AND IM BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!:D
No more breaks inshallah, not anytime soon atleast!!
missed every single one of you! :**
Friday 21th of augustMy bedroom1AM
I've tried calling Yousef countless times, his phone was switched off. and he signed out of Msn, how can i reach him? :S
I need to explain to him!!
BUT HOW!
I didn't tell him about Khaled, shit i'm in trouble, i
thought.
My mind was too tired to function, and to think of a way..
I thought i should sleep and things will sort out tomorrow.
Friday 21th of augustMy bedroom5AM
Several Hours passed and i still can't sleep..
i made an attempt to count till i fall asleep; i failed.
I was still staring at the cieling of my room.
and all i could think about is
"Shda3wa Yousef chethi 3a9aab!" i just dont get it.
What if someone just happen to call when you called? ever think about that before turning away from me?
I wanted to punch someone so bad....someone like KHALED!!
Friday 21th of august
My bedroom6:15AM
Suddenly, i saw the sun shine creeping from my window.
And i was still in the same position, with my I-pod turned on shuffle.
I did not move.
I looked at the time, i still can't sleep, i guess i'm not sleeping today.
I got up, washed my face, put my hair up in a loose bun and got in my black sweatpants and over-sized Oxford jersey and yellow crocs and got into my car.
Friday 21th of augustMy car7:00AM
I plugged in the I-trip and played songs on shuffle.
"Breathe" By Anna Nalick started playing.
I was singing along behind my rayban sunglasses.
The streets were empty.
i got out of Qurtoba and took the firtst U-turn. i'm going to Al-ba7ar.
I was driving 200kl/h in the Gulf road.
There was hardly any cars around me.
I was singing and speeding and i didn't care about anything.
i felt
good....for a while.
I parked in the Scientific centre parking lots and got out of my car.
I sat on the rock bench and stared at the sea.
Few people were passing by, but i felt so lonely.
I felt soo tiny infront of the sea.
I took a deep breath and got out my mobile out of my pocket.
No misscalls, no new messages.
I wanted to try and call Yousef but it was too early.
instead i got into my car and decided to eat something.
Friday 21th of august
McDonald's Drive thru
8:10AM
"Good morning, Ma'am." Mcdonald's Salesmen said as soon as i reached the 'order here' window.
"Good morning, Can i have one McMuffin meal please..?" I said.
"Sure, anything else?" He said.
"Oh yeah, the orange juice with extra ice please." I added.
"Sure, that'll be 950fils." he said.
"Okay.." I said and got a 1KD out of my wallet and handed it to him.
"Thank you ma'am" He said and handed me 50 fils change and the receipt
I drove to the next window to get my order.
I took my order and drove off.
I parked in one of the parking lots near the sea and ate my breakfast, peacefully.
Friday 21th of augustOn the road9:30AM
I decided to go back home, i was in the traffic light of Al-mansouriyah and Qadsiyah one.
I dialed in Yousef's number and pressed on call.
"The mobile has been switched off or is out of the coverage area, please try later."
Ugh.
The lights turned green, i put my phone down and drove.
The next traffic light that caught me, i held my phone and thought that i can probably text him and he'll answer me sooner or later.
"Hii Yousef, Don't get mad without knowing what's going on, please, call me asap." I pressed on send and drove home.
Friday 21th of augustBedroom
4PM
Still no sign of any messages, is it me? or is he making it a REALLY BIG deal? :/
I called D.
"D!!!!" I yelled.
"Heyy dayoum!! shfeech!?" she said.
"Long story! i need your help. come over?" I said.
"Okay, give me an hour or two, i'll finish what i'm doing and then i'll come." she said.
"Okay, love you, ciao!" I said and closed the line.
I opened my laptop and signed on msn bu appreared to be "Offline."
5 poeple were online.
None i was interested in talking to.
Instead i opened the internet explorer and opened Youtube page.
I watched random funny vidoes while eating Skittles.
I almost choked on one.
Friday 21th of augustBedroom6:15PM
D is finally here and i told her everthing.
still nothing from Yousef.
"Ayshay, shda3wa!" D said.
"I know, ufff!" I said,
"ilmushkela he's travelling in 4 days!!! 4 days!! shasawii!!" I yelled.
"Calm down, im pretty sure he'll figure that he's being a drama-king w he'll get over himself!" She said.
"I don't blame him for getting mad, bs atleast give me a chance to explain!" I complained.
"Yeah, he should!" She said.
"CALL HIM!" I jumped.
"what?!" she said.
"CALL HIM, maybe mn your phone he'll pick up?" I said.
"I thought you said his phone was turned off?" She asked.
"Yeah, thats what they tell me when i call him, bs maybe he used the divert calls?" I assumed.
"Maybe, okay i'll call." She said.
I gave her his number and she called. Mobile is switched off.
COME ON!! :/
"You know what, i give up, im not gonna try to call him, im pretty sure he got mor than 10 missU from me!" I said.
"Yeah, i think you shouldn't call anymore, give him time hal dalou3!" She joked.
"Wallah 9ij, narfaznii, ya3ni okay 3a9ib, bs atleast esma3 ilsalfa minni..!" I said.
"EE wallah khala9 entay sawaiitay elly 3laich, lama ohwa he gets over himself ra7 eyee crawling back to you." she said.
"Thanks sweetie!" I said.
"what are bestfriends for?" She said and winked.
"You're the best, wallaah!" I said.
"I try to be!" She joked.
"I have to go now, i'll see you later, let me know what happens!" She said.
I walked her to the door, and she blew a kiss at me on her way to her car.
Friday 21th of augustBedroom9:45PM
Sitting in my room, feeling so empty.
there is something missing.
I seriously need to sleep.
I have a huge haedache but i can't shut my eyes without knowing what will happen next..
And i can't waste any time because i have not much time to fix this. and i'm out of chances to do so!
*BEEEP!* New text message.
xoxo
- S™