i don't see any feedback on the posts, so i'm not sure, are you guys reading the posts? or am i posting too much?

I need some comments on each post to encourage me to write the next post.
The last post of the story has been posted two days ago, and what, only 3 comments? that's not helping.. :/

I mean i have 70 followers, and only 3 comments?
that's not enough for me to post the next part, i need more to keep me going.

So please, i'm not asking for too much, just let me know you're reading the posts so i know i can post the next part of the story.

Please.. (:

And thanks.


xoxo
- S™

Part Forty;; "Some people hide their every desire!"

Sunday 27th of August
Laila Cinema
8:15PM


We were watching the movie, and seriously to be honest i was soo nervous for some reason that i was totally not paying attention to the movie.

"Hahaha.." Ghazi laughed and turned at me.

I faked a laugh.

"Shfeech!??" Ghazi Asked.

"Ma feeni shay" I said turning to him.

"Akeed? Shaklich mu merta7aa..?" He said.

"La, yetrawalik, i'm fine" I said and smiled.

YEAH RIGHT!!!

"Zain ashwa,cos you do know i didnt set this up, wallah 9ij fajour ray7a party!" He said.

"Ghazi, its okay, shouf il film, we'll talk later" I said.


Sunday 27th of August
Laila Cinema
9:40PM

We just left Laila Cinema when i saw a guy that was soo familiar, and he was staring too much, when we got closer to him, it was KHALED! YESSS KHALED!
I choked.

"Do you know that guy??" Ghazi asked, he noticed the staring.

"uhh.. No." I said. My heart was beating so fast.

"Shfeeh chithi ekhiz, awal mara eshouf bnt." He said.

"Shdarani 3ana." I said, nervously.

Ghazi walked me to my car.

"Thanks a lot dayoum, it was really fun,w ilfilm 7da 3jeeb!!" he said.

"You're welcome, i had fun too, and i'm glad you enjoyed the movie." I said.

"Really? great, we should do this more often then, but next time...with Fajer!" He said.

"Inshallah." I said and smiled.

"Yalla take care, or tabeeni amasheech?" He said.

"No it's okay, thanks!" I said.

"La jad 3adi traa!" He insisted.

"No, ghazi shda3wa, i can manage to get home safely!" I said.

"Akeed? Okay 3yaaal text me awal ma tou9leen ilbait!" He said.

Uhhh, shyabiii?? :/

"Sure." I said.

I got in my car, and looked at my rearview mirror, I got scared from a guy wearing a yellow tshirt staring, it was Khaled.

I started the car engine and left the parking lot.


Sunday 27th of August
Car
10:25PM

I was soo into the music and singing along that i did not notice a guy following me.
Just before entering Odailiya i saw Khaled in a car behind me.

OMG!! SHYABII! I thought.

I was a little scared, so i called Ghazi. I don't know why!!!!!!!

"Aloo." He said.

"Ghazi, where are you?" I asked.

"Shway w adish ilsurra laish sh9aayer?" He asked.

"The guy that was staring bilcinema la7egnii, w ana tawni badish il 3dailiya" I asked.

"SHNUU!?" He yelled.

Opss, i probably shouldn't have called him.

"Wainich now bilthaaan6!?" He asked, he's so angry, i was getting really scared.

"Uhh, Dshait il3dailiya, tawni em3adya nadi kathma" I said.

"Khala9 entay furray bil3dailiya 3la ma ana ayeech, la trou7een baitkum!" He said.

"Ghazii, shbetsawee?" I asked.

"Malich shiqil, khal o9al w awaree shiqil allah!" He said.

"Ghazi, plz dont do something crazzyyy!" I said.

"E9eer khair, yalla kani yay, bye!" He said and closed the phone.

I closed the phone and i was shivering, literally.


I went twice around the roundabout then i went right, to the Co-op parking lot.

I drove aroud the parking lot, as if i was looking for a parking.
He was still following me.

About 5 minutes later, Ghazi called.

"Aloo." I said.

"Haa wainich?" He asked.

"Co-Op parking, 9oub subway." I said.

"Okay, kani yay." He said.

"Okay." I said.

"Khaleech 3al kha6." He said.

"Okaay.." I said.

I saw a black Silverado entering the parking.

"Ohh, there you are,i'm just around the corner." I said.

"Ee kach, enzain wainaa ohwa?" He said.

"Kahuu, sayartaa the white Prado elly 9af6a gbaal subway" I said.

"Okay, khaleech la eta7arekaiin ana al7een awareeh !!" He said and parked next to Khaled.

"La7tha la7tha Ghazii!! plzz dont do anything!" I said.

"Then why did you call me?" He said.

"I dont know, i was scared!" I said.

"Okay, bs may9eer askit 3la hal ashkal!" He said. his anger was slowly rising.

"Plzz plzz Ghazii 3shani dont do anything stupid!" I said.

"Okay,3shanich wallah, bs banzil a7acheeh." He said.

"Okay, bs dont close your phone, i wanna listen." I said.

"Okay." he said and opened his right window and beeped the horn so 'khaled' will look at him.

Khaled slowly opened his window.

"ilsalam w 3alaaykum" Ghazi said.

"Wa3alaykum ilsalaam, khaiir enshallah?" Khaled said.
I think he noticed that Ghazi was with me bilcinema.

"ilKhair eb wayhek, bs okhoy laish la7eg bnt khaltii?" Ghazi said. just like that, ga6ha eb wayha.

"Na3am? ay bnt Khala?" He said,

"illy bil range,ya baba shefnaak mn laila w ent etkhez bil bnt!" He said.

"La ghal6an, ana yay a6lib mn subway." He said. eragi3 ilsalfa.

"Akeed? khara3t ilbnt, maskeena!" He said.

"Ee akeed." He said.

"Okay, sorry 3al ez3aaj." He said.

"Aloo dayoum yalla 7arkay khal amasheech lai your house." He said.

"Ok." I said. totally shocked.

I drove home and Ghazi was driving behind me.
I parked my car in the garage.

Ghazi was calling me.

"Aloo..?" I said.

"Aloo, hala dayoum, ha are you okay now?" He said.

"Yes i am, thank you!" I said.

"Shda3wa, no problem, i had to do that!" He said.

"Thanks." I said.

"7ayach allah, yalla babatii goodnight, w take care." he said.

"Babatii?" I said.

"Ohh, ta3awadt agoulhaa, la tet6anezaiin!" He said and laughed.

"hehe, Okay, goodnight!" I said and closed the phone.


I got into my room and quickly called D and spilled the beans!

"OHH MY GOD! that is soo cool of him!" She said about how Ghazi came all the way to 3dailiya.

"Yeah i know, bs D, He should know nothing can happen between us!" I said.

"Yeah, that's true he should!" she agreed.

"But how can i tell him?" I said.

"I seriously dont know. you'll figure it out!" She said.

"I don't want to hurt him D, he's a nice guy!" I said.

"Well dont say anything until you make sure he actually likes you 3shan ma tendagrain, maybe he's just too friendly!?" She said.

"Yeah i guess, i'll waiit w e9eer khair." I said.

"Good idea, yalla ciao, ana baakhmid daykha!" She said.

"Okay, goodnight sweetie!" I said and closed the phone.


Monday 28th of August
Bedroom
12:15AM

I was laying on the bed listening to music on shuffle and i was thinking about what happened tonight.

It's obvious that Ghazi likes me, even if he doesn't like me a lot, but there are some feelings towards me, definitely, and i dont know how can i deal with it?
He did mention that we should do this hangout thing again.
I'm not sure i can. :/

I jumped to my phone vibrating under my pillow.

It was a text message from Ghazi.

"Ga3daaa? :P"

Uhh, this is exactly why i didnt want to give him my phone number.

ugh;/


xoxo
- S™

Part ThirtyNine;; "I hate the distance in between us.."

Sunday 27th of August
Bedroom
11AM

I woke up to a phonecall from a number that has a "+" in the beginning and about 10 numbers after that.
I quickly picked the phone up.

"Helloo..?" I said.

No answer.

"Uhh...HELLO!?" I said.

"Dayouma..?" He said at the other end of the phone.

"YOUSEF!!!" I yelled "WHERE ARE YOU?! ARE YOU OK!?? IM WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU!" I said.

"I'm okay, dont worry.." He said.

"Are you sure? you don't sound okay, why are you breathing heavily? like you were running?" I asked.

"Oh,that's because i got mugged!" He said.

"WHAT!!? OH MY GOD!! ARE YOU OK!!?" I yelled.

"Shh, dayouma, i'm fine, dont worry." He said.

"Are you sure you're fine!? Are you hurt?!" I said.

"Yeah, i got slashed with a knife on my shoulder, but it's alright!" he said.

"OH MY GOD, YOUSEF!!" I said.

"it's okay, wallah, look at the bright side, i have a hot scar on my shoulder now!" He said.

"uhh..but other than that, you're not hurt!?" I asked.

"No, i'm fine, wallah, i'm sorry i took long, but i didnt have cash on me or anything,i had to withdraw money from the ATM machine later, but first i went to the police and it was a loong day." he said.

"Ohh, okay, and did they catch the mugger?!" I asked.

"Unfortunately, no, i was actually on my way to buy a new number when i got mugged, which is a good thing because i didn't have anything on me other than $200 cash." He said.

"Oh, thats good, i'm glad you're alright, you have no idea how worried i was." I said.

"ba3ad 3umrii, i'm sorry!" He said.

"It's okay, as long as you're fine, be careful sweetie!" I said.

"I missed you." He said.

"I missed you too!" I said.

"But i missed you more." He said.

"No!" I said.

"Yes, don't argue!" He said.

"NOO!, me more, and that's final!" I said.

"Keep lying to yourself, i miss you more, and that's about it!" He said.

I giggled, "No, but please, baby be careful out there!" I said

"Enshallah, you too, ana akalmich later, i have to get some papers done for the University bacher il9b7 w i better get some sleep, I love you, goodbye!" He said.

"Oh okay, keep in touch, i love you too, bye!" I said and closed the phone.


I called D.

"HE CALLEDD!! HE CALLED!" I yelled as soon as she picked up.

"Who?!" She said with a very sleepy voice.

"YOUSEF!!!" I yelled.

"Honey, don't yell, i can hear you!" She said, still sleepy.

"Okay!" I said.

"Is he alright?!" She asked.

"Yeah, he got mugged thats why he didn't call or text me earlier." I said.

"Oh wow, mugged! il7emdellah he's fine!" She said.

"Yeah!" I said.

"Allah e7aafthaa, tell him to be extra careful!" She said.

"I did, waaay, this is only the beginning w shoufay sh9aar feeh! D, i'm scared." I said.

"Awwh, don't be, these things happen, it's alright." She said.

"Uh...i guess." I said.

"Yeah, yalla bye, khaleeni anam." She said.

"Okay, ciao love!" I said and closed the phone.


Sunday 27th of August
Bedroom
4PM

I logged on my MSN.

A window box appeared.
"Ghazi.Al-M*****@hotmail.com" Wants to add you.
Accept?
Block?
Decide later?

Uhh, Ghazi my second cousin..? uhh why the hell not, i accepted the request.
but how did he get my email??


Ghazi: Ahlaiiiiiiiiiiin. :D

Me: Halla wallah.

Ghazi: Halla feech, Taw ma nawaar my msn list!

Me: Hehe, eb wejoudek.

Ghazi: Shlounich?

Me: Zaina, you shlounek?

Ghazi: Tmam bkhaiir, you look soo pretty eb your pic.

He's referring to my display picture.

Me: Thank you.

Ghazi: Mnuu illy m3aach bil9ora?

Me: My friend.

Ghazi: Nice, allah ekhaleekum 7g ba3ath.

Me: Teslam.

Ghazi: Allah esalmich, haa shloun khaltii?

Me: Tmaam il7emdellah, w shloun your mother?

Ghazi: Bkhair il7emdillah, Ha shloun ilfilm the other day? ;p

Me: HAHA, ambaiih Ghazii you have to watch it!! it's amazing!

Ghazi: 9ij? yalla khanrou7laa? ;p


uhh, is he serious?


Me: Bs ana re7tla already.. ;p

Ghazi: So? 3adi, mu etgouleen it's amazing, ya3ni 3adi etdesheena again. ;)

Me: Madriii.

Ghazi: yalla 3ad shda3wa, traa i'm not a stranger, i'm family, w mara7 nrou7 brou7na, ekhtii Fajour teyee weyana.

Me: Hmm, okay, sure, meta?

Ghazi: Wallah madri, entay nagay ay wagt ya3jebich.

Me: I don't mind really, 3adii.

Ghazi: Okay, khala9 ana achayek il showtimes now w agoulich;p!

Me: okay. (:

10 minutes later.

Ghazi: Okay, fii today at 8PM, is that okay?

Me: hmm, yeah i guess, ma 3indi shay elyoum, what about your sis fajour?

Ghazi: Waiih, 3ad fajour ma tgoul la2 7g cinema;p

Me: Okay, then i'll see you today inshallah, ana now baf9il, i'll talk to you later;p

Ghazi: Waiit, give me your number.

???

Me: what?

Ghazi: Shfeech? your number, 3shan i call you etha we9alna gablich.

Me: Ohh, okay, give me your number w i'll text you now.

Ghazi: Okay, ########

Me: Okay, ciaoo ;p


I called D.

"OH MY GOD, you're right!" I said aftering telling her the whole conversation.

"Haha,i told you, it was soo obvious!" She said.

"Ambaiiih!! Shasawee!!" I said.

"I dont know, just go out, be normal, he is your second cousin, 3adii." She said.

"I know, i'm going out, bs takhayelay, he asked for me number!" I said.

"Ohhh, shku?!" She said.

"Shdarani, 3shan he "calls" lmaa you9al there" I said.

"Ohh, 9aa7, okay." she said.

"Okay? but what if he takes that advantage and calls everytime and text me!" I said.

"I dont know, la ta36eenah wayh." She said.

"Yeah, i should do that, bs ya3ni his sister betkoun weyana, ya3ni laish he asked me for my number? laish ma 36aaani his sister's number? he's up to something!" I said.

"ee 9aa7 t3aalay, his sister weyakum, ohh he's definitely up to something!" she said.

"SHIT!" I said.

"Haha, it okay dear, la ta36eena wayh, he'll go away." She said.

"I hope so." I said.

"Whatever happened to that Khaled guy..!?" She said, all of the sudden.

"Eww, laish you had to bring him up!" I said.

"Shdarani faj2aa he popped in my head." She said.

"Eww, maybe Haya told him to stop what he's doing." I said.

"Yeah maybe, bs she said ena he 'really' likes you" she said.

"bil6agaaag, waii3 7abeta ilgaraaadaa, khal ewaalii!" I said.

"Haha, it's funny hearing you getting worked up on this" She said.

"Chub, i have to get ready now ciao!" I said.

"Okay ciao, save me the details for laterr!" She said.

"You betcha! laters!" I said and closed the phone.

I dressed up and got ready after texting Ghazi a message, as i told i would.

*BEEP*
new text message.

I thought it was from Ghazi, but actually it was from Yousef.

"It was good hearing your voice today, zouqa 9outich awal ma tgoumeen mn ilnoum;** allah e7afthich."

a tear fell down my cheeks after reading this message.

I replied with;
"It was good hearing your voice too, i cant even explain how much i miss you wallah, i miss your face;** we7aafthik enta, please please take care! i can't live if something happened to you, besmellah 3laiik."

Sunday 27th of August
In my car
On the way
6:50PM

Singing along to the song "I will be right here waiting for you" by Bryan Adams when i recieved a phonecall mn Ghazi.

"Aloo?" I said.

"Aloo, halla deema, wainich?" He asked.

"I'm on my way, where are you?" I said.

"We're there, waiting, yalla ebser3a, w take care bil6ereej" He said.

"Okay, inshallah, see you, bye!" I said and closed the phone.


At 7:30PM we9alt Laila cinema.

I saw Ghazi standing alone infront of the entery door.
I walked to him.

"Hii.." I said.

"Ahlaan, il7emdellah 3la ilsalama," He said.

"Allah esalmik, wain fajour?" I said, looking around.

"She didn't come." He said.

"WHAT! WHY!?" I said.

"Cos betrou7 party" He said.

"Chan geltlii, 3al aqal ajalna il6al3a.." I said.

"Shda3wa, tra mani maklich." He said.

"uhh.. la mu 3an, bs yemkin ehya tbii etshouf ilmovie too." I said.

"La 3adii, ana awadeeha later etha tbii." He said.

"Okay." I said.

"Yalla emshay" He said.

"You bought the tickets?" I asked.

"Ee i booked them mn ilinternet" He said.

"Ohh, inzain 3yal let me pay you." I said.

"Yalla 3aad 3an ilme9akhaa, emshay!" He said.

"uh.. okay!" I said and walked in after buying snacks.



ME AND GHAZI ALONE IN THE DARK?!!!
PROBLEM ALERT!!


xoxo
- S™

Part ThirtyEight;; "It feels like a hundered years now, still can't believe you're gone."

A BIG GIGANTIC SORRY guys!
i know this post was soo late, excuse me, i didnt finish college until this week. my apologies, but no more delays, as now i started my summer holiday! HOORAY! :D

Enjoy this part!
& thanks for waiting;*!
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Saturday 26th of August
My bedroom
11:40AM

I logged on my MSN to see if Yousef is online by any chance,
i thought maybe he didn't buy a number from there yet,
but there was no sign of him. i let out a sigh and picked up my phone and called D.

"Heyyyyy loverr!" D said as soon as she picked up.

"Heyy pumpkin!" I said.

"What's up?" She said.

"Nothing much, is it too soon to worry about Yousef?" I said.

"What do you mean..?" she asked.

"I mean, i didnt get a message or a call from him telling me he arrived safely.." I said.

"Awwh, sweetie, it's too soon, dont worry, im sure he's fine, he probably forgot! dont jump into conclusions!" she said.

"You're right, he probably forgot!" I said.

"Yeah, to get your mind off of that, let's go out today..?" She suggested.

"Suure, where?!" I asked.

"I dont know, you pick, do you want to eat? watch movie? shop?" she said.

"Yes!" I said.

"Yes to what?" She asked.

"To all of that, i want to do all of that today!" I said.

"Really??" She asked.

"Yess, really, shop, go watch a movie, and then eat dinner!" I said.

"Sounds like a plan, but how about watching a movie first, then shopping?" She suggested.

"Whichever, i dont care!" I said.

"Great, what movies are out?" She asked.

"I don't know, we'll go and see!" I said.

"Okay, see you in 2 hours?" She said.

"Yeah, let me just ask my mom and then i'll get ready and meet you there." I said.

"No! PICK ME UP, that's the best part of this whole hangout, to drive around together!" she said.

"Alright, i'll text you before i leave my house, laters!" I said and closed the phone.


Saturday 26th of August
My bedroom
12:30PM

I was getting ready to go out with D when i recieved a text message.

I jumped and quickly hurried up to the phone to see the message, i assumed it was from Yousef telling me how he's alright and all, but it was a message from Haya.
I read the message;
"Hey, do you know that Yousef safaar!?"

I ignored her message and went to get out a blouse to wear.
I didnt want to wear a dress, because i thought i should wear something practical, because im going to shop today, and i need to wear pants.

I wore a beige short with a white blouse that has ruffles in the colar area, and a sleevless mustard cardigan with a brown gladiator shoes.
I decided to wear my hair in a slik Ponytail.

I was almost done, so i texted D, "Im on my way, be ready!"

I applied a little blush, eyeliner and mascara, a light pink lipstick and i got my bag and left the house.


Saturday 26th of August
My car
Outside D's house
1:15PM

I was listening to A9eel's song "Bas a7ebik" while waiting for D.

she got out of her house wearing a short black jeans with a cute gray blouse that had 'Ramones' on it.

she got in and we exchanged kisses.

"Bas a7ebik hatha 7athyy illy enketaaab!" She sang suddenly out loud.

"Oh wow!" I said and drove off to the avenues.

We reached the avenues around 1:35PM, we hurried up to the cinema to catch any movie that's about to start.

there was "Tropic thunder" at 2PM which was perfect, we booked two tickets and went to buy us some snacks.

I was trying to decide what to buy when i heard some guy's voice next me.

"Deema?" the mysterious guy said.

I turned to him. "Ohh, ghazii, Hiii." I said.

Ghazi is my second cousin whom i barely see, i cant even remember when was the last time i saw him, hence why he was never brought up in the story.

"Shlounich?? shakhbarich!?" He said with a smile on his face.

"Il7emdellah bkhair, ent shlounik?!" i asked, i smiled back.

"el7emdellah tmam, Shloun khaltii?" he asked.

"tmam, bkhair, allah esalmik, shloun khaltii '9eyaa?" I asked.

"bkhair il7emdellah, ambaiih, menzimaan 3anich, khubri feech akher mara bil shalaiih, bil3eed ilwa6anii, 2 years ago." He said.

"Olaa, you remember, i dont." I said, and giggled.

"Well, somethings are hard to forget, yall ana lzem amshi, ashoufich 3la khaiir yal ga63aa, w salmay 3la khaltii wayed, faman ellaah" he said.

"allah esalmik, you too, m3a ilsalama" I said.

"Somethings are hard to forget? what is that suppose to mean?" I turned to D.

"I think someone has a crush on you!" she said.

"What? no! i dont think so." I said.

"YES, and WHO IS THAT HOTTIE ANYWAY?!" D jumped.

"Ghazi, my second cousin." I said.

"How come i dont know he exsisted?" she asked.

"shdaranii, i barely see him" I said.

"Well, he's cute!" she said.

"Yeah, i guess." I said.

"7da cute, how old is he?" she asked.

"He's 24, and stop obsessing over my second cousin." I said.

"okay, chill, yalla order, i finished ordering." She said.

"Okay." I looked at the counter of snacks "hmm, can i have one skittles, one kinder bueno and a diet coke?" I said.

"skittles, kinder and diet coke? seriously? GREAT MIX!" D said saracastically.

"Chub, i want to save some room for dinner later." I said.

"Olaa shda3wa, we will shop first!" She said.

"I know, bs i want to be REALLY hungry and starving for johhny!" I said.

"Bkaifich you decided on johhny?" she said.

"Yes, now shutup and dont argue!" I said.

I paid, and took my snacks, and walked to the theatre.

Saturday 26th of August
The avenues
4:45PM

"Haha, oh my god, the kid's scene was amazing, i peed my pants!" D said, discussing the movie while we were shopping.

I laughed, "7daa, ambaiih!!" I said.
We laughed hysterically in the movie, it was soo hilarious!

We got in Topshop.

"Eeee, i didnt tell you!! Haya texted me today!" I said.

"What? shtabyy?!" D asked.

"She was saying did you know yousef safaar!" I said.

"Is she serious!? ya3ni akeed tadreen, ambaiih maskeena hathy shfeeha!" D said

"shdarani 3anha, i ignored her message!" I said.

"Good!" she said.

"Allaah this dress is amazing!" I said, pointing to a navy dress.

"Ee its cute!" D said.

25 minutes later w let topshop.
I bought 2 dresses, one top, black skinny jeans, and a necklace. and D bought 2 bangals, and one cute flat and a scarf.


Saturday 26th of August
The avenues
8:30PM

We were walking to the car to drop our bags before going to johhny.

I bought lots of things and it was soo exciting!

We dropped the bags in the car and headed to Johhny.



"Ohh im starving!" I said as soon as the waiter left the table after taking our order.

"Akeed! did you see what you ate bil cinema? haha, idiot!" She said.

"OH MY GOD!!" I laughed so hard.

"What?!" D asked.

"I just remembered the movie, haha, it's amazing!" I said.

"7daa, its soo funny!" D said.


The food arrived, we ate everything, literally.
There was no piece of food in any plates!

D got out her phone, "Lets take a picture of those empty plates for my facebook!"

"Facebook?! since when!?" I asked, surprised.

"Since yesterday, haha i cant believe i didn't tell you." She said.

"And why did you suddenly make one?" I asked.

"Well because i was really bored yesterday around 1AM and decided to make one, my cousin kanat et7en 3lay, w i finally gave in, ohh you should definitely make one!" she suggested.

"Laa waiih mali khelg, mara7 ajabla, whats the point?!" I said.

"Good point, bs its really fun, once you have all your friends and checking pictures, ohh and their applications and super!" she said.

"uhh, i dont know, mali khelg." I said and took a sip of my diet coke.

"You will make one sooner or later!" She said.

"I dont think so." I said. "Excuse me, cheque please!" I said.


Saturday 26th of August
Bedroom
12:30AM


"But danoo, he didnt send anything yet!!" I said, worrying sick over Yousef!

"La tkhafeen sweetie, yemkin he was tired, ilghayeb 3ethra ma3ah, dont worry, inshallah he's fine." she said.

"I can't even sleep! Im really worried!" I said.

"Its okay, just watch any movie or Tv show 3la ma etdoukheen, cos this is not helping, dont over think it, khalaa9, hes fine inshallah, stop worrying, its not good for your face!" she said.

"chub!" I said.

"Wallah, you'll get wrinkles soon!" She said.

"heyy! chub! i'll TRY not to worry.." I said "Thank you sweetie, goodnight, love you!" i said.

"Love you too, goodnight" D said and closed the phone.

2 hours of rolling in the bed trying to sleep, i couldnt.
I was constantly thinking about him.

Is he alright?
Why is he taking that long?
Am i worried over nothing?
Or did something actually happen to Yousef?

I'm going insane here!!


xoxo
- S™

Part ThirtySeven;; "I don't wanna live this life, I dont wanna say goodbye."

Saturday 25th of August
Airport
2:00PM

I checked the text message. it was from Yousef.
"Please tell me you're on your way to the airport to see me before i leave?"

I got over myself and replied, "Yes i'm on my way, be there in 5 minutes."

I quickly walked myself out of the airport so i can play the role well, as if really i just came in.

He replied, "YES YESS, thaank you! i really need you right now!"

I got my phone out and texted him, "Im at starbucks, where are you?"

*BEEP* new text message, "I'm coming now." was the message from him.

I got myself seated in the upstairs starbucks and waited for him.
My heart started beating so fast.

I was looking for my car keys in my huge handbag, cos i wasnt sure i put inside when i suddenly heard his voice.

"Dayouma?" He said.

I jumped and quickly turned towards him.

"Ohh Hii yousef, you scared me!" I said.

"Sorry, besmellah 3laich." he said and got himself seated.

We stared at eachother in silence for a long time.

"How are you?" he asked, breaking the silence.

"Uhh, im fine, you?" I asked.

"Im fine too." he said. "I'm sorry about the other day, i was shocked and i didnt know what to say."

"It's okay, i guess." I said.

"No, it's not, i know i hurt you of how cold i was about the whole situation, but really i was just shocked, and.. i dont know." He said.

"It's okay, let's just get this over with, i dont want you to leave kuwait and we're having fallout, i can't do this to you." I said.

"You're amazing." He said.

I blushed and giggled. "Thank you, you're not bad yourself" I said.

He smiled, and i felt really good.

"i wish i can pause the time right now and just sit here and talk to eachother and be together." He said.

"Yeah, that would be pretty awesome, but you know, we'll have plenty of time to spend together, just go and make me proud." I said, trying to make him feel better about leaving.

"Thank dayouma, wallah i don't know what i'd do without you, i mean it." He said.

"I don't know what i'd do without you either." I said.

Saturday 25th of August
Airport
2:45PM

He took a quick look at his watch.

"Oh i better go to the terminal now.." He said as he was standing up.

"ohh, well i'll walk you there." I said and stood up.

"Okay." He said and waited for me to pass him.

we were talking step by step to the terminal.

"For how long will you stay there?" I asked.

"Four years." He said.

"What? no i mean, will you have breaks? like would you come back to kuwait in the summer holiday or something?" I asked.

"Ohh, well yeah i will try to, cos noway i'd stay there for full 4 years, i cant, i won't survive there." He said.

"Oh,,thats good, cos i dont think i could live without seeing your face for 4 years." I said.

"ba3ad 3umri, dont worry, i'll be back inshallah. what makes you think i can survive 4 years without seeing your beautiful face?" He said.

I giggled and blushed and turned my face away.

We reached the terminal.

He faced me.

"Well, i guess this is goodbye." He said.

"I guess so." I said, trying to be strong and not break down in tears.

"derbalich 3la nafsich okay? please, 3shanii, and dont forget me." He said.

"inshallah,you too, take care, and i could never forget you, we'll speak very soon inshallah." I said.

"definitely, inshallah, w ana awal ma arou7 menak, etha shraitli kha6, i'll send you a message with my number there so we can stay connected." He said.

"Inshallah, goodbye yousef." I said.

"Goodbye dayouma, i love you." He said.

"i...me too" I said, my heart was aching so bad.

"Here." He said and handed me a small bag.

"What's that?" I said.

"It's sometihng to remember me, something that will make you feel that im with you the whole time inshallah." He said.

"Awwh, thanks!" I said. "Waiiit.." i continued, and opened my bag to look for my perfume.

I got out my burberry the beat perfume and gave it to him.

"this will remind you of me, i always wear it." I said.

"Thanks!" He said with the biggest smile on his face.

"You're welcome!." i smiled back.

"Allah la ya7remni minich goulay ameen!?" He said.

"Ameen!" I said and a tear fell down my cheeks.

"Dayoum!!! shgelna!! la tabcheen! la t3awreen galbii" He said.

"Okay, im sorryy! mu beedi wallah!" I said and wipped the tear away.

"3afyah, be strong, 3shan ana a9eer strong too!" He said.

"Okay." I said and smiled.

"Yalla sweetie, goodbye!" He said.

"goodbye, text me as soon as you can! 3shan a3aref enik we9alt bilsalama inshallah." I said.

"Inshallah, bye!" He said and walked away from me. On his way to the terminal that seperates two lovers.

I kept my eyes on him until he was out of my sight.

I felt weak after he's gone.

I slowly walked to my car, feeling hopeless and so weak.

I got into my car.

and then it hit me.

HE'S ACTUALLY GONE!

I starting crying in my car. in the parking of the airport.

I jumped to a girl knocking on my window.

I opened my window and wipped my tears.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

"I'm fine.." I said, feeling totally weird.

"Are you sure? you look very tired." She said.

"Yes im sure, im fine, thank you." I said.

"Okay, deerbalich on the road, bye." She said and walked away.

i was thinking ya7laiilha she asked me and stuff.
I actually felt a little better.

I took a deep breathe and started the car engine.
I drove home and on the way i was listening to the song "Almsaafer" By Rashed alMajed, over and over again till i got home. in one peice. and got myself out of the car, and into the house.

I got into my room and locked the door.

I wanted to be alone for a while.

Saturday 25th of August
My bedroom
6PM

I woke up to my phone ringing. it was D.

"helloo..?" I picked up the phone.

"Heyyy darling, how are you?" she asked.

"Im not okay." I said.

"Awwh, sweetie, what happened?" she asked.

"I went to the airport to see him." I said.

"YOU DID WHAT?! OMG WAIT WAIT, i'll dress up and come over, i have to face you when you tell me this, BYE!!" She said and closed the phone.

I went back to sleep.

20 minutes later,
A crazy hyper on sugar lady enters my room and starts yelling, a.k.a Dana.

"YALLA YALLA WAKE UPP!!!" She said.

"Okaaaaaaaaaaaay!" I yelled.

"Yalla yalla yalla yalla!!" she said.

"Ya al7anaaaaaaaaa!!!" I said

"Yalla goumay" she said and turned on the lights.

"okay." I said and used my hands to cover my eyes from the lights.

She pulled the blankets off of me.

"D!!!! WAAAAAAAY!!" I yelled.

"khala9 goumay, you mesta3sera, yalla goumaay 3an ildala3!" she said.

"inzain inzaiin." I said.

I woke up and told her what went between me and yousef before he left.

"9adgeeni, i think you two will still be strong even when you're apart." she said.

"I hope so, i really hope so." I said.

"Do you want ot go somewhere now?" she asked.

"No i dont feel like it, maybe tomorrow." I said.

"Okay, where do you want to go?" She asked.

"I dont care, where ever." I said.


I was walking D to her car when i remembered.

"THE BAG!!" I yelled.

"What bag?" D asked.

"Yousef gave me a bag before he left, waiit i'll get my car keys." I said and ran upstairs.


Saturday 26th of August
Outside my house
10pm

"What do you think it is?" D asked as i was opening my car.

"I don't know, but the bag smells nice!" I said.

I opened the car and got the bag, i opened it and i found an oversized T-shirt that i assumed was his, and an abercrombie & fitch "Fierce" Cologne. The smell is sooooooooooo amazing.

"Awwh, the tshirt is sooo cute!" D said.

It was a black oversized Tshirt that has joker's face in the middle and it says "Why so scared?"

"I totally love it!" i said.

I said goodbye to D and went back in the house.

I changed into black leggings and wore Yousef's oversized tshirt.
I sprayed the cologne all over my tshirt and my pillow and layed on the bed.

The smell was so amazing, i seriously felt Yousef was next to me.

I closed my eyes and fell asleep.


Saturday 26th of August
My bedroom
11AM

I woke up feeling so sick.
I felt like i can hardly breathe.
It doesnt feel the same without Yousef around.

It has been only less than 24 hours since he's gone and it's too hard already.


I checked my phone for any messages from him.
No messages.

I still havent received any message from him.
He should've arrived in USA by now.

Im starting to worry..

IS HE OK?


xoxo
- S™

Part ThirtySix;; "Baby, I'm so CRUSHED!"

I'm sorry but this post, the conversations will not be in different colors cos i was doing it all and when i was done, my laptop decided to act gay and it froze, so i had to write it all over again, and i dont have the time right now to color them. so i'm gonna make them boring and dull only for this post. :P


(note: I know this post was delayed, sorry for that, I'm writing this post right now on the way home in the car, with the scary weather outside, its dusty and you can barely see anything!! My dad is driving and all the cars turned on their flasher lights, it's really scary.)

I even took the time to take a picture of the weather. :P


but anyways, here is the part you've all been waiting for!!!

Sunday 24th of august
D's bedroom
10:30PM

"D, I'm scared of loosing him!" I said.

"I can't believe Haya went THAT far!" D said, shocked of what i told her.

"I know, i feel sorry for her but still, i mean i dont know what to say to Yousef now." I said.

"Dont tell him anything just yet!" D said.

"No, i have to, i promised him i will tonight, and he knows that i met Haya today! i have to tell him..." I said. "But i dont know what to say.." I continued.

"It's gonna be hard, but he needs to know everything, so you need to tell him, and just get it over with, seriously this is getting you into a lot of stress and you need to get rid of it all." D said.

"Okay, i'm gonna spill everything to Yousef, from the first start to.... OMG!! khaled!" I yelled.

"What about him?" D said.

"I cant tell yousef about Khaled, he's gonna get mad, because i talked to him, i mean i answered his calls.." I said.

"But you didnt know it was him, just tell him eveything and be honest he'll understand." D said.

"He''s leaving in less that 24hours, i dont want him to leave Kuwait with a broken heart." I said.

"He's not gonna be heartbroken, he might get mad because you didnt tell him about it all before but i'm sure he'll understand." D said.

"I hope so, he's leaving tomorrow @ 4PM" I said with a sad tone.

"Awwh sweetie, you'll be fine..!" She said and gave me a hug.

Saturday 25th of August
My bedroom
1:15AM

I called Yousef.

"Aloo.." He said.

"Aloo, halla yousef" I said.

"Hala wallah dayouma, Shlounich?" He asked.

"Im okay, you?" I asked.

"Ham ana okay, haa bashray esh9aar weyach?" He wanted to know.

"I'm gonna tell you everything, from the start to the end." i said.

"Okay, tell me.." He said.

"Look, let me talk and you just listen, let me finish everything and then you can say what you want okay?" I said.

"Okay, start." He said.

"When Haya found out that You and me are together, she got jealous, because unfortunately she's inlove with you, and she did a lot of things just so we could break up, she kept letting this guy called Khaled.. --" I said.

"Khaled?" he interupted me.

"Yousef, what did i say?" I said.

"Ohhh, ohh soorryy, continue.." He said.

"Okay, this khaled drove me nuts, he kept calling me from different numbers, and he even started stalking me when i go anywhere that Haya knows of, remember the two guys that kept staring when me and D were in chocolate bar? yeah, Khaled is one of them im not sure which one though anyways, Haya even gave him my email and he added me on msn, as soon as i knew it was him, i blocked and deleted him, and he kept adding me with different email addresses. Im sure haya is behind this guy called khaled because i have a proof, she sent me an email by mistake asking Khaled about 'her' plan, i was so shocked i couldnt believe it. He knows everything about me, thanks to your cousin, Haya, ma astaab3id etha 3inda a picture of me b3d!" I stopped to breathe.

"Kamlay." He said with an angry tone.

I took a deep breathe.
"Today when i went to see Haya, She was at first asking about our relationship, if we're still together or not, and then she demanded to know, but i told her it was personal and i dont want to talk about it, and then she said she needs to know because she loves you and she even told her mother about you, and.." I stopped again. i felt a warm tear running down my hot cheeks.

"deema, kamlay...la tasketeen!" He said.

I wiped the tears and continued, "and her mother talked to your mother about it, and she said that there is a possibilities that you and...and haya get married after you graduate from USA." I stuttered.

"Are you done?" He said.

"yeah, ta8reeban." I said.

"Okay, Awal shay salfat omii w khaltii, That's ridiculous, shnu ildenya foutha esawoun kil hal 7achi w ana madrii? dont think about that okay?..." He said.

"Okay" I whispered.

"I want to know about Khaled, everything that happened between you too." He said.

"You ask, and i'll answer." I said.

"Okay, did you talk to him on the phone?" He asked.

"Yes i did." I answered.

"How many times?" He asked.

"I dont know, i lost count." I said.

"What was it about when you talked to him?" He asked.

"It was mainly me telling him to leave me alone, and to stop calling." I said.

"Ahaa.." He said.

"What about HAYA!!?" I yelled.

"What about her?" He said.

"WHAT ABOUT HER!!??? WHAT ABOUT HER!!?? WERE YOU LISTENING TO ANYTHING I WAS SAYING!??" I asked.

"Yes i was, calm down!" He said.

"I can't fucking calm down, you asked about khaled, you commented on what happened today, and you didnt even mention anything about hayaa?!" I said.

"Shtabeeni agoul? ilbnt mu 9a7yah, she's my cousin, dont forget that!" He said.

"I dont care if she's your cousin, i can't believe you're not even slightly mad at her!" I yelled.

"Stop yelling deema!!" He said.

Deeema????
not dayouma?
What the fuck is up with him!

"Deema?" I asked.

"ee deema..?" He said.

"Okay, mashkour w ma tgaa9er, ana banam now, tbii shay?" I said.

"shfeeech?" He asked.

"Mafeeni shay!!" I said. hiding my tears.

"La feeech! ya3ni shtabeeni asawee eb Haya? She's my cousin, i can't do anything about her!" he said.

"Yeah whatever, im going to bed, goodnight and have a nice flight!" I said and closed the phone.

I Threw my phone away and layed on the bed crying.

This is soo not the reaction i expected from Yousef.



I was totally shocked.
I wanted to call D, but it was late, and i know she's fast asleep right now.


Saturday 25th of August
My bedroom
5AM

I was still in bed crying.
i dont think there is any more tear left to cry.
My mouth was soo dry, my stomache was aching and so was my heart.

I could never sleep feeling like this.

I got up and looked at myself in the mirror.

I looked terrible.
puffy red eyes with smeared eyeliner and red nose.

I put my hair up and got my towel and headed to my bathroom, i needed to take a bath.

I opened the warm water to fill the tub.
as the water was filling the tub, i sat down thinking of all the things that happened this year. 2008 is definitely a yaer to remember, still few months ahead for the new year to come, i hope it's better than this year. i can't handle more of this anymore.

The tub was filled and i got myself in the bubble bath and started to relax and just forget everything for.....a moment.

Saturday 25th of August
My bedroom

12:30PM

I had over 25 misscalls from Yousef, and 5 misscalls from a home number, which i assumed was Yousef's home number.

I also got 3 text messages from him.

"DAYOUM PLZ RIDAY!!!"

"La ta7gereenii, reday 3alaay, let us talk!"

"Plz Reday, im begging you. or atleast meet me at the airport today, before i leave, i have to see you!"

I was reading the last message when i jumped to my phone in my hand ringing, it was Yousef, by mistake i pressed on the answer button.

I heard him say "ALOO DAYOUM!!!"

I closed the phone.

He called again. and again.

I kept my phone on the maze and turned on the I-pod on shuffle.

"If Tomorrow never comes" by Ronan Keaton started playing.

I felt my heart aching. this song make me sooo sad!

I wanted to skip the song by i couldn't. Part of me wanted to listen to it.

I started singing along to the song.

"Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping

She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes

Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through

And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes"

Suddenly i felt like going to the airport.
To say goodbye in my own way.

*BEEEP* Text message from yousef.

"Are you coming to the airport? Please replay! i need to know!"

I hesitated and replied with, "No."

After that message he called twice.
I felt bad that i was ignoring him on the day that he leaves, but i was soo crushed from his reaction yesterday.

Saturday 25th of August

Airport
1:45PM

I sat on one of the benches observing every single person entering the airport.
I made sure where im sitting is not very visible.
I dont want him to see me there.

Suddenly, i saw Yousef walking through the door with his Traveling bag trolly behind him and a gym bag.
I literally observed every move he did.

He looked kind of pale, but still handsome as always.
It looks like i'm not the only one who couldn't sleep last night.
We both pulled an all nighter after all.

I was crying in silence as he made his way to the terminal.
I can't go any further.
I wanted to scream out his name.
But i couldn't.
Instead i just watched the man that captured my heart leaving..

I never imagined this is how we'd say our 'goodbye'!

*BEEEP* New text message.


xoxo
- S™